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Cameron’s Story

  June 27th, 2010 by Violet Blake

I’ve been living up in Waterford, Wisconsin with my father for awhile, and while I’ve been here, I’ve met some pretty incredible people who are changing my life every day.

The most important of these people has been a little girl by the name of Cameron.

I met Cameron in one of the most unique ways I’ve ever met another human being, especially considering this one is an eight year old girl: inside a bar.

My father was inside working his magic with the bartender, being all friendly like he always is, and he decided to drag me along that day, so instead of meet all his drunk …

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  June 27th, 2010 by xtofer

This is a great site because it shows that people aren’t alone in having these thoughts.
I just hope there will be less stigma about suicidality. Maybe some day it will be seen as a non-fault situation a person did not want to get into, like appendicitis. I don’t think anyone would choose to be in this situation. There should be no stigma, no insinuation that the person is talking about it to be manipulative, but instead just help.

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Like A Flower

  June 26th, 2010 by Violet Blake

I’ve been thinking a lot about irony lately, and Ive come up with the greatest example of it.

My name.

A Violet is a flower; a beautiful, dark, mesmerizing flower. In fact, it’s a lot like me.

I’ve noticed that a Violet and i have a lot in common, and not just because it’s my name, but because like a Violet flower, I am only in season every once in awhile. I am only actually happy once in a great while, just as the flower only blooms in the springtime when everything is gorgeous and the world seems perfect.

I wish I weren’t a flower, but I can’t help …

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:D gud byeeee !!!!

  June 26th, 2010 by rajeshs16

HEllo all,
When you have decided to leave this world, how beautifull every thing looks, how good every one around you seems, but its that i dont fit in here … I wish i did …

For some reason, the person who matters to me the most keep making me feel i am nothing to them, thats why I try to keep myself isolated, but an angel came into my life, turned my life upside down, life was like a music. First I did not want to trust her too, because I was scared, Scared that she would leave me too, but then I asked myself, If …

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Writing this has been more for myself than for anyone else…

  June 26th, 2010 by tx2vt

I’m 25 years old and often ask myself why I keep on going.   I am a social failure.  I have a horrible time keeping new friends or lovers, and the ones who actually do want to be friends/lovers with me bore me to no end.  This does not mean that I find myself disliking anyone who likes me automatically, but, coincidentally, virtually everyone who I like dislikes me and many of the people I dislike like me.

Even my old friends, or the people I used to think were my friends, seem to want nothing to do with me.   I only talk to my …

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This would make a great movie if only it were fictional…

  June 26th, 2010 by Violet Blake

How do you tell the person you love that you simply can’t stand them?

I’ve been in love with the same guy for over a year. Seems like a short time, but for me, it might as well be a lifetime.

It’s never been easy for me to love someone, in fact i’ve never been in love like this before, but i know it’s love because i hate him. I hate him every fiber of my being. WE were perfect, for lack of a better word. No, actually we werent perfect, or else I wouldnt be in this mess right? He was perfect. When I was a little girl …

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guess this is it…

  June 26th, 2010 by imsorrymom

well. here it is. im gunning (pun intended) for july 4. but it might be too close to the birthday of my friend/the girl i love. if not i will probably go for a later date in july. well. im sorry to all who tried to help me. in the end i knew i would fail you all. just like i always have. ill try to keep posting something up to my final moments. im sorry everyone.. but i have decided permently to commit suicide by firearm very soon. but now ill at least be finally happy…

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Heartbroken at midnight

  June 25th, 2010 by misguided ghost

He has no idea the control he has over me. There is nothing worse than being ignored by someone you love. I feel so inferior around him. All of my imperfections are layed out infront of me, taunting me-you’re not good enough.

Love is such an unhealthy addiction… it gives someone the power to break you.

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dreaming of getting off the bus

  June 25th, 2010 by egalitarian

its been a long life. before organ recitals. before becoming a burden to the kids. before another painful episode of trying to connect deeply with another only to have it go badly due to poor judgment and lack of insight. I’ve been married twice and had several times that of girlfriends, each time having given my all only to have it fail. what a cluster fuck.

