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Im not sure If I am truely mentally ill or if i subconsiously want to think I am.

by SomeGuy1993 4/28/2013

written by SomeGuy1993

The tittle is strange but it is what im going through. It might be completely retarded but I have to throw this out there and hear from some other people. This site seems like a good place to do that.

Needless to say that im here because I been having some issues involving the idea of suicide, and im going to just say everything thats been bothering me and why. Im going to start off by listing some medical/Social that might be a cause. Also, I am 19 and male and white.

Medical/social suspicions:

– My mother is manic Bi-polar who attempted suicide and I have a brother […]

4/28/2013 6 comments

Suggestions?

by kissnm10 4/28/2013

written by kissnm10

I’ve been seeing a counselor, and I really want her to know that I cut. I need help, and I think she needs to know everything to be truly effective. But I don’t know how to bring it up. Any thoughts/personal experiences with this?

4/28/2013 9 comments

by hopefuldreamer 4/28/2013

written by hopefuldreamer

I haven’t been extremely depressed in maybe Â a week but I feel a loss of appetite and whenever I eat it’s junk and I’m irritable quite often. Does anyone else experience this?

4/28/2013 3 comments

Am i too young to feel this way?

by Lime17 4/28/2013

written by Lime17

i found this website by searching for ways to overdose on pills so i decided to make an account to see if it wouldÂ help but, now from reading other posts from people that are around 30 and over that i cant relate to in debt and what not, it just makes me feel even more alone. I’m only 13 and i really shouldn’t be deserving any of the crap i get. I know that people have it worse than me but right now, i should be worrying about boys and whatever a 13 year old girlÂ worries about, i shouldn’t be worry about hiding my scars. […]

4/28/2013 20 comments

Almost

by girl interrupted 4/27/2013

written by girl interrupted

I’m almost too tired to cut…almost. But I need that familiarity right now. For no specific reason, I just do. That’s why cutting sucks. There’s no rhyme or reason.

4/27/2013 5 comments

Are you okay?

by Tardiss 4/27/2013

written by Tardiss

How can I know when no sound from you is heard.
How can I know when you cut all ties.
How can I be calm when I don’t even know if you’re alive.
How can I be happy when every single inch of me is in pain.
How can I live when every minute I feel sorrow.

4/27/2013 0 comment

Stop the World

by kissnm10 4/27/2013

written by kissnm10

Stop the world, please

I want to get off

It keeps going and going

And Iâ€™ve had enough

Iâ€™m sorry for the inconvenience

Of my emancipation

Though, you have to admit

Iâ€™ve been so damn patient

But Iâ€™ve realized a circle

Is the shape of this track

I assumed thereâ€™d be progress

Yet, only find lack

If my only purpose,

Is to live as long as you see fit

Then donâ€™t bother firing me

Iâ€™m done. I quit.

I didnâ€™t ask for this job

And I donâ€™t intend to see it through

Youâ€™re disappointed by that

But the fault lies in you

Some things are made broken

Impossible to mend

Â Not all problems can be solved

And Iâ€™m one of them

But you knew that, right?

Youâ€™re called my creator

Made […]

4/27/2013 0 comment

Help me…

by x----- 4/27/2013

written by x-----

Help me… i need someone.. i cant take this anymore…even here in the internet im alone.. how fucking pathetic is that… help me… be my friend…whoever you are, help me.. this is my last attempt…last.

4/27/2013 6 comments

Normal teenage problem for once, anyone want to help me out?

by mysmilecoversalot :) 4/27/2013

written by mysmilecoversalot :)

So Iâ€™m 18, a senior in high school, and although most of the drama in my life revolves around my anxiety and eating disorders, family problems, or suicidal thoughts, for once I have a normal problem. Just typing those words felt fantastic. I have really strong morals, Iâ€™m honestly not sure why because itâ€™s not something I learned from my parents, but I donâ€™t know, I just do. I also have pretty high standards when it comes to guys, although Iâ€™ve had a few boyfriends Iâ€™ve always felt like dating in high school is pointless, itâ€™s just setting you up for a broken heart. I […]

4/27/2013 7 comments

really?

by maxthebat 4/27/2013

written by maxthebat

you keep telling me that its all my fault, that i do this all to myself… but do you really think i want to be like this? i would love to be happy… to actually smile and not want to die. But i’m not. and i dont know why. do you think i would be this unhappy if being happy was easy? stop telling me everything i do wrong. I knowÂ i fuck everything up, no need to remind me. im trying my best to be happy… but do you know how hard it is to want to die. and do you know what’s even harder […]

4/27/2013 1 comment

Random thoughts…

by jayss2k07 4/27/2013

written by jayss2k07

If people knew the story of their lives how many would then elect to live them? People speak about what is in store. But there is nothing in store. The day is made of what has come before. The world itself must be surprised at the shape it’s in.

