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im 29 with 3 kids. I have never felt so depressed in my life. I have always suffered from depression and anxiety since i can remember. but right now it’s at its worst and i cant control it. my husband is leaving me because he says im too fat. my work isnt going how i would like it to. i find myself alone with no one to talk to because i dont tell anyone my business so no one knows whats going on. i just dont wanna live anymore. i want to go to sleep and never wake up. but i have 3 kids and […]

is to end my life im 50 years old so its time i die

am falling in too deep
feel nothing but the voide it seem
calling her name
save me from this please
take me with you,wherever you were
heaven or hell,all i want is you my dear
sick and tired of waiting
so here am looking for a way to meet you there
cut me too deep and i won’t feel
cuz her smile in my memory is still fresh
making me live a black life,i want you,you are all my need
am falling in too deep
like a drug you are to me it seem
calling your name and saying my deeds
here i come to […]

There are people out there that have saved lives by taking a bullet for a fellow brother in arms, by rushing into a burning building, by acts of heroism that the world can see. But there are people out there that have saved lives and were not recognized, just shut out in the dark. Nobody knew they had done it, except the person they saved and them. They reach out their hand to help those in tough times, those with depression and suicide. I don’t mean those doctors who help people for pay, I mean those people that actually put their time into helping you. […]

Man,it happened again! Y’know that thing where I open my eyes in the morning. Where I get live and breathe another day.
I would gladly end it myself but everytime I think I will I back out, im just afraid to I guess. Until I do die I’ll just be happy to settle for a friend or friends who get me. And don’t get me wrong I consider all of you my friends. I just need a friend in the human form ar at least not only on this website. Oh well. It’s time for me to walk the stairs of doom up to where […]

I stumbled upon this website on accident. I was looking to see if taking too many of my presecription meds would do the trick. Iguess I’m looking for some light in what has become my daily darkness. Since I was younger I’ve had anxiety issues, OCD, even depression. Those three are nasty when they are combined. Lately, it’s been coming on strong. It’s ruining my life. I live with my boyfriend. Our relationship is far from perfect but I know that we love each other. A few months ago, I cheated on him by making out on a few occasions with someone from work. I […]

You don’t realize how I hate the routine, doing the same things every day without anything ever changing! Idk, maybe some people can stand it, but I can’t. To diversify my daily life a little I keep staring here, in my laptop screen. Well, I’ll do so until I turn blind I guess. However, even this last source of poor joy doesn’t always work right. In more than 3 years of being on-line I haven’t become any wiser or made a single damn friend. So now it’s only a way to help while away the time. Miserable,huh? You may not answer.

Yeah, I’m turning 20 in […]

I’m homosexual and don’t want to have to deal with spending a lifetime hiding and lying. Pretending I’m okay when I’m not. My parents… I don’t think they’ll ever understand me and I’m certain I would bring shame to them. I feel like the whole world will hate me. I”m a burden to my parents and to this world in which I don’t belong. I feel there’s no reason to live, only despair. The ONLY time I’m happy is asleep. I want to die painlessly, but I won’t describe here how, because I think that’s against the rules. To feel hated by so many for […]

I’m 17 years old, and I have issues with being close to people and showing them too much trust, dropped out to support my best friend and I am planning to return to school this month.
 I’ve had a .. Tough life, not saying none of you guys have had simple lives but I’ve seen a lot considering my age
I’ve been living an adult life since I was young – looking out for my sisters, comforting both my parents in their time of need.. I’ve always been there for them to let them know the mistakes they made weren’t significant.
I know a lot about a lot […]

I’ve been a persistent fighter(not literally) who has gone down all the right roads in life, but the best that modern psychology has to offer is just not good enough.

I was born very different from other children because I was very quiet, scared, anxious, and withdrawn.  Some kids grow out of it, and I didn’t.  My parents were immigrants so they did not embrace Western Psychology, when my teachers referred me to get help.  As soon as I was an adult, I made mental health my NUMBER ONE priority in life.  I voluntarily saw a psychologist and psychiatrist to fix this severe depression and anxiety. […]

Uh.. Hey..

So I guess we have to start from the beginning  right?… well, I was brought to this world on February 8 2000. Im  bout to be  in this world for 13 years now. It doesn’t seem  like a very long time, but for me it has been like hell. I’m not your typical 13 year old girl, I have been in places.. Times.. That you couldn’t imagine for a 13 year old. So this is my little story. Or at least half of it so far… I was brought to this world by a 15 year old girl and a 16 year old boy. […]

Little box, where are you now? Little box, have you gone to far away? Little box are you lost? Why is it so hard to keep a little box closed and hidden away from people that just want to hurt it. But little box want to be free to do what ever it want to do. But idk if i can let that happen again after all the little box it holds my heart in it. All the thoughts and pain, that i’ve have. Well that little box will be put some where save so no one, and i mean no one can have it […]

Well, waking up after nearly drinking myself to death, ive come to believe i need to make a choice. I’m not sure where these people go for a good mental health experience, but every time I talk to someone over 18 that has been, they almost unanimously praise it. Yet, when talking to an adolescent such as myself, I find the experiences to range from great to hellish. I’ve had friends who come out and say they had a fantastic experience with their hospitalization, and then there are those, like me, who probably need to go back but are afraid because of our last encounter. […]

Lets start from the beginning, I’ve been severely depressed since about six, when my parents got divorced, and my father comitted suicide when I was seven. I’m nineteen now and turn twenty on the first of May. I just recently found this site and read some stories, mostly about people more courageous than I that either lived or succeeded in escaping this hellish reality. Never really had any friends, started drinking at age sixteen and it made things slightly more bearable, and I was able to run from these feelings for a while. Recently they have re-surged, and I haven’t been able to hide them, […]