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Sonetimes i wonder why i still have to be here.you know my therapist tell me im lucky to have people who love me.but sometimes i wish i didnt so that i wouldnt feel so bad about trying to get out of here.
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All wrong-doing arises because of mind. If mind is transformed (by thoughts) can wrong-doing remain?
Where you go, there you shall be.
Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.
Buddha
Its just another year of lonliness.
Just another year of pain.
Another year of me wishing I was somewhere else.
But at least its a new year. 2011 was the year when things went wrong. Horribly, terribly wrong. So wrong that i wanted to kill myself. 2012 could be better. But it could be worse. Hopefully it will be better. I doubt it though
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For as long as I can remember, I always thought that I’d live a shorter life than most people.  I’m not sure why.  But, it’s generally been a thought that has sit with me for many years.  I even had a particular age that would  come to mind.  Well, I’m that age this year.
So, I look at my life now and realize that I have several circumstances that are rather distressing. Â Certainly, many people would say that “life for you is not over” and that I have many options, many good qualities, things will work out, etc. Â True, people would also realize that I have […]
I hope doomsday is coming this year, as many think.
Then you do not need commiting suicide.
Any felling the same way??
Here is a bit about me. Â I am an adult soul trapped inside a teenage body. Â I have OCD, but few know and nobody cares. Â I have depression, but few know and nobody cares. Â I live a life. Â I hate it.
People say, I have so much to live for. Â What? Â Family – like they care. Â Friends – who? Â I’m going to be a successful person, blah blah blah – who the f*ck cares? Â My dad once asked what would have happened if Albert Einstein wasn’t born. Â The answer was someone else would have come along and done what he did. Â So who cares if I’m […]
so its a new year, another year of my stupid and meaningless life.
my own family did not wish me a new year. they celebrated and wished on their own and i could hear their celebration but no one thought that i was there too. My best friend messaged me and called me but what a luck i got, he is in england and its impossible for me to judt go there and meet him.
I don’t know who am i writing to or talking to with this post. but i have a feeling that atleast someone around this world cares for me. I […]
Come talk to me if you need help or having bad thoughts im here to help and i will do my best
7.0 SR earthquake in Japan, at beginning of Year 2012!….whether you believe in the “2012-doomsday/Great Shift/Change” thing or not….wow….
Spent New Years Eve completely alone. I have nothing left to live for. I have no real friends, no job, no education, am ugly, have never had a girlfriend and am still a virgin in my mid 20’s. I have never even kissed a girl. Truly pathetic. I have crippling social anxiety and am too scared to even go about seeing a prostitute. I just need to muster up enough energy and courage to go through with my plan and not fuck up and I will never have to endure another moment as myself… I genuinely wish everyone that is here who still have hope […]
2hrs to death
Hi everyone, am a forum newbie. Decided as it is new year, will also register straight away.
Where to start, I am female, 30 from the UK. I have suffered Borderline Personality DIsorder as far back as I remember I, just came out of some calm BPD remission time (no love life or want for one) ie a want for a love life arose. But the feeling was not reciprocated, hence been feeling suicidal, now here. I don’t want sympathy. I just wish to be abit of a lurker and learn good methods for the time when this happens again, which it will (always does) and […]
Sigh.
First and foremost, Happy New Year everyone, though it seems that some of you here have had/are having a crappy time.
I’m new here, name’s Aki. I stumbled upon this site a few months/years back, but never registered. Got put off by the seeming anti suicide I was reading on here at that time (I think, I don’t know. I’ve gone through a lot of suicide sites). I’m not known or anything, but I do lurk around other sites, though they’re mostly pro. Anyways.
Here’s a brief summary of my attempted suicide history.
Started thinking about it when I was nine years old, then went through the whole emo […]
For all of you suffering a bit of heartache …we all lose sometimes ….anyway, hope you like …from my hometown ~ Melbourne ~(Goyte) is the artist.
Lies mess things up. I’ve told lie upon lie to try to get through each day, week, month, year. They all come back to bite me eventually. I have a few more out there – bills about to come due. God, please make the landing gentle or erase the debt.
My mother lied to me about using my credit card without permission, even with the evidence in her face. My father tells lies – that my stepmother doesn’t hate me, that things will turn out okay. (Things might turn out okay, but he sure doubts it. I can tell.)
If I go on living, I’ll tell lies. […]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EeeZr6uIHj4
We all inherit (to some degree) thoughts from others, be they from childhood, teenage years, or from things we have read or seen be it on the web, books or in real-life. Some peoples thoughts are good, some well intentioned, some so so, and some not so good at all (for themselves or others).
Just remember we make choices everyday with which thoughts ‘we let’ into our mind; be they our own or others (eg inherited thoughts). Make a conscious choice to let & keep good things in our mind, and trash or critique not so good thoughts, be they ours or others.
In summary, Don’t let […]
I lost the most important person to me. my grandma. i handled most of it well. i stayed strong for my family. i kept everyone postive and focused while she was dying. but upon  her death i got stupid drunk and started asking for ridiculous shit from people close to  me dumping even more budens on them. i did this under the guise of anxiety and with the understandng that i wouldnt remember.  i dont think that the shit ive asked from my friends or family was too bad but, it extended to my coworkers.  now, they all know that im a ridiculous drunk. i […]
I can’t begin to explain how tired I am of everything. Â Tired of being a failure, tired of the loneliness, tired of feeling like an alien that doesn’t belong anywhere, tired of not having any money, tired of putting on a brave face, tired of my shitty family, tired of having “trusted” friends stabbing me in the back, tired of hurting, tired of being hurt, tired of the sadness, tired of missing the only man I ever loved, tired of having everything go wrong, tired of the holidays … most of all, I’m tired of living.
I know people keep saying that tomorrow is the start […]