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Im in my room With the music loud as hell
No-one can hear me screaming-
They never do..
Well I’ve got a razor to my wrist and im wonderin’
Do you still think Im happy?
Excuse me while I cut out all MY imperfections
I’m ready to go…
God, if you’re listening
please take me now…
I’m too weak to do it myself.. I need help..
I’ve messed up this life enough, and I’m just done trying.
I let everyone down, and hurt the people I love most.
Save them.
End me.
Because I can’t do it.
He was right, everyone would be happy without me around.
Make me disappear.
i am 15 nearly 16. people think im such a happy teenager, but they have no idea how wrong they are. i have depression, i have an eating disorder, i self harm and im suicidal. i dont have a bf and a lovely family but non of them know the truth. i tell them but they dont take me seriously they thing im lying or that ill be “fine” do you know how hard it is to be battling against life alone? feel like no one cares? no one is there? well thats me. i have cuts on my shoulder, stomach and my wrists. i […]
Once, again my life is continuing on it’s downward decent; although this time it is spiraling out of control more rapidly than it ever has before. I can’t do any of this anymore…nor do I really want to. I am tired, of living, breathing, and existing. I feel as if I do not even have a purpose anymore, but instead I am an empty shell that is carrying on the functions of the person that I used to be. No one cares about me, for awhile I thought that maybe for once in my life someone actually cared about me, but alas I was wrong. I was […]
I never have time for this site anymore. :/
How is everyone?
Some people are just clueless about depression and suicide. They just say “oh pick yourself back up” if only it was that simple. If it was that simple no one would commit suicide. They have no idea how difficult it is just to make it through a day without falling all apart. So maybe its better to keep it inside until it kills you. Until you kill yourself. Until it all ends.
Hi it’s me again.If you ever need help or a listening ear,just email me.My email is shanecia.anthony@gmail.com.I ‘ll check my email every day so please just email me if you need help.
Tired of everything, already on anti-depresants but I’m not depressed I’m tired of it all, just plain tired of living.
I swear if I hear one more person say “God has a plan for you” I will scream!!! I was raised in church and these are the plans he’s had for me I’m screwed. No one on earth listens and I’m more than absolutely sure He doesn’t care either so if that’s where you are coming from, don’t bother.
A woman said to me the other day that I just need to make a choice and stick to it (she meant chosing God) well I’m making my […]
More and more frequently these days, I’m struck by how utterly pointless everything is. This is accompanied by a feeling of profound sadness. This usually happens during a fixed time period during the day (in the afternoon), when I’m alone. I think I can understand why people commit suicide — it’s perfectly understandable. If there is a button I can push to get out of this world, and if it doesn’t involve pain or decomposing body, I think I might push it. This feeling goes away if I take a walk or be among crowds, or interact with people. I suspect this is what they call […]
I have been lurking on this site for a while, and a few months ago I began to post some of my own thoughts here. Within a short span of time this site has begun to play a very important role in my everyday life. It has generated a wide-range of emotions from me, especially the SP-Chat.
Through this place I have experienced some of the happiest moments of my life while at the same time it has caused me much emotional and mental anguish. I’ve become quite addicted to visiting this site, reading posts, hearing the ideas and emotions people are expressing and learning from […]
So, I just realised it’s only a couple of months till Christmas…
I’m from California, 20 years old, female, depressed and just need a friend. does anyone want to talk?
17 days thats how long I’ll wait. I’ll wait for a reason to keep going. To keep fighting. To keep hope. 17 days. I wish I was brave enough to keep living but I’m scared of tomorrow. I’m afraid to come living. 17. 17 days and I won’t have to scared anymore. 17
When I was young, I was ‘diagnosed’ as being gifted. High intelligence, learns fast. They forgot to mention the side effects. I analyse everything and everyone. I can’t stand being around people. They never say anything interesting. Meaningless discussions about the boring crap they do all day long and are planning to do. I can make almost anyone like me with the masks of sanity I put on every day. Cheerful to some, great listener to others and a serious guy to more others, everyone likes me. I have a good job and decent enough looks, by all accounts a great guy.
But noone sees […]
amen
I’ve had depression for almost a year now and my life is just falling apart. Over the summer I’ve tried to kill myself 5 times, but can’t even do that right. I have nobody to talk to about how I’m feeling because nobody understands. They’ll just label me and think I’m a freak… People think I have a perfect life because I’m popular at school and always seem happy, but they don’t know that every night I consider killing myself. I’ve been on another depression forum and people keep saying things will get better and to just hold on, BUT IT HASN’T GOTTEN ANY BETTER!!! […]
And harder to get through. I have had that night on my mind since it happened. Scares me. I have many sketches started, but none that I can finish fully. I have put the gun to my head many, many times. Good thing though: I have had the pleasure of some company lately which has helped distract me, and I appreciate it. (you know who you are)
I want to tell myself that I am trying to get through life to get  _______. I am sure I need to know what _______ is before I try to get there. I do not want the end to come so […]
I’m so tired of trying. Every day is the same. This endless depressing cycle keeps repeating itself. I press on, fail, and end up in the same place I started. I’ve tried so hard for the past 9 years. But everyone just see my failures, not what I’ve achieved or how hard it is for me to survive another day. I feel worthless. Empty, defeated, and alone. Everyone is always wanting me to change, to be doing something else, to be somewhere else, to be someone else. It’s frustrating, I’ve changed so many times, I have no idea who I am anymore. And what good […]
I’m in that mood again but it’s different.
I just moved out into a different place,
I couldn’t handle the one place anymore-
And lately I feel like there’s no forward or backwards,
My mind is absolutely feels like it’s a dream.
Last night I cried myself to sleep,
I wanted to cut and than take all the Melatonins so the pain won’t bother,
Don’t know what to do anymore.
I wish it was a dream-
Tell me it’s a dream.
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