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No. I’m not afraid. I never have been. I’m ready for what’s next. I don’t know what’s next. I don’t want to live. But I don’t want to die. There’s nothing left for me here, this giant space rock we call earth. I won’t do it, not yet. But soon.

What do you have to live for when your life is already over?

I didn’t choose to be here, neither did you.

But I’m not afraid.

I fear nothing. No one. 

I am ready to die.

I am not afraid of the black hooded figure as he stands near.

I am not afraid to die.

I am always sad and just feel low and weak all the time there’s reasons I feel like this but I need someone and hey help but lately I’m not important to my bestfriend even though I am so alone andAshe knows I am and that I am too tired and weak to hang out with anyone else but she’s leaving me I’m being selfish and I know she needs to stay happy and be with other friends but I need her

im a survivor. its been 6 years since i tried to kill myself.  i hated my life, my family, my friends, my school, i thought i was stupid and going no where.  i was always average and it took me so much to get through school and i didnt stand out. ever. recently i was diagnosed with severe dyslexia and a mild learning disorder.  i didnt graduate high school with honors and most of my teachers will never remember me. i dont care. im doing great now. im going to a university and doing well. i work full time and still manage to volunteer. i […]

the plan continues.Yet tommorow will probably be the stupidest way of going about but once i start cutting myself i will not stop.Yet i dont want to die.What i want is another option but this is the way im being pushed by outside forces.Yes im a fucking asshole and everybody will be like we love you dont do it.But in the times i needed help nobdy was there.In fact i kind of took from my shrink and the shrink at the hospital that im basically hopeless and the logical thing would be death. the unknown is more scary than anything after death thats scary cause […]

I am different. I look different and everything. There is this girl who just came in the picture. She is the only one who can make me smile. It’s like she doesn’t even try!

Every time I see her. I mean every time. I feel a connection. The way she looks at me now than before we talked. It somewhat seems like she feels it to. How can I tell if she does?

We used to go to the same school. But now we don’t. Since here school does not have homecoming and she really wanted to go to one. I am taking her to mine. She […]

I look back on the past year and realize i have accomplished nothing great.

I have lost the people who mean the most to me, they have new friends, new lives and are having an amazing time.

My family have moved to another country, so im alone.

Im scared.

But i know that if i keep smiling and hold my head up high and strive for greatness something will give.

I have lost 3 family memebers in the last 5years to suicide and it hurts, but i just dont ever want to […]

This is a pretty fucked up story, but, I suppose  being fucked up is a prerequisite for this website. I’ve had a pretty shitty life. I won’t say that it’s any shittier than anyone else’s, but it’s been pretty fucking shitty as far as I’m concerned.

I’m 27, female, married. Victim of childhood sexual, physical, emotional, and spiritual abuse. Victim of domestic abuse, and incest as an adult.

When I was a child, my father molested me, so my mother left him, and married a man 20 times worse than my father was. My stepfather would beat us until we couldn’t stand, and handcuff us to the bed […]

Its coming back. I was fine for a few days, actually looking at the positives and I didn’t even cut which was an achievement.

But of course i have to get sucked back in. I blame people. people close to me. I used to know this guy that treated me like a princess, always made me feel beautiful and was the nicest to me. He actually made me feel human unlike all the other people around me. he accepted me.

I was always nice to him because he was always nice to me. And I’ve never said anything to make  him get upset or wateva. So recently […]

Why must i always feel this way? I wake up every morning wishing i would die. Icant stand being like this everyday. I go through my day planning new ways to kill myself, and i fight to control myself.

i try my best. but still my best insnt good enough. in order to please him… actually theres no way to please him. okay isnt good enough. Average isnt good enough. this mostly happens with math. which involves my grades. my grades are very good though. All A’s and B’s. but still that isnt good enough. And if i do bad on a test??? All i get from him is “why didnt you get an A”.
Do you get what im trying to say here?! If you do. Please help.

So I tried to. Commit suicide a few months ago. I would have been successful with my attempt’ had I not looked out the car window I was hiding in and seen my mom crying trying to find me, so I came out and don’t remember much past that until acouple days latter when i woke hooked to machines. Since then I dream of dieing but can’t put my family through that again but for real, I  don’t think my dad would recover  from my suicide. A part of me wishes my parents would die so I could kill myself’ but for the time being […]

Well a few weeks ago I tried taking my life. I really tried, I even warned people the night before. So when i took the pills. My “friends” left my dying body there and kicked it. Then I got a text from someone I didn’t really talk to say words I never heard before. “Isaiah…I don’t want you to die. I care about you.” It meant SO much. Then while she kept texting me, I tried staying alive so hard. Talking to her. Feeling safe and cared for. The feeling I never had before… I slowly started to fall for her. Then one day these […]

its the worst thing you can possibly do.

I’ve been on this site for a few months now. I haven’t made many posts, but I’ve been reading posts everyday. I know it’s a little late, but I’ve decided to introduce myself.

I don’t want to share my gender because I do not want to be judged. I know it’s sounds pathetic, but I don’t really care.
I’ve been depressed for a while and it all started when I was very young. I’ve never been on medication or been in a Mental home, but I’ve been in therapy for a long time. everyone thinks I’m recovering now, but I’m really not sure. It’s hard […]

I hate my life….words can’t describe it I’ve disappointed so many ppl and ppl who loved me have tyrned there backs on me. I have two beautiful little girls that I wish I cud give the world to but I cnt my life is a disaster and the only way that it could fiz is by me taking it away…a lot of ppl would prob be happy and won’t be worried or bothered by me no more idk where I went wrong in my life but in a few minutes all this will be over…I just pray my little girls have a better life without […]