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i wish i were anywhere but here

  March 5th, 2010 by sarla

i have wanted to die off and on since i was 13 years old. i’m 28 now. i have been off an on a/ds for the past several years but they make me physically sick. apparently i get serotonin poisoning! i have so little naturally in my brain that when i take these meds i actually overdose on it.
how ridiculous is that.
these days i’m so low, so tired, so done being here. i want to disappear, to die to vanish and i constantly fantasize about a disaster that will take me away or make me leave.
i can’t talk about it with my …

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~Charles Bukowski

  March 5th, 2010 by z

“If you’re going to try, go all the way. Otherwise don’t even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives, jobs. And maybe your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery, isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance. Of how much you really want to do it. And you’ll do it, despite rejection in the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you’re going to try, go

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“Funeral arrangements”

  March 4th, 2010 by Gina12123

 

         I did research on how much does it cost for a funeral service, it sure costs alot, cheapest way is by cremation, still adding up in the $1,000’s,  i don’t about yous if you thought about this too,  i’ve been thinking about getting some kind of cheap life insurance to cover my own funeral, i don’t need all that fancy stuff neither or anyone to visit or even see me in a coffin, just bury me & let me be in peace forever,  i tried to be happy in life, but it was never meant to be, i will only smile the day that i die, my lonely suffering heart can …

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  March 4th, 2010 by cary531

on march 7th, it will be 7 months since i lost my soul mate to suicide. i still feel like i have no idea whats going in the world. everything is black and i cant seem to make sense of this world without him. i miss him with such a passion that sometimes i feel like my heart will never heal. does this feeling ever go away?

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Just at the end

  March 4th, 2010 by moonlightmoon

It has been almost 10 years. 1O extremely long years since the world ended for her and for me. Growing up I never had many friends everyone would think that I was weird and I was too much of a guy because I have 4 brothers and well I would always have more guy friends then chick friends (till this day all my best friends are guys maybe 2 chicks that are cool and not dramatic).  Girls never wanted to be my friends except to date one of my friends or brothers. All in all I would always be alone. The only thing that brings …

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shanae’s story

  March 3rd, 2010 by brittneyme

Shanae’s story.

When shanae harper was just born her parents didnt want her because she had tourettes Syndrome and shanaes parents, Laurence and Amy promised themself, if they had a disabled daughter/son they put put her up for adoption. Amy harper was shocked to find out that her own daughter had tourettes Syndrome. When amy was pregnant, she done everything so nothing would go wrong with the baby, but for some reason shanae turned out disabled. Laurence decided to put her up for adoption,
Eventually, by the time shanae was 6, someone took her. They seemed like a nice couple, Taking a child who …

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I just don’t know.

  March 3rd, 2010 by while_im_alone

It’s not that I don’t love my friends or my family. I think that’s one of the biggest misconceptions about people who commit or attempt suicide: that they’re not thinking about all the people they’re leaving behind. In fact, if it weren’t for my mother, I don’t know if I would have made it this far. But it’s getting to the point where I need more than just the occasional phone call or lunch date or study session, and I have no real reason to expect that there will ever be more than that.

At this point, I still get out of bed every morning. I …

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Ups and downs

  March 3rd, 2010 by Matski

I’m almost put off posting on this site by reading some of the terrible tales of woe some people have gone thru, and then put off seeing how pathetic some others sound. I’m not making a cry for help just venting how I currently feel.

I like my carrer even tho I seem to be in a loop trying to climb a little further up the ladder. I’m a teacher so when I’m working I have to be as enthusiastic as possible which is probably the only thing that stops me from doing anything I know i’d probably regret, but when i feel at my most …

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PLEASE STOP IM HERE!

  March 3rd, 2010 by Christina

idk how many times im gonna say this but ill do it however many times it takes, if anyone understands its me so please stop im here! i too, feel the same way, and all that but guess what we all need to help each other thank god we have each other otherwise we’d all be gone because theres not a lot of people that understand, but if anyone gets it its me so guess what no more, im alone, or nobody here, or i have nothing or w/e because you have me and im here so write to me…

e-mail-mkafan12@yahoo.com

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Sick of fighting myself

  March 2nd, 2010 by jeremybw1

Thinking about suicide all the time, knowing that it would hurt the people I love…but it’s my life, my irrevocable mistakes I have made, not theirs. Is it better to live a life in which you are bitter from having thrown away a great opportunity (great school for what I thought I wanted to do, basically dropped out)? Life is precious but a life dominated by self-loathing and regret is just so onerous to bear…

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I’m going round in circles.

