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I am going on Vacation soon

by Shaynax 5/6/2014

written by Shaynax

back to my homeplace and I do not the feelings I should. I am not excited or even remotely happy about it. I am frightened. I have the usual, “common”, yet unrealistic anxiety about the actual flight itself. Its the other things I am worried about too. About running out of medication, about having an anxiety attack, about not being able to sleep, about having alcohol, about losing my mind by not having routine, not doing enjoyable activities, having to lie about who I am because my family won’t accept me. I took the vacation in the first place because I needed to escape my […]

5/6/2014 2 comments

Anyone ?

by Octane 5/6/2014

written by Octane

I was wondering if any of you people would like to talk, as I said In my previous post, I’m lonely and Talking to some new people would help.

5/6/2014 10 comments

What will happen?

by Lotofshiz 5/6/2014

written by Lotofshiz

I’m just wondering what will happen if you go to hospital for having an overdose?

5/6/2014 14 comments

lost

by wanderlustnebula 5/6/2014

written by wanderlustnebula

I am screwing up my life for no reason. I just feel like the way I was living was not getting me anywhere, so I decided to drop college and live my life on the road. But I am so fucking scared. I need someone to do this with me. Because if I continue living this life, in which I have to be always high to get trough a day, I will go mad. My life right now doesn’t make me wanna do better. I don’t need happiness. In fact, I kinda want to be miserable, because I am too scared that I really messed […]

5/6/2014 3 comments

Tracks of The Laser Beautiful Bat Cave

by Bisban 5/6/2014

written by Bisban

The sound of darkness. A grapefruit. Devour, and kill me.

One day. After we walk to eternity.

A walking soul of iron armor. Undead, in celibacy to Celestial.

I am, that I am.

Devour me. Kill me.Â Me and you, to infinity.

5/6/2014 1 comment

Everytime I think about…

by MoreThanMyThoughts 5/6/2014

written by MoreThanMyThoughts

… how much I hurt my ex, I feel suicidal.

I feel like if I were dead that things would be better.Â Yes, I know this is irrational… but, some part of me feels that if I didn’t exist anymore, that she wouldn’t be sad about me not being with her.

::sigh::

5/6/2014 1 comment

CD 1, Track 5. On media player sounds better. Will I ever in optimum sound. Let’s come get it.

by Bisban 5/6/2014

written by Bisban

Abra. The sound of peace.
A Gengar, in a speed of chaos.
Cosmic Cain, and Cosmic Abel.
Humanity. Oh, humanity.
Chapter one of God, yet to be written.
The New Age Bible, speak of today’s devil.
There once was a crusade. Long, long ago.
The belief lost, but a child to believe.
The story… Of the unknown.

God; resuscitate, in the name of Death.
Chapter One, of God.

.. “Chained,” there once was an iron horse. He was born, in the world of Cain. Wishing, for only to rest.

5/6/2014 5 comments

No one to blame

by KIRA 5/6/2014

written by KIRA

I tried so, but nothing worked properly.I don’t mind, not anymore.I did everything I could, I did my best but it wasn’t enough.I’m not mad.I’m ok.I know it’s not my fault.I’m so small.I’m just a tiny stupid spot in this infinitely big and stupid universe.I’ll commit suicide.I’m not the first and I won’t be the last one.I’m just a me.I’ll be just one more.I recognize my smallness and my insignificance and I accept them with a stupid smile on my face. 🙂

5/6/2014 7 comments

Cherish

by KIRA 5/6/2014

written by KIRA

I know that my life has become pure suffering, all my dreams, all my fears, all the passion and all the devotion are now smashed into shards.However, I started to remember everything with joy and nostalgia … my memories are coming back in flashes : the way I used to sit and stare at a tree; the taste of my favourite ice cream; how funny it was to play with my friends in my childhood…
I’ve lived for so long.17 years.It’s curious to think that there are people who want to live for 100 years, and I’m unhappy enough with 17.It was a life.I’ve […]

5/6/2014 4 comments

Confusion

by Terra 5/6/2014

written by Terra

I’m just so fucking confused. Where do I fit in life. I’m a 15 year old girl. I have no more friends my grades are horrible and I have developed bad socail anxiety. I feel like I can’t be myself around people. I’m just trapped in what people expect me to be. I’m so tired of being a dissapointment just because I want to be me. Now I just turn into a different person around people to please them and I’m tierd of it. I don’t know what I’m going to do with my life and after highschool my grades aren’t good enough to go […]

