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Do you ever get that feeling that you would just want to cry your heart out, but you just can’t make yourself to cry?
I have noticed that this disgusting thing is happening to me again. It’s that no matter how sad, depressed, angsty or mad I feel, I can’t cry. It’s been a whole summer, about two months, and no single tear has came fom my eyes even though I have wanted to cry just to let this horrible feeling out of me. I don’t know why, but it’s causing me very bad feeling that is just growing stronger and bigger and I can’t […]

Do you ever get that feeling like you don’t know what’s happening to you but at the same time you know exactly what it is? It’s like you know the word they describe it but when you’re experiencing it, it’s foreign to you, like something you’ve never handled before. But you know it. You’ve been there before. You’ve lived through it. But it’s as if time rewound itself and you’re experiencing it again for the first time.

I thought I’m free…safe. Maybe I was just running away. Maybe, I’ve never really been able to handle anything. My default is to shove it all in a box […]

I am deeply frustrated….. and fucked up again…..does anyone know a good manga read?

When someone asks ” Do you get thoughts of suicide?” or ” Do you think of suicide?”

I often say “Yes, but not of committing suicide just in general” I don’t think they believe me when I say that but can’t someone think about suicide in general and not be suicidal?

Educate me on the difference?

While all my friends are out having the time of their lives together, I find myself stuck in this god forsaken town. Every dream, every goal, and every plan I had when moving here has burned and fallen to ashes on the ground. Fuck my life; fuck all the people who put me in this position.

All my life is bad, bad, bad. It never ends. I feel like I am a kid in gym class playing dodge ball but everyone else is on the other team. I’m standing here getting helplessly pelted. Maybe getting hit by one ball doesn’t hurt, it’s hardly noticeable. But when […]

I said I’m fine.

I really meant I’m not fine, please help me.

I said I’m just tired.

I meant I can’t take this anymore.

I said I already ate.

I meant I am starving.

I said go away.

I meant show me you care enough to stay.

I said I’m just cold.

I meant I didn’t want you seeing the scars.

I said I was better.

I meant I have never been this bad.

I said I’m okay.

I meant I want to die.