  March 2nd, 2010 by lostthewill

I just want it all to stop.  I don’t want to die, I don’t want to commit suicide, I just want it all to stop.  I want the silence, the absence of the pain.  I don’t want to cry any more, I don’t want to be angry.  I just want blackness and nothing. 

I work in an industry I detest, with a boss who is a bully.  My peers in other firms are quick to criticise, and I have no support from my boss.  I am routinely humiliated in front of others.  I know that he does this to assert his power, and when he is …

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Just shit on me then

  March 2nd, 2010 by nautilus90

I feel like shit sometimes. I really wish I live far away from all the chaos that’s going on in my life right now. I wonder what’s on the mind of the oppressers who bring the pain into the lives of normal people. They are probably just selfish and idiotically wrapped up in their every day lives.

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im such a failure what do i do now???

  March 1st, 2010 by pinkpumpkin25

28/12/09

Right well where do I start, I want to apologise to you all for what I did I’m sorry for hurting you all but I’m not sorry for doing it and I really cant promise that I wont do it again, at the moment its all I can think about I really don’t want to be here and I don’t mean that as being stuck in hospital I mean that as in I don’t want to be alive anymore. I’ve been feeling like this  for so long now and I know nothing is going to stop me feeling this way no doctors no tablets no …

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All Time Low

  March 1st, 2010 by prettyodd

I’m losing my mind right now i have no where else to turn too ive literally hit my all time low. I dont wanna end my life because i wanna be a strong person but i dont think i can do it anymore my life is falling apart infront of me and i need help. All i want to do anymore is cry and never wake up i am just so lost and confused.

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Why me?

  March 1st, 2010 by WhyMe

I’m almost dead, I can’t get out of bed and I can’t sleep. I look in the mirror and the only thing I see is shit. I fucking hate so much myself that you have no idea, I’m ugly, short and nerd, I know that I’ll die alone and virgin. Also, I have fordyce spots in my dick, they just ruined my life and I just can’t get a girl. My self esteem = zero. Happiness is real only when it’s shared and I know that I’ll never get that. I hate everybody, it makes me sick to watch people smiling. I hate my family, …

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Anyone survive a gun?

  March 1st, 2010 by meresankh25

Of everyone out there that’s tried – did anyone survive an attempt that they made with a handgun?  If so, why?

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FUCK YOU ALL

  February 28th, 2010 by mnemosyne

I’ve been backstabbed, cheated, let down by people who told me they cared about me, incredibly disappointed in those who were in any position to help me, and have come to the conclusion that the entire human race is shit. I don’t think that anyone out there acts like a human being any more.

For example:

A few weeks ago at one of our weekly sorority meetings we held elections for president, vice president, etc. I actually wasn’t there because I had family business to attend to that day, but i heard all about it from my friend, who really wanted to be vice president. She lost …

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I don’t see a way out.

  February 28th, 2010 by meresankh25

Maybe he’s emotionally abusive.  But maybe I’m just as bad.

I can’t deal with how much I’ve hurt him. I can’t deal with being without him, with him refusing to talk to me.

Even if, somehow, he did manage to forgive me, where could it possibly go? Back to what we were before? No. He’s still married. And I still have a wonderful man living with me who cares about me and wants to patch things up despite what happened with this person.

There is no way past this. I want what’s impossible and every day is either numb self-delusion or the …

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Help

  February 28th, 2010 by Jann

Hi im a a 28 year old girl single mum ive a 2year old and love her to bits shes the reason im still alive shes what im living for i know that sounds bad but today i had a row with her dad because i was moody and he was only here to pick her up to bring her of for the day and asked if i wanted to go but i got moody and said no next thing we where having a row he said that i was poision and im vindictive and im a bad person i will end up on my

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hi im pete

  February 27th, 2010 by peteellis

im 22 from the uk,cornwall.im a drum and bass producer and i stumled upon this website late nite hoping for tips to commit suicide… anyone out there want to chat?

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