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i have been so depressed the past few days and all i feel is extreme sadness. i hate not feeling anything else. all i ever feel is sad and empty. i hate that everyday i have to fight myself just to stay alive… and its so hard to do especially when everyone at home refuses to listen to me. i can say anything and they won’t even recognize i’m talking… so most of the time i avoid them or i don’t even say a word because apparently what i have to say is not important. one day i’ll just break and be gone and they’ll […]

after my mom saw a suicidal note on my private Facebook support group. she took me to a doctor when i turned 18 and told the doctor about the event. it made me mad at first but it was the right thing for me. it takes about a month for it to fully take effect but once it does it makes your tolerance to sin and just bullshit in general so much better. my problem is really rare just because of how stupid my problems really are. in a way they still get to me but not as much. I’m really anti social and have […]

I really have nothing more to offer anymore.  I have ADHD, and while I don’t use it as an excuse, I can see where it has affected my daily life.

My g/f is mad at me because I didn’t call to say goodbye before I went camping this weekend. It seems like I’m always screwing up in the relationship by not doing the little things like being considerate enough to call her and tell her what’s going on, or if I’m gonna be late, etc. This is not HER saying these things to manipulate me; it’s the truth. I just get so focused on things that […]

I’ve been sucidal for a hell of a long time. The fire in my heart is out. I feel like a dead guy walking up right. A zombie. Death is my escape. But is allso the end of me. unless there is reincarnation. Ok i’m ***** in. I want reincarnation with good karma. Ok Universe. ***** in over.

all i think about is death, it consumes me.

these pills are a joke, i have been on too many to count on one hand, nothing agrees with my mind. My subconscious has already decided my fate and im tired im so fucking tired of arguing with it.  Its winning and i dont know how to fight anymore.  These pills are like lollies they are doing fuck all.

I dont want to be like this anymore im so sick of it.  A big part of me wants to know what it feels like to truely laugh and smile without faking it, but i think that part of me died a […]

I want to share a little about myself, and my current predicament that has lead me to write this today. Ive always been a shy, rather introvert, sensitive man ( Typical Cancer and middle child syndrome). I seem to be plagued by bad luck, and everyday seems to be another uphill struggle.  I always put other people first, and I would never see anyone struggle, regardless of who they were. Ive suffered with low mood and depression as far back as I can remember, and recent events have lead me to seriously think where I am, who I am, and why I keep breathing. I […]

My brother and his girlfriend, they’re Clowns.  There really isn’t that much I can do about it other than warn the people here that Clowns are everywhere (likely even someone close to you) and the Circus is coming to town.  It will be interesting and as I said before all we can really do is wait for it all to end and enjoy the ride.

Anybody my age is asked this question at least once a week: Where do you see yourself in ten years? I see nothing. It’s a blur. It’s dark; uncertain. I’ve laid no foundation in my 17 years on Earth.

I’m not old enough to regret the decisions I have made (or have not made), as I have not even graduated high school. The lack of motivation and blatant hopelessness has killed my ability to perform well and excel. I have shut the doors on my ideal, successful life – stumbling in the dust behind my peers. What I have ruined in academics, I have not made up […]

Ive been reading this page just as I have been surfing through the internet for suicide for the last 3 months. It hasn’t been my first time and it’s hard to say if it will at this point. All I know is that if i had the tablets of ******** that I dream of next to me right now, this would be the last words I would be typing. Living in this world while you are depressed and suicidal is like living in some dirty toxic capsule where people can see you like they do anyone else, yet you are buried ten feet underground and […]

I want to share my story with you. Please excuse me for the bad english sometimes, but I’m coming from another country. So…here we go.

I had a perfect childhood. I was an energetic, happy and normal child. I thought my life would be perfect. After elementary school I was going to a gymnasium…and there it starts. I should have learn, but I spend my time on meeting with my group of friends so my grades got very bad. One and a half year later my friends break up with me cause I was starting to isolate myself. From this moment on I was all alone […]

i feel like i am already dead on the inside… its just my body that walks around i feel plain and boring i have been depressed all weekend because i was around my ex i was with friends who tried to cheer me up but it didn’t seem too help i cried at the bowling alley when he put his arm around me… when he asked whats wrong i said “if i told you what was wrong you would think i am fucked up” he did not really try to get an answer out of me after that… but i seem to feel upset around […]

I know this isn’t the best way to get it out but Ive tries everything. I’m 14 and VERY depressed. No one seems to get that I am hurting a lot. Yes I am 14 and I know that this may just be hormonal or something. But I think its more then that. I’ve been depressed about my weight (150 pounds 5”7.) thinking I’m fat, I think I’m ugly because of my acne, my family is gaining up on me because they think I’m just grumpy all the time, my dad is NEVER home so I am alone with everyone yelling at me, I recently […]

done so fucking done.

i hope i cut to deep soon.

just want to die.

planning my suicide.

goodbyes will be soon.

This will be a bit.. long. So be prepared to read my stupid, pathetic story.

First off, I want to give you backround information, so you clearly can understand some excerpts from this. A year ago I had no self control. I caused drama. Backstabbed people. For no reason. I felt a thrill. A depressing thrill from it. I don’t know, it’s hard to explain. But this year, I am a “new person”.

I guess.

But, I am in late highschool. I am not a young-puberty-hit-moron with unusual hormones. I look at people, and I have no respect for them, because over the years, people have been cruel […]

Email me. Thegirl.interrupted1989@gmail.com

One day I will probably kill myself by driving my vehicle into the water at a boating dock and drowning when no one is around to save me.  As bad as suicide is I think an even worse fate would be to be saved and come back all retarded or a vegetable. I have known for about 4 years that I would kill myself one day. I know there are people who will miss me. Trust me, I have 2 kids. I love them very much. I even love myself. I am just undeniably unhappy in this life because of my past and a life […]

Last summer.  The last one.  I’m through.