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I Will Survive

I did this, you can too.

my story on why i wish to end it

by munckin 1/6/2015

written by munckin

The current situation is a sick love story. The girl who I think is the one, thinks the same of me… Yet; she cheats on me and gives as reason that she is insecure due to that I got a message on my phone in the early stage of our relationship. She is also jealous the moment someone looks at me in a club; me noticing that someone is looking at me is enough to shatter her self-esteem.

Then after several months of dating she tells me she need to meet her ex to be sure of her feelings and that this relationship is truly the […]

1/6/2015 12 comments

Poison

by thatgirl80 1/5/2015

written by thatgirl80

I think I’m poison. I made it through the holidays through sheer will and maybe some kind of grace. But now…it’s a new year and so, yeah…what now, right? I’m just breathing and I even forget to do that sometimes. It’s like I’m waiting on something. Holding my breath. Expectant. And I guess that is kind of hope, right? So there is that. And there is my kid. Who is…well, everything. But then there is all of the other stuff which is big and small and there’s me who messes up and I have honestly begun to think maybe I am poison.

All my life I […]

1/5/2015 2 comments

Protecting ourselves, especially when we’re in pain

by Pretend Girl 1/4/2015

written by Pretend Girl

I am feeling low. I called my crisis line THREE times before I got it out what was really bothering me. I finally admitted how I don’t want to be, that I was looking for the pills I knew would work. :((( but I could not find them. I stopped looking, good or bad…

The thing is, isn’t it crazy to be mad at the world and people around you but then, you take it out on yourself?? I mean, really, the reaction of wanting to hurt yourself because the world seems off kilter, that is crazy!

And yet, here I am, once again… 🙁 (Still, something […]

1/4/2015 4 comments

Annoying Cheeseball

by FeelingFunny 1/1/2015

written by FeelingFunny

Hey I know it’s totally cheesy but you all have the strength to overcome your adversity. I believe God never gives us more than we can handle. But, even if you don’t believe in any god or any religion, I still believe that as humans we have the inner strength to persevere. I have gone through suicide attempts, bouts of mental instability, self injury, addiction, an abusive father, and I recently realized I was technically molested by my sister from the age of 4-10, I had just never thought of it like that cause she was only three years older than me and I forgot […]

1/1/2015 26 comments

Goodbye, Goodbye

by moonlitrose34 1/1/2015

written by moonlitrose34

This isn’t anything special. It’s just a poem I wrote at 5 am. Even though it’s not that great, it describes my inner turmoil.

I want to talk about this pain,
That I’ve felt was always in vain,

Do you really not see,
What’s become of me?

On silent nights,
I always fight,

As tears run down my eyes,
Each teardrop breaking my ties,

My ties with this world,
As I am hurled,

Into this insanity,
Which will never set me free.

My teardrops slowly become red,
Food for the blade that I’ve fed.

They tell me that all will be well,
While I slowly rot away in this hell,

Could they not tell […]

1/1/2015 2 comments

Life is empty & meaningless, without any/no purpose, Life is boring, empty! There is no meaning of life! fuck life, fuck reality !

by niki 12/28/2014

written by niki

Life is empty & meaningless, without any/no purpose, Life is boring, empty! There is no meaning of life! fuck life, fuck reality !

The more I grow up & learn after all these 32 years of my life, sadly, the more I feel hopeless especially for humanity / our humans species!
MAJORITY of people / humans beings / humanity are so damn shallow, superficial, vain, ignorant, stupid, fake, dirty, liars, etc etc.
I used to have so much HOPE for humanity , but now the hope is dwindling until it’s almost none !!
MOST people are sadly only concerned with vain, shallow, mundane “daily-life” & little […]

12/28/2014 19 comments

Jaded: My struggle with suicide

by jcanida56 12/23/2014

written by jcanida56

My name is Joseph…..I’m a cutter, and I’m sick of being alive. I have nothing and nobody, and I’m worthless. I refuse to act on suicide anymore though because I’m sick of being locked up in those inpatient prisons for the mentally ill. Getting no help. On August 26th, I drove out in front of a semi going 70 in my 2012 Ford Focus. I was ready to end it. I was sick of the pain. It tore up my car, but somehow I walked away from it. Then my mom decided to kick me out so she could have her piece of crap, sleezebag […]

12/23/2014 17 comments

Warning ! Psychiatric meds can suck

by Patrick Anarchy 12/21/2014

written by Patrick Anarchy

Some of you might disagree or not believe this story but its the TRUTH.

A lot of doctors and psychiatrists are NOT even aware themselves just how terrible psychiatric meds are because they are misinformed or lied to from the drug companies which FUND Psychiatry itself. Psychotropics made me very helpless against my depression and some could have permanently disfigured me. They lowered my inhibitions and I did things which I permanently regret now. I was prescribed 16 different psych meds at different times in the last 6 years.

You should all consider reading MEDICATION MADNESS by Dr. Peter Breggin. a Psychiatrist who is FIRMLY against psychiatric medications. The book changed my life , […]

12/21/2014 9 comments

Suicide is for selfish cowards

by FailureGirl 12/21/2014

written by FailureGirl

I have no more tolerance for the suicidal. Suicide is for cowards. It is for those who don’t want to take the hard path of confronting their fears. It is the combination of selfish interests and narcissistic self pity. It is the belief that you cannot possibly make the world a better place without feeling good. It is the dirty secret festered in incognito tabs on our devices and in private looming thoughts and plans. It is lazy and presumptuous- it expects love and attention without making the effort to dish it out to others in need. It is a liar that goads you affectionately […]

12/21/2014 32 comments

New website

by wingbearer 12/19/2014

written by wingbearer

www.thesuicidewatch.org. check it out.

