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a hollow ring

March 25th, 2007by sha

i feel like killing myself. it is ringing so hollow and so cold. it always return. it hurts so bad. but life is good. very good in fact. there is no need to weep. doting parents, friends, love. yet i cannot feel e love. my heart is fortified. impregnable. that it is so void. i do feel happy. but sadness never fails to return with a vengeance. so much so, i wished i would never feel happy. and fade into the monotony of life. what do you do when your heart is shattered so frequently. why do everyone seem to have a legitimate reason to …

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i think about buying a gun

March 11th, 2007by mieshia

i am so tired. i wake up tired and i live everyday tired. i just wish that i didn’t have to do this anymore. i look at my life and i see nothing, i see someone who doesn’t deserve to live anymore. i don’t belong anywhere. i have never had friends and any time i thought someone liked me for me it turned out that they were just using me or trying to manipulate me for their own benefit or amusement. i’ve never been good at anything and i am not smart. i have nothing to offer the world, i just take up space. i’ve …

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March 3rd, 2007by Unknown

I attempted suicide about six years ago. Unfortunately for me at the time, it apparently doesn’t matter if you take Ibuprofen by the dozens, you will feel nothing but sick the next day. Sick, but breathing. I was suprised I woke up the next day – sleep felt like slipping away from life, there were no dreams. There was a feeling, for a time, that I was dead and conscious of it. In time, I grew to resent what I had nearly done to my family. I’m depressive by nature, and the fact that, physically speaking, I’m as ugly as one can imagine, didn’t help …

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Have I left enough undone?

March 2nd, 2007by eonspike

I made it for a few years this time with out getting depressed and suicidal. Had a number of anxiety attacks do to stress. I guess it was inevitable this time, I have been trying to overcome spinal surgery almost a year ago and still off work with a lot of drugs and still the same pain as when it all began. I can’t walk very well and have just lost hope that it will ever get any better. I am creating problems for my wife that she does not deserve. But I just can’t help it, it’s like waves coming over my head I …

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should i?

February 22nd, 2007by IM WORTHLESS

part of me is telling me yes the other halve is telling me no, im 15 and will never grow past 5 feet my familly hates me. everyone spits on me in school, i feel like a worthless piece of shit , im just another brick in the wall of society. i have no friends and all the councles i have are trying to prolong my suicide. im could in a situating with a knive to my rist. some one please help me. i just wanna be normal and fit in. if im not logged on by tomorrow night then things have …

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Failure

February 19th, 2007by looser

I’m feeling suicidal again, lets see if i last the month. I managed to pull myself through my last session of suicidal thoughts and depression. From mid September to mid November 2006 i became paranoid and suicidal, i honestly don’t know how i managed to pull myself through and get into 2007. But its happening again, i don’t know if i will survive it this time. I’m less hopeful this time.

Its coming on slowly as it did last time, building up, this time i cant see a way out of the hole I’ve gotten into. Can i make it trough to March, how …

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i need to know…BAD

February 15th, 2007by scaredforher

My friend cut her self 4 times in like 2 days she says she wont do it again…do u know any websites for advice to help her or do YOU hae any advice for me.

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Employment

February 14th, 2007by rdavis8866

Men know what its like. Losing your job can be devistating. Two years ago August, I lost my job. Having two children and a wife to support, it is very difficult to face life everyday. Each day, I begin with looking through the want ads…then callling to see if I can schedule some informational interviews. Almost two years of this and nothing. I decided that I needed to return to school to complete my degree, but now I sit in a classroom full children who are young enough to be my children. I wonder if my family would be better off without me. Atleast they …

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Uncertain How to Proceed

February 14th, 2007by Dancingapricot

I feel like an anomaly. I’m 27 years old and have never so much as kissed a woman, much less had a relationship with one. When other people talk about the relationships they’ve been in or the difficulties they are having with romance, I find it hard to feel any sort of sympathy. I am entirely unable to empathize with them. I believe that people who get to be my age like this begin to become bitter and develop anger towards the opposite sex. I find myself having these reactions but try to suppress them. I want …

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sorrow

February 8th, 2007by killerjoy

Fuck….I dont know what to do anymore I hate myself every second of my life…I feel so ugly I feel so angry at times because I get so sad at night when im alone..I always try to invite someone over…I dont want to be alone. I hate being alone I hate it so much I wish I had someone to talk to my therapsit who I used to see hasnt made any contact with my since last in november…I feel so weak now. I tired to stop cutting but I cant help it I feel so pointless. I just wish I had someone to talk …

