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I have classes all day and work all night. I need to be able to have my “alone time” when I get this way, but neither schedule will let up. It’s making everything worse and I’m panicking.
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I have classes all day and work all night. I need to be able to have my “alone time” when I get this way, but neither schedule will let up. It’s making everything worse and I’m panicking.
i don’t understand how i can simultaneously crave companionship and flee social interaction.
locked in my bedroom,
ignoring texts and calls from my roommates,
my friends,
my sister,
my mom.
i don’t have the strength to read or respond.
i don’t have the strength to pick up the call.
i barely have strength to pull the blankets over my head,
yet i wish i wasn’t hiding under covers alone.
How does a person get rid of their social drive? That longing for companionship?
It’s kind of like sex drive. I’d like to kill that off, too.
I can’t deal anymore.
I moved almost two months ago and sitting here in my room the same as every night and day, except this time somethings different. I’m having flashes, and I look up at the wall where the lamp is shining down on the paint. Light blue, like the carpet nine years ago. I can’t do this anymore. Being alone all the time, having nobody to talk to and distract me from old memories. I feel this sensation in my gut, and this dragging feeling from my shoulders down to my palms. I took the first cut in sophomore year. And then it […]
i have so many regrets in life and so many thing i wish i could change to the point where it is eating away at me i wish i could go back in time and change my past…. like in that movie the butterfly effect….
I just had a breakdown. Â I started breaking things and throwing them all over the place. Â I had no control and this hasn’t happened for a long time. Â I feel claustrophobic, I feel as if there isn’t enough room to breathe no matter where I go. Â I have no motivation for anything, I don’t want anything. Â I want to give/throw away everything I own and just be bare. Â I wish I wasn’t such a coward and could find the perfect opportunity to end it. Â I have been scarred growing up and my defense mechanism was to lock away my emotions and never let anyone in. […]
hi everyone
                        i want your comments about my life history. i was born in india and came to australia in 2007
       and i completed my studies in 2010. due to my reckless ness  i missed a chance to get ctizenship and i have to study again to stay in this country till now 2013 . in the hole 5 years i learnt so many  in my life some are good & some are bad. now my parents in my country want me to get married in my family my father and mother and one younger brother my father spend so much money on me before i came […]
I hate how people say your “too young” to be depressed.. You don’t know what they have been through, you have no rigth to judge them.
four walls, Four plain white fucking walls. That’s all I see, Thats all I feel. I feel like I have no one. I go to bars, I go to school, it doesn’t matter. All I ever feel is the loneliness. I wish I could talk to god and tell him how much I hate him…..
Life ia funny isn’t it?…..I mean when you actually do? Live it or hide in dark room, alone? I mean look at life….today in school there was a anti-bully speaker and it made me want to kill myself even more……………Parents just lie to you and say “Its ok” but it isnt is?……………Parents say they love you, but you can just tell they hate you ad think you are a failure?……..You start dating and your bf/gf leaves you heartbroken?……….If this ist true am I just a loser?……….or am I a long ass rollercoaster that ist fun anymore………ps i am a 12 year old girl
Time is a treacherous thing. Destructive. An enchantress. Slowly killing you, while leaving you asking for more. Time does not cause the pain in your heart to fade. It sinks deep into your soul. Hiding. Festering. Waiting for the opportune moment to reemerge when it can do the most harm.Time allows you to become vulnerable again. It makes you think you’ll finally be okay.
Just when you relax again, when your walls begin to crumble, that’s when it happens. It’s like a gunshot in the night. You wake, breathless and confused. Looking down to see the blood seeping through your clothes. We never see it coming. […]
Yeah. That happened. And today is the day! :O Nothing bad has happened yet.. Well.
I woke up this morning to a lot of messages. :I People ‘Worrying’ Also had a message from my friend, Aaron. Who then told me that my sister is self-harming. Still haven’t been able to talk to her about it but my dad knows. So does that make it okay?
I didn’t get to attempt this morning. And I can’t try tomorrow morning as my friend is coming round and staying the night. To some that is a good thing.
I just don’t know what to do anymore…. 🙁
Last night was a very rough night for me.
It started with just hanging out with one of my new friends here, I call her Teru. She has multiple personality disorder. So talks to them in her head and functions everyday like normal with them. Well, her and I hooked up with a couple of our guy friends. The one she hooked up with, she felt that they could trust each other and do whatever and still be friends. She trusted him. Later that night, at two something in the morning, he broke her trust and hurt her. He poked at one of her personalities. You […]
Just wondering if someone can send me an email to the person who started this group. I am a youth worker, and looking to help.
I’ve got a plan to try to take my life.
It scares me to think that this time I want it to work.
If not many know about me, I can give a little intro if that helps.
I’m blind. That in it self, can have many advantages and disadvantages. I was adopted and abused as a child.
I’m almost out of high school and for the last few months or so, I’ve been wanting to take my own life. I’ve tried to be as kind as can be to people but sometimes I just explode and then feel so bad.
I’m tired of hurting, […]
They try to tell me its chemical. Here… take this drug and you can start to live again. Here pop this pill and you can start to feel better, after three or four months. Placebos.
It numbs me from feeling anything. That’s all the antidepressants and antipsychotics do… Numb.
I don’t want to be numb. I don’t want to be a mindless drone going through the motions of being alive. I don’t want to meet someone and have them run in the other direction once they see the pills in my medicine cabinet.
Besides, its not chemcial. No. Not really. I’m 25. I had my first breakdown when […]
Sometimes you realize how much you really have to kill yourself.
Has anyone heard from nat? Â getting quite worried
I have an undying urge to be a part something larger. Â I want to live in a city where there are so many things going on I have a choice where to put myself. Â I want to be exposed to as many cultures as possible. Â I want to cook good meals with an assortment of flavorings, meats, and vegetables. I want to be able to ride a bike everywhere. Â I want a tiny apartment. I want to be able to go to an edgy comedy club, and go to a jazz bar, in the same night. Â I need variety.
I have always seen myself moving to […]
I called the suicide hotline.
They put me on hold and a recording told me “Your total waiting time will be: 108 minutes.”
I hung up after 10 minutes.
What is wrong with this world?
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