4/27/2013 1 comment

Tonight… Maybe… Hoping it Will Be…

by Bloodi 4/27/2013

written by Bloodi

I want to cry. I feel so horrible- yet so okay. But I’m not okay. I’m not happy. I’m a horrible person. I’m unhappy. I’m stupid. I’m worthless. I’m done.

Will tonight be the night I jump off that bridge? Will tonight be the night I run away? Will tonight be the night I finish myself off? Will tonight be the night I cut so deep that I bleed to death? I don’t know. But I hope so.

I don’t know why I feel like this- but I guess I do. I have so many questions.

Why me? When is it my turn to die? What’s my purpose?????? […]

4/27/2013 1 comment

Confused

by morto_ben 4/27/2013

written by morto_ben

Hi, I just registered here half an hour ago maybe more, I forgot!

Anyways, here is the scenario of my life –>I am confused about myself and my sexuality.

Though I know I’veÂ fancied guys and a few girls too.Â There’s always that feeling that I want to be in a relationship (in my case its more likely with a guy), that I want to love and be loved. The hard part is that I cannot express how I feel with a guy without him hating me for what I am or what I think of myself.

There’s this other thing where I bottle things up which conflicts with my […]

4/27/2013 2 comments

Hear My Voice

by TheWanderingSoul 4/27/2013

written by TheWanderingSoul

I’ll never show my tears, nor cry for you to hear.
I can talk all that I want, but you wont lend me an ear.
I just want for you to listen, to hear what I have to say.
I wont ask for your advice, I just want for you to stay.
But you will never listen, because you always get your way.
So why am I still trying to get you to say my name?
It’s clear that you don’t love me, so my words are said in vain.
Though each word that I whisper is advantage you can gain.

4/27/2013 0 comment

i won’t be loved

by I_suffer_in_silence 4/27/2013

written by I_suffer_in_silence

eveyone tells me i’m a mistake to this world. maybe they’re right, i am. or im just taking things way to seriously but no one understands that words hurt. especially cause i’m really sensitive. people tell me a lot of things that i really can’t argue with. for example ugly, not good enough for anyone or anything, useless, stupid, etc. my bullies were the ones who made me hate my ownÂ refelction. and instead of solving my problems, i hide from my problems. i just hate to be put down everyday. everyday is just another day to wake up wanting to die and cry. sometimes i […]

4/27/2013 2 comments

if we reap what we sow, i guess i have earned this pain and loneliness

by iamdonetrying 4/27/2013

written by iamdonetrying

I just want it over, the pain and loneliness.. just to end. I get up, I do what is expected, and I wait.. and wait, and wait some more. I married, for the third time, a widow twice. Want a divorce, but it just is not worth the effort, there would not be anything any better later. I’ve thought about ending it over the years and always said I couldn’t do that to others, but who are the others? There’s no one here, no one to find me, or to give a shit. I just want to go home and be with Jim. I lied […]

4/27/2013 1 comment

Not even sure anymore’

by hopefullbuthopeless 4/27/2013

written by hopefullbuthopeless

I eat , but when I do it doesn’t really feel like I’m eating , I only do it to keep my energy up , and even then it feels like imÂ justÂ shovingÂ itÂ force ablyÂ down myÂ throat…

4/27/2013 0 comment

My Story

by just a guy 4/27/2013

written by just a guy

Hello,

I’m glad I found this website, if only to vent and see that are other folks in same boat (not that I’m happy about that).

My Story

I’m a 48 year-old male.Â Been diabetic for about 20 years.Â I been somewhat suicidal starting in my teens.Â I grew up in a fucked-up white trash family.Â Mom is a religious freak with little or no employable skills.Â My father has all sorts of mental issues and was quite abusive growing up.Â I decided to move out of state when I was 21 but at the time I getting along OK with my parents.Â I wasn’t kicked out or […]

4/27/2013 3 comments

by L270 4/27/2013

written by L270

Fear paralyzes me. Death beckons.

What the mind rationalizes, the heart resists.

4/27/2013 2 comments

The pointlessness of it all

by CannonFodder 4/27/2013

written by CannonFodder

A bit of personal history: I was once a top student in my Primary school and was subsequently admitted to a Secondary school of repute. I can say that this is the heyday of my life. Things starts to get sour in my third year and confidence in my ability seemed to drain away when I failed consistently to score despite all my efforts. No matter how hard I try, I just could not get it. It is the feeling of ‘I worked so hard but got so little while others have it made for them with brighter minds. It is so unfair that anyone […]

4/27/2013 5 comments

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