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i lost my son in febrary of this year, he hung himself, my other son has a family bit his girlfriend sees mine and my sons relationship as a threat as we are close so she cases trouble whenver she can and consequently i am left alone. I feel so low and dispondent about life and just want to be with my son who died, as i feel that he had the right idea.

hi im 16 years old i use to be the happy-es person but then i kinda made a few mistakes and people judged me on them badley it started off at my old school people would call me a skank and a whore without even knowing me i tryed to ignore it when i checked my fb this boy had created a page about me posting voulger things i didnt know what to do i started crying and crying and crying and evnutley tryd to kill myself i attemped this at least 5 times untill my mom sent me to a mental hospital for depression and sucide […]

Travs: jj, I will share with you this. The meaning to life. The answer to the ultimate question of life, the universe, and everything. And once you know this, you will be able to tell everyone from now on that you do indeed know the meaning of life, and still choose the alternate.
Travs: And the answer is: 42.
Jeb: thats pretty deep Travs
Travs: I hope this helps.
Travs: I know, isn’t it?
Travs: Now always remember where your towel is, and watch out for stray Vogons.
Jeb: i thought the meaning the meaning to life was u2
Travs: Nope, Jeb. My geek cred […]

havent cut in several weeks, im actually kind of proud of myself i guess. i keep having thoughts of becoming crazy and then everyone around me forces me to a mental hospital. no one can hear me because im just the crazy girl that says stupid things and cant understand any real world objects. this is why im afraid to be myself, to even talk or speak my mind.

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there’s no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
And needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I’ve lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
And needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me

43 yo, broke unemployed, depressed since I was 12.

Ive never been able to hold a job for more than a few yrs.

My marriage fell apart, she cheated on me with a guy half my age.

Im alone, nothing left, spent.

The word loser best fits me.

No future, just a hurtful past

Found the last time spent 3 weeks in icu/outpatient

this time its foolproof

just needed to say goodbye to somebody

goodbye

Long story short, I was walking down the street at night with my ex. He’s said he’s ok with me killing myself after months of trying to persuade me otherwise. I was like, “Hey, there’s a tree. I should go hang myself.” He was like, “ok.”

My ass was too heavy so he had to help push me up this small tree. I took my hoodie off, tied one end around my neck and tied the other end to the tree branch. I’m 5 ft 4 and a half. I think where my feet were, was about level with his head. He’s 5 ft 10ish. I […]

there is absolutely nothing nothing left to hold on to, there is nothing for me here, i can see it so clearly now how my life is gonna turn out. I’m gonna be miserable, lonely, poor and with no possible change for the better. Give me the courage to go, please im so scared and so tired. I just can’t go on like this anymore.

if you read my first post you understand my desire to give up.after everything that i have been thru throughout my life for once i can lay my head down tonight and be ok with waking up i might not feel like this for long but i will take full advantage of it. i haven’t felt good about anything for a long time.because one person took time to respond to me and told me positive things i will wake up later and be ok with it. i won’t cry when i wake-up like every other day.maybe i can get to talk to my babies later. […]

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My heart stopped. It felt as if i just walked over the edge of a cliff and fell straight into the ocean, where i would never stop drowning, falling further and further into the deep. Terrified of what Love could do i stopped. So there i sat everyday looking out the window at nothing. Nothing was my life, nothing but a broken heart and the numbness of the world that is. The numb helped me through everything i can remember. It helped me forget and forgive everyone but myself. Myself was a person not even i was familiar with. I couldn’t figure it out and […]

Nearly twenty-five years of life…and what have I got to show for it? Not much. The disappointment I’ve caused is overwhelming, disappointing my family, friends and myself. I grew up in a very religious home where nothing but good things were expected. It cuts deep realizing the failure that I am. I’m the youngest and all my siblings seem to be doing something worthwhile with there lives. They were successful in college, religious obligations, and career opportunities. I have failed in all those things.  Unmarried and unemployed, I am full of guilt and shame. I hate myself. I have no motivation, no drive to do anything that takes effort. Apathy, I think […]

Where to begin. I was doing great. After I had been doing really terrible. I was suicidal, and almost killed myself. But i asked for help, got on meds, got into therapy, and finally got my life turned around. Or so I thought. I transferred schools, because I could not stay at my old school. I wanted to continue playing my sport, because that’s one of the few things that makes me really happy. At least it used to. And my coach had betrayed me, and would never trust me again. I needed to move on. I wanted to be able to figure myself out, […]

I  used to be depressed and suicidal and thenresized I was just being selfish so I eventually got over i  I started tryin to see the good in everyone and that they ate not only out to get me.

But hen my birthday rolls around.  I had a party came everyone camebut no one would talk to me. Today I went to a holiday party anmascot picked last  for everything   Everyone made fun of me when I did something or said something tomorrow is my actual birthd and no one is going to decorate my locker and they are just going to mock me   […]

EVerytime time I turn a corner I just keep letting everyone done.. Soon I think I’ll post some of my real writings o here, maybe it will help