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Too scared to be judged by my mom, dad, sisters. I’m scared that they will judge me for being the way I am and doing the things I do.

They won’t understand what it’s like to cut your skin open to relieve the pain that they don’t see. They won’t understand what it’s like to sit in your room at night and cry. They won’t understand what it’s like to hate yourself every waking moment of the day. The won’t. They never will. I have a feeling they’ll think it’s all in my head. That I’m faking it. But how I could I fake it if […]

I walk in this world in slow motion, people laughing at me, looking at me funny.
I try and get away but I run in a circle and end up back in the same place, with the same people. Confused and scared I look to the floor to find something shiny glittering in my eyes. I walk towards it to find a blade, I pick it up and think. “Stay here, where people laugh and stare. Or 6 feet under, quiet, still.” As I put the blade to my wrist I finally smile and crave the fact no ones judgement can hurt me. So now […]

I’m done. With waiting for you, with you telling me how depressed you’re even though I can never tell you about my own problems. Thank you very much. All I want to do is talk to you. I want to tell you about my scars an new cuts like you tell me about yours. I just want you to understand.

i cant

im sorry

Dont blame yourself. I chose to do it. It was my decision, not yours. You had nothing to do with the choice i made.. dont blame yourself for my stupidity or my problems