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If I already know how I want to go, and if I’ve already spent years trying to get through a depression with no end in sight, why should I continue to suffer ? Why not just end it all ?
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in one case youve got soaring across the sky over many lands. and in the other youve got dead. flying with the birds over a blue lake, living in a casket. waking up and taking flight or waking up in a next life? soaring above the mountains, ashes being spread in the ocean. which is better? what do you think?
Greetings to all, I just have a few questions to ask .
What do you do when  no matter what happens, your life just feels totally empty ?
Who can I talk to and disclose my innermost suicidal thoughts to if I don’t feel comfortable telling anyone in my life ?
How can I tell my loved ones the truth when all they do is get upset at my depression ? I can’t help but feel like my existence is such a burden to all who are close to me … like I am a plague that must be avoided and destroyed . If anyone can offer any […]
it was new to me hurting myself making myself bleed but it was interesting to will to commit. cut by cut the blood tastes irony like metal. but its the cut the way it looks being made. watching the skin split the blood form. how deep how wide. then burning it started in high school i went to an adult high and college campus so id let people at school burn me and i would show them i do it. but it really started with piercing really my knuckles. for a week every day i would pierce and re pierce my knuckles ears , hands,arms. […]
it hasn’t been the easiest. i’ve been to the psychiatric mental hospital twice. i now live with my aunt & uncle, 500 miles away from “home” my parent’s hate who i am, but they created me, they made me this way. they think it’s stupid, the fact i tried to end my life? they inflicted all the pain on me, everything they’ve done, has a cause and effect, later down the road. they label me as some horrible child. they restrict me from everything still. i can’t talk to my lovely sister they see as evil, nor her beautiful daughter. i can’t talk to my ill nanna […]
Is life supposed to b this hard? felt so down, just needed to talk to someone, the next best thing is google! thats how i found this site! and i cried! so much so many people in pain!! it helps to read other peoples posts!
If it wasn’t for my two beautiful girls then i dont think i would be here! they r……the only ones that r keeping me going, i struggle every day!  Tonight coming on this site helped!! people do tell me think of ur family they luv u! what would it do to them! if u were’nt around anymore! They dont understand! i […]
I’d like to die soon, thing are just not going the way i plan , this life is way to hard for me, even though i battled through an eating disorder, people think I’m strong, but I’m not it eating me alive,  it made me weaker.I just think all new ways to die, everyday and seem which ones the least painless, I’m done with this pain, i wanna go peacefully. but  i don;t even wanna talk anymore, im fading,not there, i feel numb, i get cuts now and i don’t feel it, i feel irresistible to pain and  feel nothing. The only pain i feel […]
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i am still not sure if people care im new here and was wondering how i could survive life not knowing what i’m supposed to do. is iot normal for some people to be strong and others crumble when they get hurt. i need some answers and i need it know i am constantly wondering about life and why i have the one i have. anybody??? no of course but still i need help. i want to know if its worth it to live past 14 years…………………….
Should I die? Or live? I think ill be way better off when Im dead…SErioulsy…I dont deserve to live because I just do shit and other fuckin shit…Im just a worthless piece of shit…and I dont want to live anymore For ReAL….
Well i HATE my life!! So many reasons! 1st Nobody likes me at school…and i get TREATED like CRAP! i Have like no friends and people just talk shit to me and my face!! Im so tired of it! Then at home its another thing i argue with my parents alot and with everyone… theres noone i can talk to about my problems because it just doesn work out! I HATE MY LIFE!! i already tried to commit suicide soo many times and i’ve cut my selft a lot and i just got my arms coverd with cuts. and No one know I do this […]
Im pulled this way and that way.
Im pulled up and down.
My emotions are pulled daily.
My thoughts are every day.
Wishing I would be able to relax.
Wishing I would have some peace.
People thought me and my gf wouldnt last, people alwayz hated on our relationship that we have because we are so happy together ya we do have our ups and downs but all relationshipz are guna have that no matter what.People thought she was guna break up with me and she has but she wasnt serious serious because it was just an argument we have and my family hates her because of me 🙁 and wat Im afraid is 1 day she guna end it forreal this time and idk what im do but maybe itll be best if i go away..I never thought […]
I have everything in life a year ago, I have looks, charm, decent in studies, good family and have friends. I really can’t relate to most people here talking about committing suicide.
But I’ve been depressed lately. I’m 19 and i felt I’ve nowhere to go. My results sucks now, I can’t get into University, I have greying hair as well, which means my looks are gone by the end of this year, and I have no motivation to live on anymore.
Today, I made a commitment to myself that I’ll at least make the most of what I have until I commit suicide. I plan to […]
im dead
It feels like everything has reduced to crumbs, literally everything. The color has just drained itself out of the world and I can’t come back to the surface. I thought about ending it all last night. I wanted to so bad. My boyfriend doesn’t understand. I need him and he doesn’t care. My uncle has recently been diagnosed with acute myeloid leukemia. Today he is leaving us. There is nothing more they can do for him. The tube he breaths through they are going to take out this morning because he doesn’t want to suffer anymore. I would give anything to be in his place. […]
So I was looking around my house but couldn’t really find a good/ sturdy place to well…. “hang” out for a while, (lol)
But I think I’ve found it! The garage!
We don’t park our car in it so it’s essentially empty, what do you think? how will my body be discovered?
ihave nothin 2 say but jzt endin it now icant take this pain anymore..so iguss this is bye she iz seriouz she hav givin me 2many chancez n ijzt fuk it up..icant force some1 to be with me 4evr
Although it is over doesnt it seem great. Tummy ache for three days straight. A Split headache and ignoring everyone cause for the past two depress i felt like shet and more depress than every. Fml. Fuck my health. And Fuck about living. Im done….
there’s giggle within, but i ignore then cause i know deep inside the pain is much stronger and if i feed into my happiness it will make the fall so much harder when i crash.