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the first person i see in the comments area is donnieblackqwert
is that really you?
Do you even remember me?
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i honestly don’t care whether or not i die. if a car drives towards me. sure, i’ll jump to safety. its natural. and wayyy to messy. i heard that girls end their cycle through pills n shit.. boys do it the messy way, shotguns or roadkill. i don’t care much though. its ok.
i just wished nobody cared. it would have been easier to be me. so. my gran found out im smoking. she started off like god was against me. i ended the conversation with saying: why would god care if i provoke cancer when children starve to death somewhere else.
my life might not seem […]
I don’t what is wrong with me as I sit here all I can think about is killing myself and how I would do it. I don’t think I have a reason to want to kill myself. I just can’t it out of my head. Just seeing the blood running out of my body and the sleepy haze that comes with it. I just don’t know why I want to do it or keep thinking about it. What do I do?
My plan for a long time has been pills and a letter left behind for my family. I’ve never had any specific date and I’ve never known what to take or the dosage or anything like that. I have never gone into specifics with the plan. I don’t know, maybe that’s a sign?
Thing is, every time I come close to figuring out the specifics, something comes up and gets in the way of the plan for a while. Things like my best friend needing me and me knowing that I need to be there for her because she needs a proper family even if […]
No one bothers commenting on anything I post…
Maybe I have been afraid to admit how much I have been struggling. Sucidal thoughts have now become obsessive to the point where I have purchased and downloaded books on killing yourself. I now have a method in place and am just waiting to see if it is something I will actually go through with.
You know that fuzzy head feeling. The world seems somehow dark. Need the pain to stop. So alone. No way out. Head hurting, unable to think. Only one way to stop it?
I want to be different so bad but I can’t be
I don’t wanna be depressed;I want to see the bright side of life.
I’m tired of this feeling of sadness
Will it get better?
over the last couple of weeks, ive been depressed, i don’t know why and i dont know how i’ve gotten this way, i sit there and cry, i feel like nothing to anyone, i give up and just want to die all the time. Most people say i shouldn’t think that, because i’m 13 years old and i shouldn’t waste my life away, suicide isn’t the way to deal with it, i’ve cut myself, wished&cried that i didn’t want to be here so many times, people just don’t understand how i feel.. about anything? No-one knows why i’m like this, i don’t even know, i […]
iam really very disappointed with my state in life, I have no job for sometime, I always wanted to be good, feel very good for others, very helping natured, show empathy even for beggars, cows in road and feed them. Unsure what wrong or curse i have. i dont have father, i cant share my problems with my mother/family… I already visited a well developed country through my job and the period is over and iam back to my country….i dont have a good life neither job nor a satisfied mind. i feel very helpless and i dont know what to do, i literally try […]
I want to die because my brother is a bully, and my parents don’t do anything about it!!!!!î–î–î–î–î–î–î–î–î–
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I realize the site is only trying to emphasize that they do NOT condone suicide in any way, but does anyone find the concept of posting rules to be ludicrous? I mean, if you’re serious about suicide, I’m sure you’ve come to the conclusion that it is the only freedom we truly do possess. I’m sure that if anyone on this site DOES take their own life, their post is the most important for us to read.  If for […]
Theory:
As children, we have primal impulses, pleasures, thoughts, actions, etc. As we grow into our teen years, society does it’s best to strip us of these characteristics. This “stripping” us of what naturally pleases us by imposing infinite amounts of rules that have no benefit to us, cause us to instinctively resist. Society calls this resistance “teenage angst” or “hormones”. Sooner or later, we all seem to comply. We go about our mundane existence feeling empty and purposeless inside. Why would our society condone and administer such a hostile act?
The answer is simple:Â The ones who control our society are the same ones who profit […]
I could SEE the pain.  It was visible. Â
And I felt a sense of accomplishment.  It hurt as I did it – but then felt kinda good.  Like relief.  I think I finally get it.
Next step is to see if deeper = more relief.  Until (hopefully), deep enough to end all pain.
WTF! so we get a call from the pharmacist and i answered it and i find my dad is still high heavy pain killers and overdosing, i give the phone to my mom and she hangs up crying my parents are getting divorced. i dont know what i feel or what to do, that was shocking and i didnt see it coming.
Hi, Well as you can see I havent offed my self! (Yet) So I am still alive on this rotten, idiotic planet! I would like to share with you my favourite book, I think you should read : Joker, by Ranulfo.
Anywhore, I am wondering if i do off myself how will I do it? The helium method? Hanging in the closet? Rooftop Jump? Knife? Pills? I do know I’m 11, you may think I am nieve but thats your thoughts, bye see you soon… maybe
Wake up.  Go to work/school.  Come home.  Go to sleep.   Wake up.  Go to work/school.  Come home.  Go to sleep.   Wake up.  Go to work/school.  Come home.  Go to sleep.   Wake up.  Go to work/school.  Come home.  Go to sleep.   Wake up.  Go to work/school.  Come home.  Go to sleep.   Wake up.  Go to work/school.  Come home.  Go to sleep. Â
Enough.  There is simply no point.  No joy, no happiness.  Just existance.  Breathing.  Wasting space.
Enough already. I am sick of breathing for no purpose.
To all of you out there who have problems with society, religion, government etc. I can tell you that there’s a good chance that your anger and/or frustration is justified. I have answers. You may not want to hear them. I am not a therapist, counselor, psychiatrist etc. I am a philosopher, an author, a teacher and a student. I am not here to preach, judge, defend, or honor. I am here to provide concepts and theories that I have gathered from decades of research and self-identity.
I want to make something very clear. To those of you reading this, I am not condoning violence on […]
Voices..
I hear them, talking, bitching, jeering.. They are trying to make me do some bad shit.. Kill her..she deserves to die.. No she hasn’t done anything… Yet. They make me cut.. Deeper, deeper.. Let it rain you coward.. I cannot complain of being alone.. I’m never alone.. They don’t let me be alone.. Ever. Your ugly, your fat, you emo, you *****, your worthless, not good enough.. You will never be up to your mothers..”Standard”… So you cut, cut the pain away, watch it bleed out of you…
Darkness..
I can feel them.. All of them.. Their thoughts.. Their voices whisper in my ears.. I […]
My fair maiden lies shackled and woe. Her dress torn and soiled, tells of blasphemy and misfortune. Her soul tormented by God and government. Does this course not beckon me to proceed encased in armor of Mendez? Should my thoughts not intertwine with war? If my cries fall on deaf ears, will I cry no more? It is the Harbinger they seek. His lowered brow swells to the rigid horns of reason. His direction echoes of thunder as stride distends. He is shielded by maxim and plague of knowledge. The sharp steel of angst-ridden compassion, urges to plunge deep […]