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Being poor means living in a sh*t neighborhood in a sh*t apt with super thin walls and sh*t neighbors that are psycho and drive you crazy.
Being poor means not being able to go out and do things because everything costs money.
Being poor means not having a car which means you can’t get anywhere.
So does money = happiness?  No, but but it definitely helps to alleviate a shitload of misery.
Life will be fine. God is with you. Just breathe. I was really suicidal almost 2yrs ago. I was trying all sorts of methods than 1 day i tried a certain method and literally almost passed out. I needed a way to get out of trying to kill myself. One day I was searching online and found this place.I wrote did amyone want to talk because I needed a good friend to vent to and I wanted them to vent back. Guess what? I found my Bestest friend on here! Me and him just connected. It was so akward at first, we would email back […]
So I thought lets do my make up and then go down stairs to eat but.. I did my founation and it was worse then normal so I washed my face and did it again. Ended up doing it 3 times. Worse then normal. Then when I washed my face again I nearly lost my balance and got soap in my eye. I wanted to scream! I had never experience something like this. I was thinking that the devil is playing tricks on mme for fun. I also started crying and thought why should I be alive. Just like I told my mom. Who said: […]
…You know what, despite everything I’ve done to myself, I’m done with myself, because I hate myself. I’m only living now for others, I’m living because they want e to, I’ve been feeling like this for quite some times now after it went away it seems to come back again and I’ve not been able to tell anybody about it. to get by, every day seems like four days and every night seems like I’m fading into a black hole to despair and doom again, I’m not ready to surrender to people for being myself, but I am willing to surrender myself up for […]
I’ve bin confused lately all i can think about is whether i should kill myself or not i’ve bin so depressed idk why though i feel like im nothing all i feel is pain i can’t stop watching suicidal videos cannot stop thinking about it before i even go to bed i’ve tried i have sharp nails so i scratch myself with them it’s the easiest way to help me instead of cutting myself with a knife. Please i know it sounds stupid coming from me … but if your thinking of suicide please i beg you don’t you have meaning and life in this […]
Doing better. Doing worse. If this goes on any longer, I don’t know what I’ll be capable of. Trying to be strong. My mind is breaking down. Snapping. The pressure, no release valve. I can’t shut it off. I made this decision. Made it for good reasons. I have tried to overcome myself and can once again feel myself slipping. everything crushing in so tight. can’t see anything. I can feel my mind falling away. My testament, my great push to become better, falling into another facade, another lie. I keep trying. trying to be strong. how long will it last. So strong, rigid, it […]
its not my fault i was born this way. its not my fault this has happened to me. im so sorry! i have tried so hard. it doesn’t matter. i am letting down those who i love the most. i cant live like this…
I’m supposed to be sleeping but bleh. I hate these nights when all that goes through my head is how bad I am, that I am simply a waste of a human being. The people I would call my bestfriends based on others’ definition are people who I can’t vent out on. I can’t tell my family because they won’t even care. How I act is completely different from how I feel, appearing to be bubbly and weird in a funny way. I don’t know how they will see me in this state and how I will be treated. I like to think that I’m […]
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My boyfriend and I have been fighting a lot lately. It’s always my fault. I get mad at him for no reason. But it feels like a reason to me. I’ve been thinking about it lately. I don’t know how I feel about him anymore. We loved each other before. He still loves me. I haven’t been able to tell him whole heartedly that I love him in weeks. I told him tonight I don’t even think about hanging out with him anymore. I didn’t tell him I can’t imagine a future without him. I don’t know what to do. He asked me to marry […]
A serious suicide attempt is not a cry for help.
It is a cry that started when we emerged from our mother’s wombs. How happy did any of us look then? And the sickening thing, the beaming smiles on the faces of our owners, I mean “parents”. How greedy parents look when that new child emerges. “You are mine”, they cry, “mine forever”. And how the child screams, shrieks and squirms to get away from them, to get away from all of it.  All of it a grotesque, bloody, display of ownership and enslavement; a foreshadowing of what is to come.
A suicide attempt is a cry for freedom from […]
I may not be suicidal but i do get depressed because of my lack of motivation and my fear of the future and this is what i like to listen to. So i made a playlist with some music that is nice to the ear and yes i know its hip hop but these songs are not the normal type you see its deep and all about the soft beats and the lyrics. Its poetry with beats. I feel like theres alot of rock and i wanted to put in something diffrent. Do me a favor and atleast listen to The Book  Of soul. Thanks people […]
The thoughts came on fast. This was about 10 minutes ago. They have never been this strong in my life. Usually I don’t break down and cry when I have suicidal thoughts but this time I did. I just started thinking about my childhood and playing on the beach with my mom and watching my dad sit around in the ocean. I remembered the small irrelevant things like the one time I fainted when my mom was brushing my teeth. Then I pictured myself now. Actually considering dying. It seems so surreal. Thinking about never being able to touch water again. Never being able to […]
“Yeah, the whole thing begins, and I let you sink into my veins, and I feel the pain like it’s new.”
I ‘ve tried and tried to forget. the pain. the tears. the laughing. the smiling. the places. the memories. you. And no matter what I do or say, I can’t. I miss it all, every second and day of it. I miss how close we were. Now it’s just gone, without any explanation. Not even a good-bye. I put away all the things you gave me so I wouldn’t be as reminded of you. It helped for awhile. But then I took out the letter…. […]
As I walked home today, I realized that me–and people like me–are like lonely rocks that sit unmoved in a river. Allow me to explain.
Imagine life and all of it’s interactions–people growing up, becoming influenced, learning, meeting other people, having kids, influencing the world–all that stuff. Imagine all of that as a body of water, or in this case, a river that flows and travels in a certain direction. Kind of like how most people are; they just go with the flow and as a result, they are rewarded with being a part of a greater collective that supports them. Of course, the “river” may diverge […]
right now……I want this to be over!
…right now….I want this to be over….
We, people who lack strength, keep doing the same things repeatedly. We’ve forgotten the feeling of being alive. We can’t tell if we are living or dead. Do you feel that you are “alive†now? At this stage, only a thin line separates living and dead.Therefore the sayings, “life is valuable, you should not commit suicideâ€, “if you stay alive, everything will have a turning pointâ€, “your friends and relatives will feel sad for your death, so you have to stay alive†can all be put aside; these are not convincing anymore. The convincing words which can stop one from committing suicide vanish; the signal […]
I wonder if we only met in a wrong time.
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