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I set my goals…01.06.1992-14.04.2013….God i have thought about this for a very long time and i have considered all pros and cons and i’m done! i wont see monday as live person.. I wont leave behind broken hearts and shattered hopes..I have found way out..I’m done thinking my 24h before taking suicide and i have decided..To end my life early.. And i will be successful this time around.. i’m done crying and praying!

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I tried to kill myself… For the second time… I just returned from a long term treatment center 4 days ago… I wish I hadn’t done it… I wish I hadn’t cut so deeply.. I have SO many scars.. How will I hide them? Why am I ashamed of them? Why do I still want to cut, even though I’m soooo much better?? I already carved cutter into my leg….

But trying isnt good enough. I cannot take the bullying anymore. I’m not bullied much, but it hurts a lot regardless. She makes gagging sounds when I walk into the room. She doesnt even know me!

I’ve tried twice this morning. Suffocation by garbage bag, and asphyxiation by belt. Neither worked. It hurt, it made my lungs hurt and my head ache. I dont know how else to try.

Hello!

I really want to discuss the Pros and Cons of using anti depressants. I have come to the stage in my life where I have had major depression for at least 6 years.

At the moment, it’s all catching up to me. I don’t want to feel anything, I want to be numb.  Please reply to this if you have ANY advice at all. I really don’t know what to do, and if you want more information about me feel free to ask.

Thank you.

i miss you talk to me

i miss you let me help

i miss you help me be storng

i miss you i dont know if i can go on

i miss you dont do this to me

i miss you dont let me diy like this

i miss you dont pull the trigger cos then well both be dead

i miss you i just do

i miss you i whant to hold you

i miss you i just miss you

i miss you i dont whant to here the bad news

i miss you help

I wish I could do it as easily as she did.

im a 48 yr old man thats decided that ive had enough of this life, ive decided that april 30 is gonna be the day, what better day than the same date that i came into this world

There are so many things I regret, so many things I wish I could change, and so many things I wish never happened. I’ve made so many mistakes. I’ve hurt people. I don’t want to hurt anyone. There’s nothing that causes me more pain than the guilt of having hurt someone. I try to change, and prevent these things from happening, but I keep fucking up. I tell myself “never again”, but “again” keeps coming. I feel like a terrible person. I feel like I can’t control my own actions, but I know I can. I know that it’s all my fault. I try to […]

Somedays I believe I won’t be okay. I know I’m suppose to try to get better but it’s so hard trying to push myself through each day. I think the only thing that has me going is wondering what the future will hold . I wonder where my sister will be 20 years from now or where my brother will be and what he will be doing. I wonder if ill ever later on ill find out what my purpose in life is because right now I’m doing the same things as many others.