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So im new on here. I just need somebody to talk to about the crap that is going on in my life. Please I need someone.
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After being beaten and abusea by my step farther I run away from home. i spent 2 years sleeping rough before they found me. Refusing to go home he beat me again, this time rupturing my spleen. I was in hospital over 2 months. No one came to visit No contact from any one. Sum years later I am still bitter and angry. I have a gross scar that take up most my chest and can’t take my shirt off without people looking and asking questions. I don’t sleep well and often wake up screaming. I struggle to make friends, trust people an have been […]
As of today I am 3 months clean but it just doesn’t feel right. I miss my friends but i get anxiety around people.. I’m scared of how they’ll react. It’s about to be a year since I’ve seen any friends.
I’ve been in DBT for almost 7 months now. Why did I think it would be my saving grace? I think that sometimes you can’t be saved. Sometimes we aren’t supposed to be saved. I have never been whole. Death has been watching me for a very very long time. I wish it would get it over with.
She’s never gonna take me back…
I’ve hated my life for so long I have no idea what being happy is I’ve hung myself nothing drank bleach and window cleaner and threw it back up I want to die but I’m scared to but I fear the next day and dread today I want to leave this world and live a life where I control what happens not others controlling and ruining my life I’m the outcast of my school everyone thinks I’m a joke or that one guy who replaces a girls boyfriend until they find another or that one guy who is a replacement everything I sit in the […]
I’m not a smoker, but a cigarette with coffee hits the spot sometimes. I like the way I get spun up on nicotine and caffeine since I hardly ever have either.
It lifts my lazy depression and maybe…..just maybe will be enough to get where I’m destined to go tonight.
Really don’t want to see another morning
So if you haven’t read my bio I’m 14 years old. To the surprise of many, I work. Today, I was feeling pretty down, but my job requires me to look perky, like there’s nothing wrong with me and the world (as if). Â Subsequently, I kept a smile plastered on my face, even though the whole time I just felt like crawling into a hole so I could lay there and die. An englishman came into my line, and of course he had one of those awesome accents. I asked him if he were from the UK. He was pretty old, and it looked like […]
Hi. I’m Dolly. I’m going to attempted to explain ME through things that I hate.
Enjoy.
I hate when people say if you wanted to die you would have killed yourself already.
I hate when people think I’m too pretty to REALLY commit suicide.
I hate when I try to talk to someone about my world it doesn’t seem important.
I hate when my boyfriend beats me. Then makes me prostitute after.
I hate being his prostitute.
I hate when an abusive step dad goes”unnoticed”
I hate animal abusers.
I hate that my friends can commit suicide but I can not.
I hate when my boyfriend slaps me […]
I feel people get hung up on the reasoning for killing yourself more than the lack of desire to live. When you look at it that way, then you can appreciate the motive.
Where else in life, outside of work and certain family dynamics, are you forced to do something you’re obviously not wanting to continue? Everything has an exit door, life isn’t any different.
Withdrawn.
I can’t figure out why that still astonishes me. Clearly i have encountered this aspect of reality, countless times… but each further encounter, with such things, continues to astonish me.
And i realize this must be some kind of “flaw” in my perception or cognition… but i just can’t seem to avoid being astonished by that, for which i’ve already seen plenty of evidence to justify a reasonable and unwavering expectation.
It’s troubling to me, even on a personal level, because i realize i shouldn’t be astonished, due to the sum total of all my experiences, and the plethora of seemingly endless evidence and indications, serving to […]
over the past few months I’ve pretty much realized and accepted the failure that I am and that feeling inside me doesn’t go away. I’m sick and tired of it and each time all the expectations that are brought infront of me by my parents make me realize even more of the enormity of how badly I’m failing them. it kills me inside and each time I get these supposed wake up calls it makes me so angry inside and I cut myself and keep moving the blade over and over my first cut. I let the blood flow, see the trail and ponder over the […]
If anyone wants to talk about something, anything, please send me a message somehow. I feel like I’m about to break and I don’t know what I’ll do. So please. Someone, anyone.
I am 45 years old and an electrician who is currently laid off my second wife of 8yrs and I just separated i’m on community Corrections for a DUI i got last year got blow machine on my truck and no income so i’m kinda fucked but really i put out my mind the bad shyt focus on tomorrow
I can’t remember how I got to this point where I don’t want to carry on.
I thought I was getting better but my wrist are raw and bloody and my tears taste of salt.
Gradually and then suddenly is what I tell the few who notice.
It’s like waking up one morning, afraid you’re going to live.
I don’t know if I’m depressed, or just going through some seriously effed up hormonal phase that all teenagers go through. To be honest, I have nothing to complain about. My parents fight, sure, but it’s not like bottles are being thrown around the house. Except I remember one night my dad punched down his bedroom door. But my dad usually isn’t like that. That was a first. He’s no drunk either , and he loves me. I’m pretty sure about that. My mom and I don’t like each other. She has a maternal love for me, and that’s about it. I understand that. I love her […]
I’m freaking out. There was a guy on here and he was helping me out and I was doing the same for him. We talked by commenting on one of his posts back and forth. Now the post has been deleted and I can’t find his account and I don’t know what to do. I’m worried sick.
As soon as all my letters are written,
As soon as I say goodbye to the people I care about,
And as soon as I help this one person,
I’m leaving…
I know how, when, and where.
I already have the reasons why.
Everyone getting under my skin, pushing me down.
For the past couple days, things were going so great, but now I just want to drown.
The tears stream down my face,
Why am I such a disgrace?
My whole world filled with so much hate,
Now I know this is my fate.
Everyone getting under my skin, telling me what to do.
They’re inflicting so much pain, but it’s what I’m used to.
Memories that can’t be replaced,
All my efforts gone to waste.
My whole world filled with so much hate,
Now I just need to escape.
Everyone getting under my skin, telling me what to say.
They tell me I’ll never do it, that I need […]