General

Out mine window…
i see the moon.
As i think…
the moon is the mother
and the stars are her children.
Every fallen star i see…
it makes me cry.
Seeing a child…
fall away from their family.
Seeing how we humans
always make a wish upon it.
I see the moon…
fade upon the sky.
I see how strong it is
even when her children fall.
When they are not there
she shines bright.
As i look upon her…
it makes me smile
to see that she is not alone.
That one day…
i could be one of her children.
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Here you go […]

And All That Could Have Been-Nine Inch Nails

Alone I Break-KoRn

Snuff-Slipknot

Something I Can Never Have-Nine Inch Nails

Successful-Drake Ft. Trey Songz

Empty-Simply D4rk (Pronounced Simply Dark. It’s a british band, so kind different from the American way.)

My Love-Sia (Another British artist)

Breathe Me-Sia

Running Up That Hill-Placebo

I’m Lost Without You-Blink 182

Starin Down The Barrel Of A 45-Shinedown

Hurt-Nine Inch Nails

Fragile-Kerli

Hope you like these songs, I love them all.

“***** I’m gonna pick the world up and I’ma drop it on yo fuckin head!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

Best lyric in music, besides, “Back off, I’ll take you on!!!! Headstrong to take on anyone!!!!!”

Who can tell me the names and artists of these amazing songs??

I feel like playing some music trivia to try and brighten things up. Please Play with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As i walk out the door
its dark and cold.
I just sit in the road
and gaze upon mine surroundings.
I hear the music play
as i look up the sky.
The fireflies fluttering
their small wings.
As their lights glow
brighting up the night.
I seem to be at ease and peace
as the night creatures
make their nosies
to the music.
As i hear a car…
driving fast over the speed limit…
the last thing i see
is the first bright star
hanging in the sky.
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It seems tonight was the night
that i had deicide
to make a random poem…

Here in the bathroom with me are razor blades. Here is iodine to drink. Here are sleeping pills to swallow. You have a choice. Live or die. Every breath is a choice. Every minute is a choice. To be or not to be. Every time you don’t throw yourself down the stairs, that’s a choice. Every time you don’t crash your car, you reenlist.”- Chuck Palahniuk

First some background: I am 22, come from a poor country, born into a large, realtively wealthy family (compared to the surroundings). In that sense, i am actually a very lucky person, having both financial and family support available to me. Never had close friends, or many friends at that (they were considered my friends mostly by others, as I never felt a strong connection to anyone, especially family) .

I always showed a “normal” face to everyone (again, including family), trying to approximate what they would expect my responses would be to any situation, so as to avoid letting anyone know what I think at any […]

Am I becoming a failure to myself and everyone around me, do I disappoint my every friend and my family. I can’t even be a good boyfriend to any girl. Every thing is the same routine every day every year every time. I can’t express enough how much I want out of Virginia, or at least my hometown. I hate it here, my school is filled with judgmental assholes. I’m useless, so useless, all I want right now is to watch my blood drip an drip and drip and drip. Watch it all drain out forever and save me from this life of nothing.

Thank you for making this decision for me.
I’ll be dead by friday.
bye.

“Staring at the sea, will she come? Is there hope for me, after all is said and done? Anything at any price, all of this for you. All the spoils of a wasted life, all of this for you.”

“I’ll take my place, In The Great Below.”

“Ocean pulls me close, and whispers in my ear, The destiny I’ve chose is all becoming clear.”

-Trent Reznor

FUCK MY LIFE

“Don’t ever let life pass you by.”

Nice lyrics from Incubus. I’m not the type that always says shit like, “Stay strong, things will get better”, or completely stupid shit like, “Trust in God, he helps everything.”

