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How many of you have been told that you help a lot in someone’s life?
What about being told that your useless through a post but that person doesn’t hae the balls to tell you strait up?
I am so fed up with feelin useless and like I don’t matter and I’m tired of people lying and being all like oh you matter so much and they just don’t show it…..
I am fed up with feeling like they could all give a shit less….
I wanna play R&R but I wanna lose this time…….
The recession destroyed life as I new it. Having been laid off 3 times in 2 years, I left my home and started over in a new town. The first 10 months were a struggle to survive, and then it finally paid off. I landed my dream job. Still alone in this new place 800 miles from friends and family, I made the mistake of befriending a female co-worker. She approached me a couple of weeks after we both started working at the same company. She had moved to the same town with a boyfriend of 7 years and they had broken up. She was […]
I wait for the night. Tears flood my eyes when the sun sings silently as it bows down to the distant horizon. Darkness erases the crimson sky and casts forth a glitter of brilliant light. The night sky’s iridescent perfection. My body is weightless in their presence. But nothing lasts. Even the stars cannot defy death.
Surrender to the dark.
Nature is simple in its complexity. Pure. Flawless. Even in its destruction, it’s perfect. Most people see fires and tornadoes and floods as something to fear and hate, but I see something to admire. Nature does not mourn loss, nor does it fear renewal. No regrets.
We should […]
I’ve pretty much stopped eating and am down to 98b lbs (and I’m 5’4), so technically I’m in the danger zone as I’m told. So why isn’t my body shutting down already?!?!! It’s really the only method I have access to, without causing too much suspicion. just taking too damn long…wISH i could just fall asleep and never wake up, but nooooo, my body is like freaking energizer bunny, it just won’t hurry up and shut down. I want to go be with my grandparents. Hopefully, it’ll only take just a few more months, it’s sucks that it’s such a slow process….
I found this website a few days ago when I googled “I want to die”.
I wasn’t looking for something in particular-just some kind of…answer… or help. I’m not sure if I actually want to die or not.
I’ve been reading some posts, but I’ve been afraid to comment on any… I’m extremely afraid of talking to people, especially strangers, even if it is online, but I need to talk about it to someone, or some people, who understand.
I’m horribly, horribly depressed and I’ve felt like this for years. I’ve recently spoken to my doctor about it and he’s put me on medication and referred me to […]
I’m Going through a divorce with my wife of 7 years. I recently started getting these feelings of regret and how I treated her. I am trying to get her back but it seems like she has moved on with her life already. I am so hurt and sad inside. I just want my family back. Idon’t want to live without my family together. I don’t feel the live from her anymore. We havetwo small children and it breaks my heart to see them going through this. I just want to give up. I can’t cook or clean or have no energy for theme I […]
i know im gonna be happy w/ my person, but i can’t be with my person, because of cultures & this is uncommon things.
Some people are just different..instead of accepting,they’re easily judging,accusing&looking at them like a disease.
I felt like shit. I mean I usually feel like shit but today was different. I honestly wanted to jump of the 5nd floor. I just need someone to talk to. Someone who will always be here for me. Someone who would be able to just listen and I can cry all I want and hrkwjdkejxkshdkwkdkanjskskskakskskkskqldnapjlkbkjhkijnbctyhjyd I just don’t feel okay. And I’m really tired of pretending im fine. I’m tired of people stepping all over me. You know what I wanna do? I want to ignore everyone… Just not talk to anyone (except for like 2 people who I love talking to). I’ve been […]
it means nothing to me anymore. no one means it. its just a game now. idk who to trust. i dont even believe daddy when he says it. and when i do beleive one guy….he leaves me for some other girl. she is ten times better than me too. no cuts on her arms, no hair in her face, a smile across her face and to top it off she is miss popular. why does this always happen to me? am i not ment to be loved? love is not a reason i want to die…its a reason i am so depressed. but i will […]
the gental breeze
wind in her hair
i recognize her scent
as she passes by
she does not know that i am here
her laugh and smile
and her bright eyes
but i only watch her
never tell her my name
i sit next to her in every class
her sneeze is just beautiful
and so is she
she is my happyness
she is my reason to stay
i love her, but she will never know
i wanna leave this “world” aka my hell
i dont like walking round school and hearing people talk about me and laughing or writing shit about me on facebook or girls toilets,i dont want for everyone to look at me like im no good for anyone.
i couldnt help what happen to me,people say to me why didnt u scream help or rape,unless u wanted it to happen but i cant say what i want to say,i want to tell them why i didnt scream,cos when your so scared you try to scream but the words wont come out,inside your screaming so […]
I’m so glad that I found this site. It’s perfect. Things have been really fucked up as of lately. My depression and disordered eating that began in 6th grade have crept back into my life somehow. Causing me to get in fights with friends, family, myself. I’ve had suicidal thoughts every single day, just like old times. But something new is that I see scary images. But this has been happening since summer/the end of last year. Like for an example, whenever I close my eyes I see blood or a man with an ax in his head laying on the ground bleeding, or when I’m in […]
Today I was on the verge of suicide. Today I saw a bird that was on the fence surrounding my home and I saw the very same tree that has been in front of my house for years in a different light while going through this crisis today. These things might sound very much trivial and insignificant but I mention these things because when one (anyone) was or is about to kill themselves or is near to death, life little things becomes much more vivid. The sky and even the air might feel different.
Why is there this prevailing norm that the act of suicide […]
I need help but dont want it posted to the public..any ideas
I posted something the other day, but it really didn’t explain my ‘history’ as people are calling it.
Hey. I’m Adrienne. People call me Addie. I’m almost 18. I have a great family (except my dad). I put a shitload of pressure on myself. I have been cutting myself for about 6 years. It got pretty hard-core during the last 3 years. I don’t do it to feel alive, per se; I do it to punish myself for anything I can think of, or if I just feel depressed. I have attempted suicide twice, both times failing (obviously). I have been seriously considering doing it again, […]
Why does everybody seem to abandon me? Why do old friends, when I go to visit them, the only thing they can say is that I got fatter? Why does my boyfriend don’t even return my calls? Why does my best friend didn’t want to come see me? They don’t know how awfully fragile I am. They have no idea. I just wanted love from them. And carress. Why are people so mean and harmful to others? And why am I like this…
“It’s dying, It’s dying!” They all cry,
Your heart got far too close to mine,
And now it’s ripping, breaking inside,
My body breathes a sigh of relief as it’s time.
I can hear it in the wind, I can feel it on my skin,
“Just one more time, you’ll feel much better ” I can’t let these voices in.
“Please don’t desert us, we were always there for you,
On those lonely nights when you were lost and didn’t know who to turn to.
Self harm? No harm! What harm can it do? They take me away cause they know it hurts you.”
Now she’s […]
so my birthday is tomorrow and i’m not the least bit excited for it. its just another day, another year that has passed by. i don’t see any reasons to look forward to a birthday or a new year and i don’t understand how people can get so excied by that. i’m just getting older, wow… not really something to celebrate.
13.7 billion years ago. something strange began to happen.??? There was a big bang & then Tiny parts of the universe became conscious. One of these’s part’s was called Donnie. & he was pissed. Why did donnie get. Life. I.E self-awareness. For.? If i was enjoyin it. cool. Maybe i would understand it. Ok why was i made self-aware for. Just to have a rubbish life. Then off my self & lapse back into unconsciousness.? It’s just my fate. to spend an eternity in darknesss. Then To have a shitty brief flash of self-awareness. Then slip back into an eternity of darkness. Once more. How […]
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