5/6/2014 1 comment

by snowflake 5/6/2014

written by snowflake

5/6/2014 12 comments

Day 4.

by Sheisme 5/5/2014

written by Sheisme

She cried in her own hands, asking what did she do to deserve this much pain. This pain has been stuck inside her for too long, too long for her to believe that this is the punishment for something she has done wrong. But then she thoughtÂ for no more than a second before realizing, ” I don’tÂ deserve this, I deserve better!”

For every single person who is suffering from internal pain, we deserve better than this.

No person should have to endure such hurt. We are all human, born sinners, who have a lifetime to make things right.

If you are anything like me – someone […]

5/5/2014 3 comments

I don’t know anymore.

by xochi 5/5/2014

written by xochi

I’ve been depressed on and off for about four years. I was in love with a good guy friend of mine. He moved away for a year and began dating his childhood best friend. About a year later I met a guy I liked. He was smart and funny in a dorky way. Things got complicated and it didn’t work out. This is when I first began to experience my depression. I listened to music most of the time, slept long hours, and neglected my homework and chores. I became a recluse. For months I was in a haze, but one day I snapped out […]

5/5/2014 2 comments

progressive house

by Remnant The Unbroken 5/5/2014

written by Remnant The Unbroken

it’s an interesting genre of music, but this is my favorite song within it.

As a sufferer of badÂ GAD and social anxiety, having to ride the bus out to college was extremely stressful and at times distressing as my anxiety would flare up real bad. But this song helped me at least enjoy the view out the window in the early morning with the sun painting the sky a brilliant orange. Unless it was winter. Then the sky was shitty and black.

Lol, well, I hope you at least enjoy this song.

5/5/2014 18 comments

Introduction

by Octane 5/5/2014

written by Octane

Hello,

Unlike most people here my situation is not critical…

I have no friends, But not because of my personality or anything, I just dont talk to people alot, I’m affraid to talk to people. So most of my days I’m sitting here, alone, listening to the radio or watching TV. Nobody Called me for christmas or my birthday…

As for “suicide” well, I’ve been thinking about it for a good year or so.

Everynight it was “Should I do it ?” And of course, I ended up falling asleep, Or I decided not to do it.

I actually “wanna Die” because I think it’ll be easier than to have […]

5/5/2014 3 comments

by Perfumepipes 5/5/2014

written by Perfumepipes

what went wrong babygirl

5/5/2014 0 comment

Broken

by LetItGo 5/5/2014

written by LetItGo

Oh its been so long
So very very long
Since the last time
I talked to you
About everything thats going on
I know I’ve been vague
I’ve been mysterious
But I have to keep things
Feelings thoughts etc
From you
So you don’t worry about me
But maybe it’s time
Time to tell you how I am.
How am I?
Physically?
Sore.
I feel broken.
I’ve got a few scars.
Yeah from that.
I don’t know how to cope.
I thought I could manage
I guess not.
How am I?
Mentally?
Terrible.
Awful.
Horrible.
Every day criticism.
Yelling.
Slapping.
One of my lights went […]

5/5/2014 1 comment

Idnt know what I feel

by E-rom12 5/5/2014

written by E-rom12

Fucking tired of everything maybe I just can’t bare the fact that I’m worthless in every way

5/5/2014 2 comments

title

by BoSe76 5/5/2014

written by BoSe76

You just don’t know when the moment will occur: I’ll be alright one moment and then it happens, she ruins it somehow. But I get over it and…

5/5/2014 0 comment

im depressed

by depressed_chick101 5/5/2014

written by depressed_chick101

i have become bored.i have become depressed again.there are times where i think if i get drunk or high it will go away but then it all goes away and once again i feel the pain.if you have ever did what i did to your family you know its hurts.i use to think my mom didtn care or love me.i alway thought she hated me and that i was a mistake.i honestly dont know what the hell i was thinking.when my mom found me and ishe looked at my right arms she couldnt believe her eyes.she saw 32 fresh cuts and didnt know why i […]

5/5/2014 0 comment

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