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I wont ever commit suicide but i think about it a lot. I am a 42 y/o gay man and i feel all alone. I am the youngest of a family of five
And i was born late into my family. My oldest brother was murdered when i was four and it tore my family apart. I lost my dad to cancer when i was 12 and my mom when i was 32. The only family i have is my sister her two kids. My sister and oldest niece has nothing to do with me. My youngest niece is the only one who is involved […]

The only time anyone will finally realize that something s wrong, it will be to late for me. I’m starting to think it is to late, for fucks sake mom, I showed you my fresh cuts and you never even asked if I was okay.Why won’t anyone see that I just want help, that I want to be loved or cared for. My tears are real, I just want someone to tell that I have something to live for. Just fucking save me. I don’t wanna do this anymore.

Apparently all I ever do is antagonize my sister, she told me today. She also told me to “go cut” myself. You know what? I might just take that order.

I’m sick of her using this against me. I never use her eating order against her. If I did my parents would get shitty with me.

I haven’t seen the school counsellor this year because she sees my sister, and I don’t want her comparing stories. I don’t talk to my friends anymore because they have their problems. Who’s left? It seems my sister has taken everyone. Her problems are always worse than mine.. therefore my depression […]

mhm high again like everynight mhm thinking about my good moments . see ? thats why i get high! to be happy !  i think of the good moments and i laughe alone … then the next morning i get high again to be happy. thats hoow liffe works for me … cuase when im not high, all the bad comments my familly tell me hurt me.  sad truth ?  anyways … im like everyone here… whirting about my dark side waiting for someone to tel me theyre proud of me

I’m looking at all your stories and they sound horrible. half of you are sick and the other half gets bullied. But, well i get a different kind of bullied. Im too scared to go back to my own house after school because my mum told me to die. She said she wouldnt care if i did suicide. That no one would. I’m starting to believe her. She yells at me 24/7, hits me and pushes me. And I just think that if your own family even wants you dead, maybe I should make them happy and just do it?