All That is bullshit. Do whatever the fuck makes you happy/comfortable, whatever. That’s what I TRY to do, but my mother gets in the way of that alot. I don’t have a real good depressing story to tell you, I’ve already told my life story many times on this website. I’ve had at least 4 different accounts under 4 different names. I’ve told everything about myself on here. EVERYTHING. It […]

I have two places where I can go to escape my pain, or face it when I’ve become too naive. Wasteland is reality. Dreamland is my own little world that I made up. I’m in Wasteland right now, and it isn’t fun and it isn’t fulfilling in any way like I thought it would be. I used to be able to go to Dreamland whenever I wanted, but for some reason I can’t now. I want my mind to block out most of the hurt like it used to, but the pain’s coming on full force. I don’t want to live in Wasteland. I don’t […]

Thanks Jonathan Davis, for letting me know that I’m not alone, and that I wont suffer alone. Thanks Trent Reznor, for giving my pain a name and taking it away very slowly. Thanks Drake, for explaining why I feel this way. Thanks Lil Wayne for giving me the courage to rebel against those that hurt me. Thanks Trey Songz, for telling me exactly what I want and how to get it.

“Please, take this, and run far away, far away, from me. I am tainted, and happiness and peace of mind were never meant for me.”

-Trent Reznor

“Now I see the times they’ve changed, leaving doesn’t seem […]

I am proof that no God of any kind exists. I’m not knocking anyone’s religion, so don’t get all protective over your religion on me. Just hear me out. A God loves his creations and would do anything to help them if they need it. I haven’t got any kind of help, from mortal or immortal beings. I’ve loved and cared for tons of people, gave them advice, and sometimes gave them a place to stay when their Mother was abusive or their Father was going ape shit. I help them with their pain, but what do I get? Absolutely fucking nothing. They just want […]

baby don’t lie to me

i can see it in your eyes

the way you wont look at me

theres something youre trying to hide

is there truth in what she said (she said)

were you sleeping in his bed?

so baby don’t lie to me

so obviously!

and baby dont cry on me

i dont wanna see

just look me in the eyes

tell me, have you thrown away our years?

i’m feeling tonight, like i never knew you

(at all)

like i’ve lost my best friend

so what were you thinking (what were you thinking)

so what were you thinking (what were you thinking)

You hurt me bad.
I don’t know if I can look at you ever again.
Burned your hoodies.
Burned your photos.

Burned you out of my life.
I hope you break your fucking neck.
& I mean it.
You’ve actually destroyed me.
14 months and a virginity wasted.
Thank you very fucking much.
love you too…

I have enough words to say
im sorry.
I have enough
to say im ready.
There i have nothing
there….
i seem to be losing everything.
I deserve punishment…
burn mine hands
and stab mine chest repeatly.
Im just saying…
im so alone.
Empty…
if thats enough.
Let mine mind
be taking over.
As for now…
let mine soon to be dead body
be decay underground.

Every moment of every day I want to end my life.  I want to just stop.

Every moment of every day I feel everything.  I feel of no importance.

Every moment of every day I think about who I am–or rather what I am not.  I think of who I want to be.

Every moment of every day I am alone.  I am no one.

I can no longer function without thinking about the end.

The end is promising.

The end is easy.
I can no longer look at myself in the mirror.

I can no longer socialize.

I can no longer live the life I dreamed of living.

I can no longer be

because […]

I just feel like Ive tried so hard for 1 year to land a good job and been so close (literally within inches) of landing that job only to lose the job at the last minute.  Its discouraging and makes me want to suicide.

22years old, worked my ass of in school, worked my ass of at 4 different jobs (Ive worked at some good companies already and have good experience)  in the past 2 or 3 years to gain experience. I have good experience. Im goodlooking, have many friends.  Its not about that.  Being unable to land work is just killing my life.

Been to […]

the woman i was with for 5 years and my first love left me for drugs. i was forced back to living with my mother and her crazy boyfriend that mentally tortured me know that he could kick me out anytime i said anything. finally we fought and i was kicked out to be homeless for 4 months. i sucked up my pride and came to live with my ex at her house. she pretty much just tells me how much better her new boyfriend is and i was exiled to one room of the house. one good thing is i work 20 hours a week […]