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hapiness is an illusion

February 7th, 2007by lost

i had cut myself, she made me promise to stop. i wanted to kill myself, i couldent leave her. she was always there for me for evreything, even when i wasent there for myself. i care about her. i know somethings wrong, she cuts herself in school… ALOT i dont know what to do, shes in so much pain, i want to help, i dont want her to be alone. i try so hard, but i dont think she trusts anyone, she yells “FUCK OFF WHAT PART OF LEAVE ME ALONE DONT YOU UNDERSTAND” she ignores me …

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Help is never there

December 19th, 2006by liz

Why is it that when I actually reach out for help, it is never there? Why is it when I don’t want help or interference, it always appears? Why do others minimize my problems or say there’s nothing wrong with me? All I want is to quietly exist. But I cannot exist as I am now.
I feel anger so much these days. I don’t know what to do about it. I cannot release it and I cannot live with it. I went to a psychiatrist who said there was nothing wrong with me. I saw a …

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Why

November 29th, 2006by bb

Why do people see suicide as a “tragic loss?” This question has constantly plagued me when I have succumbed to the desire to live. Some of us do. Perhaps we don’t see the world as others do. Perhaps we just understand that living is wonderful but death is not scary. Is it better to live with disease hoping for a cure that may never come without experiencing severe side effects? And even if one feels the woes of these effects the disease returns to ravage us. The disease may be cancer or even something hidden…what most call “depression” may often be a different reality.
What …

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This is a poem or something i just wrote

November 7th, 2006by onliMe420

-In the dark sound of my room. Drowning in loneliness and silences. Myself has become numb to the tears drawn down to my face. My daily smile has fade away with pain and anger never seen before. loud sounds haunt me day and mostly night. making me fear life. pushing me to the edge of death. wanting to jump of a building to stop thought of ending what god gave me : life. Life which has become horrible for me making my everday a menu of torture and pain. Silence in my head when not knowing what to do. emptiness in …

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upside down

October 27th, 2006by Amy

What do you do when nothing makes sense and those who say they love you only hurt you? What do you do when they hurt you again and again until you are left an empty shell?

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October 17th, 2006by Rachel

I live everyday felling sorry for myself, well i know that people must have it worse off but i just need this nightmare to be over, it’s like a vulture feeding off my flesh and any left happiness is being sucked out of me like a wirlpool of terror. The feeling gets stronger each day, and theres no-one i can talk to about it.
Thinking back to when i was younger, well it’s not hard, it only started a few years ago, it was so easy. But trying to imagine back to when my body was full of live, when i could walk around the …

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October 17th, 2006by Rachel

Somtimes it’s just gets to hard, the mistakes i’ve made that wern’t my fault, then why do i feel so bad about them. I’m stil in high school so i still have to deal with getting threatened and bitched at of a week day, a group of kids in my year who really don’t care who they hurt. Out side school is just as bad, rumors spread about me, that are so obviously untrue that people believe them anyway. When i see anything sharp i get unfightable urges to cut myself, i never thought i would beable to ever hurt myself, unless it was from …

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October 10th, 2006by prettyscrewups

i want him back so bad i cry every night cut my wrist begged him to come back and i get hung up and dont call me back i dont want anything to do with you.. i love him so much and he has no idea … yea i made mistakes and fucked up i should no im the one paying for it i want him back i cant call i cant message him or email cuz he never checks it i just dunno wut to do and i dont wanna give up i stopped calling him cuz everyone told me by doing that …

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Sad again

October 3rd, 2006by eveamc

I feel terrible once again. It always happens at night, when there’s nothing to do and nothing to distract me. I feel okay with people but I don’t know, I can’t be social sometimes. I should have tried harder to kill myself before everyone knew. I should have taken more pills. Then things would be better now. Either I would be on medication or I would have gotten a better therapist because people would have known I was serious about wanting to die. Now if I try to kill myself it will be even more shameful because everyone …

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The last straw

September 10th, 2006by maskedemotion6

ITs just nice to be able to wine to someone. Everyone that is my friend is my friend because im a good listener, but what about me. No one gives a shit about what i have to say. I have been putting up with guys fucking me just cuz their girlfriends dont put out, and then being friends with the girlfriends like nothing happened. I put up with guys that are my boyfriends cheating on me. I deal with people thinking i say things, when really i keep to myself and dont like to talk trash. I go to church 2 times a week for …

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