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So after being unemployed for years (I have been going to University in the mean time) I think I may have found a part time job, bringing me lots of relief. Telling my friends, they congratulated me and one of them even gave me a card wishing me luck.

My friends and mum were very excited for me, keep asking me about it, and show happiness and congratulations everyday.

Is this the normal reaction?

In contrast my brother and his wife when told, just asked about the job, whether I had it yet or not (I am on trial) then changed the subject, they were visibly bored about […]

If I tie a plastic bag around my head and go to sleep will it kill me? I’m hoping to suffocate tonite

I ran out of my antidepressants and couldn’t get them filled for a few days. I still haven’t taken them, and I feel no different than before. Why bother taking them if nothing changes?

I just feel so fat and ugly. I’m worth nothing. I don’t even know why I’m still here :/

You make your life so others can break your life so you will take your life.

I feel like I am the last penny on the entire planet that all 6.2 billion people are cutting into fractions so they can feed their families.

Where’s my family?

I need change.

Someone spare some change?

I dont want to die but i dont want to be sad all the time anymore. I want to be happy. I dont want to keep disappointing my family. I want to be able to look at the mirror without crying. I want to live without having to cut. I want to make my dad proud instead of making him wish i was my older sister. I want to take a shower cause i love it and not just cause i have to cry with no one hearing me. I dont want to be ashamed and embarrassed of everything i do and everything i am. […]

Is this site supposed to help people? What if no one reads a post due to the length, or grammar, or lack of entertainment? How do us boring people get help?

first post but ive pretty much tried everything to make myself happy, i just dont really care. I understand that death is a choice and plenty of people choose to end theirs everyday. I am not here looking for help but it really is annoying not having anyone to talk to who isnt going to judge me or try to tell me stuff ive already heard. Ive known i would be the cause of my own death for since a child and almost thought i wouldnt see past 25 (25th birthday is end of this year) and it really seems like i was right, a […]

Today I found out my “best friend,” of about 5 years, back stabs me.
I always thought she would always be there for me, as I am always here for her.
I’ve been a faithful friend to her, but I keep most things about myself inside.
The thing which always prevents me from telling her about the predicaments I’m in is that she might go out and tell everyone else, because she has. Millions of times.

I’ve always known she back stabs me when she’s around other friends. She rants about me and, literally behind my back, she would immaturely gesture the idea of stabbing or hurting […]

ive attempted 6 times, 4 by train, 2 by gun. i want to make this next one IT! ive gone through the roller coaster for too long the highs of i can do it to the lows of frustrating something kill me now. i can get ******** (powder or liquid) for a price and almost had it. i took out a loan for 500 as i have nothing to my name, but like a jack ass put the last 4 numbers of my account number so it went to the wrong account, passed a 300 dollar offer, and now they all think im gonna fraud […]

[ Pleased to meet all of you! x ]

Obviously, this is a fake name as you can see 🙂 I don’t want my family to find out

that I’m not that ‘happy kid’ they always thought I was.

I’m 15, nearly 16. I live in Italy and I don’t have any friend. I smile and laugh very easily, so my classmates can’t stand me.

They don’t beacuse my laughter annoy them a lot, they say me that I’m stupid and childish because I laugh even at important and serious things.

When I laugh, it’s a nervous laugh. I laugh to hide all the pain that I am suffering in […]

Remember the days when we were happy that’s what I live for. I was waiting ever so patiently. I realized maybe happiness is just a lie or illusion because it’s been waiting and fighting. For what to be at the same place I was to start with. I fight my battles and I can never win. I’m not giving up I’m letting go.

This is more than I can take. I’ve had enough of this life alone I’ll give it up this time I know.. because I can.

I am turning 18 in 2 days. I have felt suicidal for most of my life. My parents say I used to say suicidal things to my grade primary (kindergarten for you americans) teacher. I dont remember but I only watched kids programming and my parents didnt say anything like that. Started cutting in middle school people saw my arms and made fun was bullied so much back then also my thighs. I also had terrible acne but now I dont bc of accutane.It upset both my parents that I cut made them cry even my dad. I tried to kill myself when cant remember […]

When I was little, I was traumatized when I was stung by bees and had to be rushed to the hospital. My mother is a very anxious and paranoid person and always thought that people were out to get her and taught me to think the same way as a child. My father became abusive when he saw any sign of weakness or vulnerability in me. Another trauma was when I was mobbed by some kids who had a baseball bat and hit me in the head with a football while I was riding by on my bike. The fear of them was far worse […]

Every summer since the 8th grade I go through depression, in fact sometimes it comes on during other times as well. I don’t talk to anyone about it because I don’t feel they would take me seriously because I do not self harm, although I have had friends joke to me and tell me I’m bipolar. Sometimes I’m up and happy, other times I can go for days without talking. Over the past year I graduated high school and have felt many rejections in a short amount of time. I wasn’t accepted to the only university I applied to, my dream school and everything fell […]