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Today, when I woke up, I thought that this day was going to be nice but it turned out horrible. I went to school and I knew that my latin teacher would have given us our tests’ grades. I was absent the day it was supposed to be done so I did 2 days after. I asked my classmates the questions and I prepared them with other absents. I worked really hard on finding the suiting answer to every question and the day of the test I wouldn’t stop writing. The test was about Virgil’s “Aeneid”. Our teacher gives us 2 grades because we don’t have […]
I always think about it, ya know? How easy it could be. I’d just put the noose around my neck, and be done. But I can’t, because my mom would find me. I love her so much, I couldn’t do that to her. I can’t drive, so I can’t just go off a cliff and be done…
I have severe anxiety. Everything I encounter…it’s too hard to live with all of this. I used to think I was special, that I was an amazing writer and I had the potential to go somewhere. Not anymore. I feel below normal, some poverty-stricken punk with anxiety and depression…
I […]
I wonder what % of people who post on here that they are suicidal actually go ahead and do the deed. Â Mine is happening tomorrow (possibly even tonight). The reality post which I put up earlier is all accurate but it was written 4 weeks ago. Since then I have literally been living on the streets. When I was smartish and clean to start with I blagged a few nights in various cheap hotels saying I would pay the next day (they would require my passport but the next day I would explain that I couldn’t get money from bank without it). A guy I […]
I am new here, first post, but I’ve been reading posts here for quite some time now, and as sad as it is that so many people here are in so much pain, it brings me a bitter-sweet comfort that there are others like me. I really don’t want to be a sob story, or ask for pity, I’m just stuck and so confused about it all.
I guess I’m just very desperate for some relief. I have created the greatest of masks to hide the anguish that dictates my every moment and thought, but its come to a point that I can’t even hide anymore. I […]
Will I ever find love? Will I? I am the only one up in my house and I’m wondering about life, love, and me. I just wonder if there is something wrong with me. I look around and see happiness and I’m drowning in my own pool of sadness. I seem happy my friends tell me all the time that I seem so happy and perfect. Those words haunt me. Perfect. But the fact-of-the-matter is that I’m truthfully lonely. Really lonely. I just want someone. I know I can’t really spare the heartbreak but it must be nice to have someone hold me when things get […]
I am so done.. So sick and tired of trying. Why did he just let me die Instead of taking me to the hospital
Why are you publishing my email address when I respond to comments?
by Adam Johns
written by Adam Johns
These people who threaten to commit suicide by downing a bottle of Tylenol or jumping from the second story window of their house are just kidding themselves. If you’re really going to, please spare us the lame details that make it unlikely that it’ll be successful. If you want real help and support from others, state that you feel like ending it all. That’s enough to draw attention from others to give you words of encouragement. That’s what you obviously need. If you really wanted to end it, you’d use a method that would likely ensure fatality.
Sometimes I want to die, too. One day when I actually decide […]
as they sat on a hill
a sunset deep into their eyes
they stared and stared
into what they tried to find
all they need is happiness
all they need is love
all they need is motivation
as he sat there
and sat there
he thought of ways to die
as she sat there
and sat there
she too wanted to die
but as well tried to save his life
oh please dont go
oh please dont go
we will be forever
do you really mean that
of course i do
only you were meant for forever<3
as the words left the boys mouth
he realized how sorry he is
I am 56 years old. I have no money, no property, no assets, no pension, no income and, frankly, no marketable skills. I have large unpaid tabs at several local hostelries and debts to most of my friends here which I have secured on the (false) assurance that money is on the way from my (long closed) UK accounts. Help and understanding (of any sort) have long since dried up. I am largely looked upon as the liability which I am.
I have been staying at a cheap hotel locally since I was evicted from my apartment three weeks ago for non-payment of rent. I […]
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I’m sick of looking at myself in the mirror. I’m sick of my boyfriend looking at pictures of these perfect girls on his computer while I sit right next to him and soak in my self hatred. I wish I could be better I wish I didn’t have to make excuses for myself, I wish I had the strength to change. but instead I die inside everyday, as I pick myself apart bit by bit… I don’t even worry about the scars anymore, what’s the point. one of these days I’ll build up enough courage to pushthe razor a little deeper, then I’ll never […]
WHY I DONT KNO AND DAVE_N and the rest of my supportive family on SP….goodbye.
written by I.cant.breathe!
I’m jumping, but thanks for being my friends. I love you but were on different sides of the world i bet. bye loves… Miss me not.
xx Jacqueline.
So I have been fighting the urge to kill myself off and on for about 15 years now. Sometimes I lost and attempted suicide. So far I have tried twice, once when I was uncertain so it was a far cry from a real attempt, and once when I would have died had my neighbour not have found me. Problem is, I really do want to die but I don’t want to kill myself. I keep praying not to wake up and find myself full of rage when I wake up in the morning. I am so angry and depressed. I feel stuck, literally, we […]
I wish you knew that you hurt me. You could know how it feels.
I think I’m done. I can’t tell anyone about this. So why not tell you? I wish everything would go back to the way it was. was When I was happy. No one was hurting me. I’m soooo tired of it. And when my friends try to tell they end up marketing things better for a little bit. bit But it just gets worse again. It all because I thought that I could trust him. But I couldn’t. Why am I always wrong?
I’m tired of being so depressed that it makes me feel tired all the time even when i’ve had more than enough hours needed for a good night’s sleep (which rarely happens for me), i’m tired of trying to be strong, i’m tired of having suicidal thoughts, i’m tired of pretending everything is ok, i’m tired of worrying about the future and scared, i’m tired of living the life I live right now.
I got my first job today and i completely blew it because of my stupid anxiety. I HATE IT! It literally ruins my life like everyday. I’m such a failure and I got in everyone’s way, and I messed up orders and miscalculated. I need to get my shit straight before I jump in head first for something.
I just want to be normal.