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Im pretty sure i like the idea of dying more then i like the idea of living.

For me, i dont see the point in living to be honest. We all die one day.

Im not the same person i was 3 years ago. Everything has changed for me.

3 years ago, my mother died. i was only 14.

i guess id rather be with her then with the people im with now.

im never happy anymore… like at all.

i fake it all the time. i guess everyone does at some point.

i can never be open with anyone because im scared they are just going to judge me.

id rather torture […]

I am a fool

I am unlovable

I am unwanted

I am unaccepted

I am alone

I am the voice of despair

I am the eyes of depression

I am the smell of deaths disregard

I am forgotten

I live way out in the desert in a small small area. I moved out here because my husband and I thought it would be great for our animals. Soon after we moved way out here both of our cars died and we had no way to get them fixed. I was the the only one working and I lost my job because I couldn”t get to work. I used up all the rides I could get. We lost the home we were buying due to no money. By the time we were evicted frpm that house we still owed 20 bucks for water. We […]

Well, i somehow found this website, why not share my miserable story. I’am a 25 year old male, born in former soviet union asshole of a country, in a poor family, my parents were young and stupid, did not plan me, i wish so badly that my mother had an abortion instead… Parents split early,  mom started living with this aggressive guy who abused her and controlled her by fear, he beat her, sometimes for my fuck ups when i was a child.  She is still living with him just because of fear. My dad is a total loser, never could see up to him, […]

So.. My triplet sister got married yesterday. Our other triplet is a brother. My sister are practically one in the same person and I know we have an incredible bond. We have both had previous marriages and relationships and that part is nothing new. Before my sister met her now husband ( wedding was yesterday) she had gone through a break up the previous year. I would call her everynight to check on her and often travel an hour every couple of months to make sure that she didn’t have to spend an evening alone.
Last August she met an amazing man and immediately they […]

Something terrible happened today. I just had a hard conversation with my roommate. And now this question keeps popping up in my head: How well do we know people around us? How well do we know ourselves?
My roommate has been psychologically bullied by her boyfriend for more than a year. How silly of me thinking she was happy, lucky to have someone even though i witnesed some of the fights but somehow i thought they deserve each other. It was the first time i saw her so weak, so worn out…She confessed she has no real friends and no one to talk to except me, […]

I wish I didn’t, I wish I could just cheer up and stop being “annoying” and “irritating” like everyone says. I just cant help this feeling I have, its like I cant see anything hopeful for myself in the future, like I’ve ruined myself through my own idiotic actions and there’s no way I can fix them. I’m 17 and a junior in high school, I’ve played no professional sports for my school, and I don’ really have any accomplishments to hold myself to or any group to say I’m part of or essential to. I don’t have my drivers license or a job, even […]

Hello.

I will be around for the next 2 hours if anyone wants to talk. I don’t mind what it is, I just want to listen and advise. No judgement.

<3

I will refresh page every 5 mins.

So i’m looking for the most effective way to go.

I’m thinking about taking several sleeping pills and then hanging..?

Any ideas..

Preferably accessible.. 

Plz Respond.

It’s all gotten too much, a gradual and long drawn out slow painful 2 year’s that I can not believe and I’m left with only one option my suicide. Well I am 40 single and never been married, no children and only one family member, my mother who I live with. I have a history of depression that lifts what seems briefly for 6 months at best. Also a chronic back pain condition that meens constant pain, have pain meds saved an ready for attempts. Have been usein drugs for a few years to numb the pain, not worked for year’s, and a string of […]

I’m not going to say I want to die. I’m not going to say I’m sad or depressed. I don’t really need to. I mean who wants to die, who would want to kill themselves. I’d like to say that person isn’t me. It hasn’t been me for 11 years. I wasn’t that child laying on the floor at 12 years of age, her sister begging her to live. I don’t want to be that person who moments before writing cried because the chord around her throat wasn’t tight enough. It didn’t stop the air flow, it didn’t stop the tears. I don’t want to […]

G’day,

It has been a heavily frustrating and lonely road for the last 15 or so years. Social anxiety has consumed much of this time and although I’ve attempted suicide once before, it has been very difficult to make another attempt. This may be a very positive thing; but, I can’t help but feel an increased sense of anxiety with each failed attempt at meeting with new people.

It’s interesting that as I get more comfortable with being a social outcast, it seems that I lose more of my social ability, from what little there was to begin with anyway.

It may be something to do with giving […]

I don’t know if I want to die, yet I know I don’t want to go on living. So I have to settle somewhere in between. With starvation and wanting to cut and die. I don’t care how I look, I just want to feel something but loss. Because friends are no longer friends when you’re a cutter.

Dear ex-friend,

Why did u have to leave me. Ever since u left, my life has
fallen apart. I don’t want to exist anymore. I don’t want to
live but I don’t want to die. I don’t want to exist. I am a
coward. It was not your fault. U just represent
something that I used to have. Something that I lost that was
once very important to me. It […]