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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N9eN9h00h94

iv got one to many skeletons in my closet, they are all falling out as things burst at the seams
another cliche “rescue me”up
im so messed
yes you know to much
which ends my chances at not being pitied.
i want more than your pity

When I come back.

I wont care, I’ll just be me.

You hate, then hate.

I don’t f***ing care anymore.

You want to push me away then fine. Push me away.

You want to talk bout the past.

F*** You!

You actually really care, then convince me.

If not, then pretend you never knew me. Stop wasting your precious time.

Then just leave me alone.

Just be like everyone else and turn into strangers. I tried; I always try.

You didn’t even give me a second or third chance.

Why should I tell you my story? If I told you the story then okay, if not, then I really don’t trust you.

Mind your damn f***ing buisness.

Seriously, I aint ganna be too nice anymore.

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I’m having a hard time being at work right now. I feel depressed and just sad, I’m not sure why… I just want to disappear.

I’ve attempted suicide twice in my life… I’ve been thinking about trying again allot recently. Just the other week I was fantasizing about jumping out of a window in this 20 story building I was in…

How does everyone cope w/ day to day life? I try the best I can to put a smile on my face and go about normal life – but that is getting really hard to do.

Okay well, I guess were supposed to vent and tell our story here. It all started in 6th grade. I had no friends in 6th grade. I thought everyone hated me. I would go home and cry because of how bad the school day was. I would have to wake up then go to school where i thought everyone can give two shits about me. But at least i got through it. Then 7th grade came, i thought everything started to get better. Well, turns out i didn’t. I started to change. I became more depressed, had anxiety, and became so stressed out i couldn’t […]

My name is Jeremy, im a 25 year old man and I am going to end my life today. For 25 years, all I have given to this world, to my family and friends, is heartache, pain, misery and lies. Ive been labeled something im not but thats beside the point. I heard my mother today tell me that she was done with me, she wants nothing more to do with me. My father also said this. I have the most beautiful girlfriend named Chelle, we are apart right now because she lives in Colorado and I live here in hell.We lost our baby not […]

I hate your kids.

After going through a rough patch of hard shit already, the second time round does not get any easier, even with experience. I feel like I can’t put up with another load of DIFFERENT bullshit all over again. The first time was hard enough, but this time I just seem to have the floor below me, falling through, just like my ability to cope. i don’t know what to do anymore. The situation’s don’t matter, it’s just the factor of me not being able to have the strength to deal with this hurt and crying and shaking and pain and guilt anymore.

I need help but […]

I’m not shaking. I’m not crying. I’m already not there anymore. This isn’t happening.

My soul has been killed. And tomorrow my body will escape. I will not use any fucking poison, bag or cord. I will not jump, I will not shock anybody. Do you deserve such a dramatic death? You? No, tomorrow my body will be gone very far away, on the other side of the ocean, he will walk and nature will kill him little by little, his murderer will be the one who gave him birth. I’ll die into the wild.

I’m not a bad guy. But I’m not good enough. Because I […]

“People always think they know other people, but they don’t. Not really. I mean, maybe they know things about them, like they won’t eat doughnuts or they like action movies or whatever. But they don’t know what their friends do in their rooms alone at night or what happened to them when they were kids or if they feel f***ed up and sad for not reason at all.”
― Libba Bray

“It has been said, ‘time heals all wounds.’ I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never […]

I’m totally broke and some a-hole stole my bike I freakin need to get around. God dam, I’m pissed, sad, angry, bummed-out, helpless, oh-ya, Screwed !!!

It’s really hard not to think about this all day and night, shit, shit, shit

For the second time in 3 months my 16 year old son has attempted suicide. The first time was with pills and this time which was just yesterday he put his car into a telephone pole. Its been over the same girl both times and I dont know what I should do.

For as long as I can remember ive hated myself…

I tried to overdose on paracetamol earlier this year, though i didnt think that through. PARACETAMOL DOES NOT WORK. You just end up in A&E throwing up with a drip in your arm.

I just want to die. I can’t explain it. I know I’m going to try again soon, hopefully hanging this time…

well i better start with abit of background, when i was 2 my brther barnabas left when he was 16 because my brother oliver who is now 20 would have been around 5 at the time was sexually abused by barnabas’ best friend and it caused my brother oliver many problems in life as you can imagine and my mother would not leave the house wich lead to her becomeing more ill and deppressed, she has bipolar and M.E. we then started moving houses alot which started from trying t get away from where the abuse happened. then when i was 7 my brother isaak […]

I don’t know what I would do if I couldn’t write.

I think that everyone should have a passion in life. Everyone needs something to keep their feet on the ground, to keep them from slowly losing it. It’s a stress-reliever, a hobby, the love of my life, the apple to my pie, call it whatever you want but all I know is that if I wasn’t a writer I would feel like my life isn’t worth anything.

I used to wonder why I wasn’t like other teenagers. Why I didn’t go out and party, drink, get involved with drugs, get pregnant before I graduated high school. Was […]

I shouldent feel the way i do im 13 years old i already have severe depression, i iust moved schools everyone likes me but i fucking hate it because of the negative parts of my brain theres cutters There i see them at least one a day i already feel like cutting but i just scrach my self realy bad because i just dont have the guts but one day ill just do it, then i come home to one of two diffrent houses ones is my mums she dose heroin im pretty sure i kinda seen it today i almost od today and at […]

hey to who ever is reading this. I am a question nothing else question that questions. Shit happened in my life but they just arent the reason why I feel this way. I wish I would discribe my feelings but I cant. I yelled at my mom told her I wanted to kill myself she did nothing. Today she told me to stop being this “negative” there are alot of people who has it bad. that doesn’t change anything. Its just how I am. Few times since 2 years I got happy and cried it feels weird feeling that way. Most my time at school […]