I have been here before. several times actually. those whom i could tell i dare not as it would only cause them consternation.  life is hard for us all. unless you are a turtle withdrawn into your shell and/or desensitized …

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die

  June 25th, 2010 by hopetodie

im 47 years old and want to end my life been whanting to die for over 10 years im so on happy with my life i know this it what i want and need to do I have no choice, I have to die!!! all be so glad when my life is  over . hopeing to end it soon

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I’m tired of this shit

  June 25th, 2010 by Amulet09

I hate my fuckin’ life. I normally don’t ever cuss (actually I never do in real life), but the itnernet is a unique place for this sort of venting. First off, what triggered me to write this post is the fact that I’ve been really depressed lately so I’ve only been living off of caprisuns since last friday. Since then I’ve lost 8 pounds and am now 104-5ish. That’s not the problem. My mom ever since her dad went to live with my aunt with their new baby I’ve been picking up more chores around the house lately. Everyday, my mom keeps screaming at me …

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Had enough of everything- I just want out :(

  June 25th, 2010 by gilmoregirl

Okay- I may only be 17 so some would say that I am too young and have my whole life ahead of me, but right now it honestly doesn’t seem to be worth it. I’ve already half heartedly attempted to overdose twice but I’ve always made sure that the amount I take is relatively small so that deep down I know I probably won’t actually kill myself- I just go through the process.

My whole life I have aimed towards becoming a vet and recently, I’ve realised that this probably won’t happen because I’m not accademically strong enough- I’m close and its literally probably only by …

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:(

  June 25th, 2010 by matpilot

well im new to this site, but things keep getting harder and harder and i never seem to catch a break. ive been depressed for 2 years and have finally seeked help, im on 2 diffrent anti depressions that dont work. it has gone from abusement. to me mistreating pills and alcohol .then a girl who i loved just lead me on now i feel like killing myself i dont see a reason to live any more. theres no point i have no one and have nothing to live for …..anyway give me some feed back maybe itll help.

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Ratting I guess. What I thought

  June 25th, 2010 by Nikki

Death is staring me in every verse. My mind goes wild and I need to scream. My lungs cry out for air that isn’t there. Hang me up and watch me fall. Blood on all the fucking walls. My screams don’t come out. My body locks up and I don’t seem to even care. What can I do to make you stay? I want the truth. Tell me NOW. I want to cry. I want to die. Am I next? This is just a distant dream. What can this realy mean?
Eyes open wide, light comes in. The whole day starts again. Can you hear …

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irony

  June 24th, 2010 by imsorrymom

me and my grandfather will both be dead in a couple of months. He will die of cancer. I will die of Depression. I never talked to him alot but i went to a gathering to pay respects and at one point everyone left the area except me and him. We ended up in the same room at one point and i remember thinking, me and him are the only one staring death in the face and no one else can see it yet. But we didnt say a word to each other. We just acknoledged that we would be both in the same place soon. Now …

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ok

  June 24th, 2010 by a new laptop

ok, see you tonight!

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You can change it, you can change everything if you want.

  June 24th, 2010 by a new laptop

if you cound’t help me to change my life, you don’t have to make my life getting so bad, right?
I wanted to be alive, you want me to die.
Stop hurting me, Please. We still have time.

I made a call for my mom and my sister, they are all ok.
They hoped I could go back China this summer.
I planed go back China this surrmer.
Just a message can change everything, why you can’t do it? Why?!!!

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I am not afarid of death, so I’m not afraid of anything!

  June 24th, 2010 by a new laptop

I put the thing into the laptop bag and put it into the book bag.
The sky is so nice! Everything will be end! I love this day!

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all alone

  June 24th, 2010 by xavier955

i feel kinda alone…..*sigh* the one resone and the only resone i wish to stay alive is gone there is no propose for liveing for me now i dont know why i just dont go ahead and do it right now maybe im just scared of the pain but i go though more pain everyday i have no enjoyment from life my dad my brother and step dad and my brother in law all gone :'( ….. i dont know wat to do know

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Hopeless

  June 24th, 2010 by a new laptop

My friend said she didn’t get any message from you today.

So disappointed! Hopeless!

I will cook the last lunch for my kids, then I will get everything ready for tonight.

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