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I can really say i hurt myself more than before. For letting go of such an amzing person. He was everything. I was trully stupid for not appreciating him completely,he tried so hard, and i still let him fall…i can’t seem to find reasons in my head to understand why i’d let him go. Its hard just thinking a life without his touch..his words..his everything. It seems so imposible. But there’s not much i can do if we both decided its time. Time to let go of eachother. He got tired of waiting..we had the week to think but i guess it was too much […]

There are people who care.

We won’t judge or stare.

There are people who understand.

So stand tall, and take their hand.

We’ll help you through this.

There’s Me & Orangish

We’ll be a friend.

So will AtTheEnd.

Just look around you…

Suicide is something you don’t have to do…

So Stay Strong

And Carry On <3

I hope you made it through last night. We all love you here.

Stay Strong

I tried so hard for the past few weeks. And what? Nothing my life is as bad as it was. It’s been a year since my brother died and I still haven’t moved on. Also, I think my boyfriend is only with me because he thinks if he leaves me I will kill myself, which is sad. To be honest, I think he secretly got a crush on his female friend from childhood. So yeah, my life is just fucking great. Added to that, I feel like killing myself right here, right now.

Yet, I see all the posts where someone needs help! COME ON GUYS! Text Me if you need any help I don’t care what time it is… Just Do It. If I don’t reply I’m asleep but as soon as I wake up, I’m gonna reply. I will NEVER ignore a friend in need… that’s what we are on SP! We’re more than friends we’re a family! So if you need a shoulder, I’m always here for you.

You Can Reach Me At

850-632-0697

jacobj234@gmail.com

Today was one of those days that every day has been like. Where I wake up and immediately fight with everyone because of course they don’t understand. Just this week I made the effort (and trust me it was an EFFORT) to get my life together. Why? I don’t know. I’m only always trying to end it. I thought though, silly me, that if I try to go get a job and a house that maybe people in my life will see that I’m not sitting here complaining. That I really do need some fucking help.
Who am I kidding? I’ve been begging for […]

ok so this is my first time ever doing anything like this i just need to get it out soo here i go .

ok so it all started when i was around 3 my dads so called best friend started tuching me and maken me kiss things that were bad . he did that till i was around 7 then he started putting his fingers in me an lickin me .i told my grandmoher and father tha this was happening and they didnt believe me they still made m go over to his house no matter how hard i cried .he started rapping me he started to […]

Ive been super down latley and this summer depression is getting to me..

So a lot of people have been telling me to become a Make Up Guru.
My dream is to be a hair and make up person 🙂
I’m always getting compliments and I might as well tell the whole world

Kinda of nervous though /:

The word was used by another poster……

Think about it.   Is the majority of “our” problem simple insecurity?   If we werent so damn worried about:

   our looks

  IF people love us

  what did they mean by ____

Do you think simple insecurity is our biggest hurdle?    Just wondering.

Have any of you just felt like a sex toy? Like whenever someone touches you (even if it’s innocently), they just want to use you to pleasure themselves until something new and possibly better comes along. It’s as if they don’t see you as their friend, but instead a prostitute to suit their needs without the commitment. This is how I feel all the time. It just makes me feel so guilty because I know 95% of the people I know do not see me like that, especially my boyfriend, but it’s just how I feel. I mean I have been sexually abused and even […]

I was sitting here in my room its 4:46 in the morning and i just realized, i came face to face with her killer. he even took me to her funeral, i dont belive it. im shedding tears and i dont even mean to cry but it makes my heart skip a beat to belive i just realized something so cold. He gave her every single pill knowing her problem. His voice is in my head and how he cryed at the funeral and couldnt even stand to go to the barial cause he know he fucking did it, i am so angry now i could […]

does it worry anyone else that we have a wildly growing population but only one planet worth of resources to consume?  i wonder what things will be like as resources become scarce in the industrialized world.  well, at least it will be interesting.

today i am visiting the beach.  upon my arrival i discovered two lovely young women and a strong and kind young man.  the young man helped me to move what’s left of the broken piano to the fire.  the women took turns being mermaids in the waves and we played for hours.  what more could i have hoped for?  why am i still so so unhappy?

They say not to go back to your ex. He’s bad. He doesnt deserve you. He doesnt care about you.
In the back of my mind I know theyre right…but the same people that tell me this can never provide the comfort he gives me when he isnt yelling, throwing things, or calling me names.
None of them are never there at times like these..when I need someone to talk to..and he’s asleep on the phone right now…all i have to do his wake him up and he’ll clear his throat and say “yeah babe? Were you saying something?”
But where are all of you…you […]

why am i still here?!? where the fucks the self destruct button.the drugs, the drinking and the cutting just isnt enough. sure it eases the pain, but it will never change reality. death is only around the corner but this road never ends. everyday is more painful then the day before. i dont know whats real anymore. i stare into space and just constently daydream, but i will never escape reality. not until im dead. and its all i ever think about. death and suicide. i think of every way possible to kill myself, it just ticks over and over in my head. i dont […]

dude, wtf. i dont give hell if u had a gf when u asked this i just know it was TRUE! u snuck me upstairs when i was at ur place, to talk privately, u asked me why had my phone taken away i told u, and u said uve done the same thing and neva gotten caught. ok? i tell u bout my depression, u were passive bout it. well it was the 1st time we actually carried on a conversation. then u started saying i was pretty, nice, and then u asked to have sex. well i said NO. i told ur roomate […]

My number is 850-632-0697.

Bully – Shinedown

Make It Stop – Rise Against

Jumper – Third Eye Blind

Never Too Late – Three Days Grace

To Write Love On Her Arms – Between The Trees

The Call – Matt Kennon

Don’t Laugh At Me – Mark Wills

Everybody Hurts – R.E.M.

Don’t Jump – Tokio Hotel

How To Save A Life – The Fray

Falling Away From Me – KoRn (well its about if your being abused to speak up. dont believe me look it up)

Savin’ Me – Nickelback

Jeremy – Pearl Jam (Seeing them live in Sept. 😀 )

Hold […]

Finally!! 

Ok idk if anyone in this site cares but my mum finally is listening to me. Life before was horrible i was depressed sad and was cutting my legs.. My mum found out about my cutting and was kinda mad at first but after she calmed down she said that i was going with her to the doctor so he can see wats wrong with me.. Im kinda scared.. Cause i usually dont tell anyone about my OCD, Anxiety (Separation) , and Panic attacks.. But she wants to make sure that I’m healthy.. But i lost another friend today.. Oh well i don’t need any […]