i hate the word love

it means nothing to me anymore. no one means it. its just a game now. idk who to trust. i dont even believe daddy when he says it. and when i do beleive one guy….he leaves me for some other girl. she is ten times better than me too. no cuts on her arms, no hair in her face, a smile across her face and to top it off she is miss popular. why does this always happen to me? am i not ment to be loved? love is not a reason i want to die…its a reason i am so depressed. but i will never kill myself over a guy or girl that i love, because then how am i suppossed to thank them when im over them. each love story is a leason learned and ive already learned enough. leason:never use the word love. it does not work out for most people. and maybe i will be happy if i never loved anyone. no expectations, no promises, no hearts broken c: took me time top think it over but it seems legit