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Hey everybody. I hope you guys are okay and in a safe place. I just wanted to update you all on how my relationship with my new girlfriend is going. She is honestly the perfect person for me. We have so many things in common, that its almost scary. We complement each other really well.

Our only major difference is our religious views, but our love can overcome that. I really believe that she is my soulmate and I think I will be marrying her one day. I guess what I’m trying to say is don’t give up on finding love. I’ve been rejected many, many […]

everything is perfect, we’re in love…but then why do I feel so sad still. nothing bad has happened. just good things…but I still feel so damn sad.

a california pastor’s son killed himself today. my condolences to all affected. now time for a rant. depression will be all over the media for a couple of days. how awful it is that we are suffering. well folks here is why we suffer needlessly. money!!! depression and mental illness isn’t sexy. we need a better lobby, and a good pr firm. Depression!-its not just for breakfast anymore!!  well get crackin’ there kids. please send checks care of……..  this rant has been organically enhanced.

I’ve never really allowed myself to think about suicide. Whenever a friend asked me my opinion on it, I’d say it was extremely selfish for the people around you. You take your pain away and transfer it to everyone you knew. But even as i said those words I always had a seed of doubt, wouldn’t it just be easier to die? I never finish anything. Maybe I don’t wanna finish living my life, I give up too easily, thats true, one of my many faults, but recently, I don’t know when exactly, I acknowledged my pleasure in thinking about suicide, I’ve been trying […]

hello i am suicidal i want end this life the sooner the better i was a mistake i never deserved to have the parents i had please show me the options i have in killing myself thank you

Hi My name is Somer,

I am currently a freshman in college, dealing with depression and anxiety. All I want is to be happy and feel good about myself. I just don’t believe in living anymore. Everyday I wake up feeling fat and ugly, worthless and stupid. My mind keeps telling me that I am not worth it, that I should die. I truly believe that if I was skinny, my life would be better. If I don’t get skinny soon, I will kill myself.

I like how anyone I talk to is suicidal, it’s never anyone else.

Wow. I never expected to be here. In the past I’ve never felt this way. I mean, I’ve never wanted to kill myself. But recently, it’s just hit me like a wave of depressing thoughts. It started in the back of my head, and slowly it’s moved forward. Now it’s all I can think about. The worst thing is that I don’t know why I’m thinking these thoughts. People say ‘It’s just your age’ or ‘It’s the hormones’ but I know it’s not (I’m 15 by the way). I can’t eat anymore. I’m just not hungry. I’m not full either. I’m just…. nothing. I pretended to […]

Because of the medication that i take I’m not suppose to have any caffeine. so when i go to college i drink plenty of energy drinks because it’ll boost up my energy to raise my mood til it dies down then its worse. i am always so tired the day after school that  i dont have class cus i cant have them to the point where im falling asleep standing up. i heard the giant monsters cenn kill u if more than 2 are consumed i drank way more then the amount of two nd im still here. they also get so addicting. anyone else have the same […]

Okay, so, I had my first serious relationship last year, he was my best friend and I loved him, anyways, stuff got in the way.. he broke up with me. My self-esteem had been very fragile well up until then, I dealt with an eating disorder throughout middle school and had looked at suicide as an option a few times in my life already. Anyways, he fell in love with my best friend. I felt as if she was the only one left that would listen to me and love me and now I feel like I’ve lost her too, I’ve lost everything. We all […]

Maybe this is just a trial run. It would take about 900 sleeping pills to kill me, according to my calculations and information on the web. I’ve taken only 40 so there ‘s clearly no danger of dying. What I’m hoping for is a deep sleep like death, and maybe I’ll learn if I want to go all the way or if it’s something that frightens me.

I did this a few years ago and found myself struggling for life, hating the feeling of losing control. But a few years of crap piled on me has changed things. This time the creeping unconsciousness feels welcoming. I […]

Yesterday I got into a fight with my parents. What they’re trying to do is sign me up for a summer camp that I don’t want to go. They say that I’m too isolated, and I am isolated. However, I’m isolated because of me having enough of hearing everyone scream at everyone else, and being with anyone becoming increasingly uncomfortable. I mean, though, when you’re brother is having a screaming fit over a computer game can you blame me for avoiding the situation?

Back on the subject of that camp; my parents have been trying to get me out of the house for several months now because my hiding […]

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im going to do this evrey day so i know im still alive and to vent all the shit so i dont do this on fb i mostly wight potry on here and been doing the rants on fb but i think i need to stop doing that cos it upsets people and i dont whant to do that so a bit bout me (sorry if i bore you) i have a multude of problems that for some reson have been put on my sholders with the normal 16 year old problems and wile do the pre jone cors for the paras wich i have […]

I should have just listened to my dad when he told me to just go take up business . Im not cut out for this shit… If anyone sees this and is thinking up on going to art school… if you dont have talent right now (im talkin about “still scribbling anime in the back of notebooks” kind of no talent) DONT FUCKING GO FOR IT. sure you learn things, maybe a lot of things but it wont amount to anything and if your real lucky you wont even get to graduate on time giving yourself an extra year or two of learning nothing. but […]