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Illandfed lost your contact details.just to let you know I am still thinking of you. S
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For general topics related to the site.
Illandfed lost your contact details.just to let you know I am still thinking of you. S
Hope things are OK for you.
To all you beautiful people out there that are having a hard time,
You’re all amazing people and very strong too, if any of you need to talk to anyone about your problems/feelings i am here for you! No matter what time, no matter when i will reply and help you through these dark times.
You are all worth a million and no one should be telling you otherwise, i truly understand what some of you may be going through that is why i’m posting this on here today to, help you.
My email for anyone that wants to chat to me about anything and i mean anything..
I need you right now… Where are you? Why have you left me?
I don’t see a point in living, the only reason I have lived up to now is because of you. Â Why can’t I be stronger? Why do I have to fall apart all the time.
I want to die…
Each Day Is Harder . The Feelings Of Suicide Takes Over Me A lot . I’ve Been Looking Up A Good Way To Go … Not Necessarily A Good Way But Quick . I Hate Living In This Cruel World . My Mom Doesn’t Love Me And My Dad Tried To Rape Me ! I’m Only 17 ! I’ve Been Rapped 3 Times . I Was Once Drugged By A Man And Dont Remember … I Hate My Life ! Help Me …
Im going to start from the beginning.
I never met my dad and I know little about my mothers life.
My mother got addicted to hard drugs in her early teen years and never fixed her life. She had a hard life, she got sexually abused by her dad and had also gotten raped a few times. She had me in her early twenties and when I was born I had Herion and cocaine in my blood. From the time I was born to when I was 7 years old, she had gotten in trouble with the police and also had near death experiences involving […]
i havent been on in a while… about a month..
well uhm…
the bulling started to go away..
i felt happier..
i felt good ..
but then..
one person diddent like that…
they started it back up..
im constantly bullied now..
atleast once in every class every day..
i dont want to tell my mom because she doesent understand..
my mother adn sisster act like their higher adn better then others and their not..
ive cried alot more lately..
i feel really down lately..
and i just dont really know how to describe the rest…
i feel really bullied…
and theirs noone i can tell everything to ..
or atleast what i want to tell..
i keep inside alot of things..
im just kinda […]
I am pretty sure endofanera passed. She was very determined to succeed. I won’t give out the details but a  little detective work gets the job done
RIP. i know I should be sad but this gives me hope. I know she wanted this so much. Â I’m getting closer and this helps me steady myself. It will be okay.
Time has grown short
I have missed my chance
To do something crazy
Something to stand out of the crowd
My last minutes here pass by with every breath
I can feel her
The warm soothing hands of mother death
Beckoning me to go with her
Everything goes black
Mother death guides me
Through a long dark tunnel with a light at the end
Heaven
A simple easy new path
I spread my wings and fly in peace
Reuniting with the people I’ve longed for, for many memorable years
I am finally free to be me
I thank thee mother death
You’ve saved me
-JD
I feel like everything would be much simpler and easier if I was dead. I can’t handle the daily […]
well, i was at at party the other night (and when i say party, think about a group of people watching movies and eating ice cream, not everybody getting trashed and wrecking a house). well anyway, it was at a friends house who i have known since i was 6, so eight years. she invited a few guys over. one of which she was hoping was going to be her boyfriend.
so we were sitting on the couch and i was sitting near the end. one of the guys came and sat next to me, and then so did my friend and her ‘bf’. my friend told […]
we always say society is a ***** society destroys us, It’s all society’s fault that were like this….but were part of society…
So I keep reading stories of how suicide suriviors seem to often regret there choice.
How many people out there if attempted and survived regret it?
(my answer would be I would have been happier to have died 10 yrs ago when I tried it)
I remember when I was younger, how the little things would make me happy. You know, the smallest fucking things, like playing in the mud with my sister, or staying home from school and hanging out with my mom. I wish that I could pinpoint exactly when everything fell apart, y’know? When my father stopped loving me, when the abuse began, when the addictions began, when I become a failure. I got kicked out. I’m only 18. I guess it’s a fair age to be forced to leave your home, right? I guess. I have no job, no friends, nothing. I don’t have anything. And […]
So over the summer i tried a drug called dmt. Since then i became extremely psycotic and was in the hospital 6 times in 4 months. I am no longer dissociative but am now left with unwanted thoughts and no real thoughts of my own. I haven’t laughed in so long. I tried suicide with pills but obviously that didn’t work. I have a job but don’t talk to no one and i have a gf that cares so much about me. Im also dealing with suicidal ideation but im not ready to give up. what bothers me the most is my lack to have […]
To sum it all up, I’ve been self harming. I don’t know hot to control myself or deal with emotions. I keep giving myself goals and reasons not to commit suicide but i feel like things are getting worse. I want to have control over something so i dont feel so pathetic. I feel like i’m forcing myself to stay and I just dont want to. Its not for attention but i tell people so that i have a reason to stay. i’m getting so tired. My boyfriend is always there for me and he’s so amazing but he’s losing his patience with me. I wasn’t […]
im only 17 and i want to commit suicde………..someone help/advise me please……………… :,(
I’m new on here, probably needed somewhere to rant.
Well, here’s my life in a sentence. 15 almost 16 year old girl, make bad grades, messy room, video-game nerd, perfect boyfriend, but that’s just the pros. Con wise, my father died when I was 10, my nephew who was my world got killed by his nurse, my grandfather died a month ago and my mother is suicidal to a point where it scares me. My step-dad is a stupid drunk and I despise with a fiery passion, who doesn’t care about Mother or I. I get yelled at all the time about my grades and how I can never live up to my parents standards. […]
i keep trying to trick myself into being exciteed about school. i keep telling myself to be happy that i am going to see my friends again and learn, and that im not anxious about it.
But then i remember, these people are not my friends. they are just people i follow so im not all alone. and i am not learning. i am scraping by with marks that are only just good enough and taking it one lesson at a time trying to stop myself from screaming or crying or just running away. i hate everything and everyone and no one cares enough to ask […]
i just cant do it anymore. school starts again in two days and  i cant face going back. three more years and then university. i cant handle it anymroe. i just want it all to be over. no where feels safe. i hide in my room for hours, my dad coming in once in a while just to yell.
at least in my room i can cry alone. i cant break down in class.
i feel so fat and ugly and like every time someone laughs they are laughing at my countless imperfections. someone told me to go kill myself the other day. they dont know how […]
I think I’m at the cusp of dissociating. Too much shit happens too fast and it’s like being caught in a whirlwind, only without the cool wind and debris flying past you. If only…
So where to begin?
So, I have these cats.
One of them has a broken tooth or something and I need to drag hm in to a vet because seeing him how he is is breaking my heart, but a vet bill is expensive. Sometimes I think I should just get rid of the cats altogether – it’d make everyone’s life easier, although it’d be removing one of the few things that gives me […]
I am 17 years old and have already attempted suicide once, and have been cutting myself for almost 8 years now. Lately I’ve become a complete wreck. I was recently dumped by a guy I’d been with for a year and 8 months. He was saving up for our engagement ring. My best friend has also recently disappeared from my life. My parents divorced when I was 2 and I haven’t seen my mom in almost 2 years now. I haven’t gotten along with my dad in years and his girlfriend of 8 years is a complete two-faced *****.
Lately, I’m constantly crying. Everything I […]
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