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I kinda got lucky a few days ago. This being said, I’m now the first blind wrestler in my state that has made it to the state tournament. And a pin, to show it.
Who knows, maybe some girl will magically fall in love with me.
I’ve been coping since the middle of December. I just can’t get past everything that has happened.
I was sexually abused from age 9-12 by my father’s half-brother. At 18, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, depression, PTSD, and borderline personality disorder, for which I was in a state psychiatric facility. While I was a patient there, I was on a pass (meaning I could leave the hospital premises, which that time I was for a week). On the last full day, I was raped by someone who I knew and was a childhood friend. I refuse to tell my family about the rape because they […]
Hi Guys,
How are you? Again sorry its so late… Well it’s really not that late… Only not really… It’s 9 here…. Soo yeah…
How am I? Does it matter? Does it matter how I am? Does it matter what I am feeling? No it doesn’t. It doesn’t matter. I don’t matter. Only you matter. I don’t. So yeah…. Um yeah…
Here’s a monologue thingie:
I have it planned out. I wouldn’t say goodbye. I wouldn’t tell you. It’d be a surprise. You would think I am fine. Because I am. To you I am fine. To you I am doing just great. To you I am perfectly […]
How are you???
Don’t start your day with the broken pieces of yesterday.
Every day is a fresh start.
Each day is a new beginning.
Every morning we wake up is the first day of our new life.
Where there’s life, there’s hope…
I hope everyone is Fine ^_^
All The Best <3
to be honest, all what i think about now is killing myself. there is absolutely nothing good about my life. i know people have it worse, but i can’t bare with it anymore. i just want to jump in front of a car and die. i know my family will act like they miss me, but i am positive they’d be happy that i am gone. same with my friends. in fact, i don’t even have many friends. maybe 2 at the most. i just want to mean something to someone, i want to mean something to myself.
I’m tired of people saying that they understand my situation that I should just get over it. I’m sorry my unhappiness is bothering you, would you like me to leave? Like holy shit. I get it I may be a downer but back the fuck up and revaluate yourself, you aren’t little miss perfect either. I make mistakes, I do stupid things I’m human just like you and the rest of this world.
Through early morning fog I see
Visions of the things to be
The pain that are withheld for me
I realize and I can see…
That suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please
The game of life is hard to play
I’m going to lose it anyway
The losing card I’ll someday lay
So this is all I have to say.
That suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please.
The sword of time will pierce our […]
How do you tell your mom you’re depression is coming back? Or that you’re feeling really down again and don’t know what to do? Because I kmow my mom will freak. Help?
Sometime I just wanna kill myself but people are in my way and I cant do anything but I really don’t want to live anymore here,i hate the fact that everyone talks behind my back and they were the ones I thought are always their for me.And it hurts a lot like I really don’t wanna be here .
Sometimes I hear or see something I don’t want to when i’m with a group of people , and I see things that just hurt me and I want to burst into tears but I don’t want people to see the true me. It hurts being one of the only people from you’re group wanting to kill yourself every minute of day.
Just wondering if anyone here would miss me at all if I offed myself. I come here to vent and wallow. Really I probably come off as an asshole. I see a lot of people here posting saying they care about people here. Idk if I can believe that. We are just words behind a keyboard. You don’t know me. We have never met and probably never will. Why ? How do you vet attached to words on a screen?
Alright everyone. I’ve hit writers block in my book and I don’t know who else to turn to other that you guys 🙂 If I can get ANY help from ANYONE, I’d love and greatly appreciate it!!!
Its been some time since my last post, maybe a week maybe two. Time has been slipping past so fast I barely even notice it. It still is the same grey world but now there is something different about it. I gave myself a fighting chance. After I had posted I felt a small relief on myself my story was out somewhere and none judged it, instead they offered support and wishes for well being. Thats when I decided upon something.
I will make a stand for who I am and what I want. I refuse to beaten and pummeled by something that is not even […]
(Long post. Sorry.)
Only in the last few months have I felt this way, and it seems to be getting more intense (although manageable). I’m in my second marriage to someone that I love, respect and adore, but that is quickly falling apart. She can’t stand me. This morning she told me that she wants a divorce, and she’s serious. I will give it to her for her sake. Left up to me I’d fight her on it, but she really, really just wants out, and I’m 100% the reason why (her words).
My ex wife always said I was controlling and abusive, and I initially thought […]
My name is Tara Paige, and I live in Whitestown, Indiana. I attend Lebanon Senior High School; newly remodeled, multi-million dollar school.
My first year at this school was last year, my junior year. I LOVED it there! So many opportunities, so many nice people, teachers always wanting to help you with anything and everything! But, it didn’t last long. Everything I thought, was proven wrong to me second semester.
First semester was amazing! I made so many new friends, started crushing on a cute boy, had great grades, staying busy and just enjoying time with my new amazing friends.
Second semester came around and my life changed […]
because they all here on sp
being in the phase of ex-stream suicidal or depressed is worthful experience of a human life, very few get chance to experience it.
All sp visitors are fortunate to experience all the pain in the world.
If there are so many people in the world that feel like me, like us, why do I feel so alone? Like nobody can understand my thoughts? Like I can’t ever be 100% sincere sharing them? If there are so many people on here that feel the same way, why aren’t you the girl sitting next to me in class? Why aren’t you one of the people I have to see every day? Are we meant to die little by little of loneliness in the end? Is that what we deserve?
Feeling nothing,
PURPLEPAIN
The only thing that keeps me living is knowing that at any moment I can choose plan B. I would go  crazy otherwise. I’ll eventually do it anyway. You can’t fire me. I can quit. Why stay at a job you hate. I think its funny when people say don’t kill yourself. You will go to hell. Don’t you want to go to heaven? Lmfao. I know there is a hell and you don’t have to die to visit it either. It’s not that I want to die. Just wish I didnt have to be around another minute to suffer through it more. I don’t […]
If somehow you found yourself already having resolve and reason to kill yourself how would you do it?
For me (and I know its “selfish” and wrong) it would be suicide by cops because even though I think of myself as a waste of space I think just killing myself would not accomplish much on my agenda; might as well take the people I hate with me right? I mean if I just up and killed myself through hanging or jumping or whatever …who would care? no one. might as well release what has been pent up inside me for all my life in my last […]
im shivering
im cold
im crying
im broken
im alone
im terrified
im shivering
doors close
radio on
darkness within
no light
pain hurts
hurting now
doors close
feeling lonely
feeling useless
feeling worthless
feeling terrible
feeling hurt
feeling suicidal
feeling lonely
i scream
i yell
i talk
i whisper
i hear
i listen
i scream
within me
within darkness
within pain
within hurt
within loneliness
within brokenness
within me
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