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I’m a senior in high school and I have weekly meetings with my school counselor so she can check in on me. Right now she is trying to convince me to receive more intensive counseling from an outside source. I absolutely detest the idea of counseling. Last year I was forced by the school counselor to go. At first I hated it, so they switched my counselor and people had me convinced it would be okay, I was actually going to try it, but when we went back my dad lied. He said I made it up for attention, I didn’t lose weight, I was […]

I’m here sitting with my mother. I want to cry but I don’t know why… I want to scream. I wish I had some weed. Even I’d it was just waiting for me at home.

Actually I do know why in so upset. There are several reasons. But I have no wifi so I must get off

please help me. Please. please, please, please. I’m begging uoi. please…. you never listen when i pray for myself but i just cna’t do this anymore. i can’r… i just can’t. please… i beg you… pleae… i need help. i’m falling the fuck apart… hell i’ve already fallen apart. i can;t do thius.. not again, not again, not after its’ ebenn so good for so long. please. i’ve vblocked everyone… evryone. there’s no one left. i’m too fucking needy. i can’t go to tjhem anymore. no more emails, google+. thjoughts, poemhinter, wordpress, experienceproject, daily strength, socially uncesnsored…no moew, no morte, no more. i have tyo […]

I’ve been living the life of a sheep for years, being pushed around and told what to do by people above me, following orders and doing the same thing day in day out. I’ve tried to make friends and I’ve tried to become a better person so people will like me, but none of that ever works.  It’s been 6 years since I first self harmed, and the rush I got from it was nice, it made me realise that we’re not made of glass, our bodies will repair. So I carried on, more and more, each time someone said something nasty or I was […]

I have lived a sinful 18 years and i fear hell, its gotten to the point where I dont think I am going to change (It’s kind of too late). At first I was focusing on trying to have a good life but i dont care about my life anymore i have no hopes or dreams. All i care about is what happens when i die. Now I know alot of people dont believe in god but im pretty sure he does exist and i dont want to argue that. Bottom line is every now and then i think about hell and its painful and […]

I want to run away from home, please give me some advices.

bad day at work. i know that everyone has a bad day but why do they have to be mean and take it out on those around them. anyways, i walked out, trying to avoid the situation. it wouldn’t have been as bad if it weren’t for that fact that as i was walking down the hall i overheard them saying my name. i slowed down just before i turned the corner and listened. they were making fun of my scars. i know it’s my fault for doing those things to myself. it’s my fault for placing them there, up and down my arms and […]