12/19/2014 3 comments

Life is not fair / unfair. there is always winners & losers. I’m a loser, so why can’t I / losers just commit suicide?

by niki 12/17/2014

written by niki

Life is not fair.
Life is unfair.

there is always winners & losers.
there will always be winner & loser.
so why can’t I / losers just commit suicide?
rather than they keep living chasing & fixing all their way too many losses, which is probably too late anyway too.
and usually losers can’t win / can never win against winners anyway .. even the “start” is already too late!!

This is the harsh truth / fact / reality .

Reality / Real life / Real world is very LIMITING / LIMITED in what we can & can’t do !
We are limited by money […]

12/17/2014 1 comment

A new way

by Akiira 12/15/2014

written by Akiira

I don’t know if this will work, i just know that i’m done with everything, I feel so tired and anger, I know it’s my fault, I just don’t know how to start feeling good again… I’m sick of myself… This is new, share something that is to hard to say, I don’t know if I can keep doing this anymore.

12/15/2014 1 comment

My “stash”

by username12345 12/14/2014

written by username12345

Just a description of my collection…I’m not set on using it but it’s nice to know I have it just in case. I’ve heard so many stories of failed attempts leading to permanent damage and huge medical bills so I’ve never attempted suicide this method. Based on what I have, what are your thoughts?

Don’t have the bottles with me now, so I don’t know the dosages for most of them

Restoril: 20 pills- 15mg each
Effexor: 180 pills, 75mg each
Wellbutrin: 60 pills
Remeron: 60 pills
Hydrocodone: 30 pills
Adderrall: 30 pills
Adderral XR: 30 pills

12/14/2014 7 comments

Imagination better than reality? Why Imagination is better than reality? Why is Imagination better than reality?

by niki 12/12/2014

written by niki

Why Imagination is better than reality?
Why is Imagination better than reality?
Why is fantasy better than reality? Why fantasy is better than reality?

What puzzles me the most is human’s mind / human’s brains and imagination better than reality / human’s fantasy is better than reality.

for example:
just look at the movies, novels, comics, games, books, , animations (anime / manga), science fiction (sci-fi), fantasy , like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Swords Art Online, Interstellar, etc etc, they are much more interesting, full of POSSIBILITIES & varieties / variations, and better than reality / BORING reality […]

12/12/2014 13 comments

TO BE

by mushroom 12/8/2014

written by mushroom

Hi, I live in Asia and currently a 23 years old male

I feel that my entire life is in constant loops of suffering. I do not have a normal family, and I am an illegitimate child. Yet, i always do not let my identity define myself. Apart fron that, i was always bullied in school, with people constantly calling me names. Because of that, I had a very low self esteem and always tried to avoid people. I did not participate in any activities, and always went home straight if there was no make up classes. I had a really bad 5 years in my […]

12/8/2014 4 comments

Wreckage on bed sheets.

by Deathy058 12/7/2014

written by Deathy058

NOTE: This is my personal story. Thoughts about antidepressants were from a slanted point of view of life at the time, and actually I’ve gained a little knowledge in how they actually help people. Trigger warning: this details pretty explicitly my first foray into self injury, as well as fragmented memories as they came about during this time of my life. I don’t appreciate glorifying suicide, and I intend to keep writing my experience on here as a hopeful path to something better than the urge to end it all. It’s disjointed, but it gets my point across how I want it to be.

In Vitro–2007

Ice […]

12/7/2014 0 comment

Lost

by afakasiangel 12/7/2014

written by afakasiangel

This is my first time posting here and I’m not really sure whether I’m on the right track regarding what this site is about…

For the past 3 years I have had reoccurring suicidal thoughts and a couple of failed attempts. The idea of being free from this life is so inviting! In a way, I’m ashamed and I know that I don’t want to hurt my family. I’m trying to remove these thoughts from my head but the battle is tough. The only thing stopping me is knowing that I don’t want my younger siblings to ever suffer as I am.

My self esteem is pitiful. […]

12/7/2014 7 comments

Am I An Alien, Wrongly Put Into This Whirlpool Of A Planet? Do I Have Any Other Alien Friends Here?

by jeppie 12/6/2014

written by jeppie

I am a friendly person. I try to be honest, helpful, caring, loving and all goodies to others. But what do I get back in return? Some selfish, cunning little people who in the end can just hurt because of their own happiness! I have tried to talk to so many people around me, but all seem so different. They just want to prove to the world with money and power. I feel different. Am I wrong? I tried to be like them but I cant help being myself when I try to follow the trend. I cant run so fast in life. I want […]

12/6/2014 13 comments

Just my thinkin

by daonenonly 12/3/2014

written by daonenonly

Should I live or die tonight? Whats the point in living? What’s the point in stayin alive when u know nothin good is going to happen. What’s the point in stayin here in this world. I’m just sick and tired of having to live like this..but I’ll believe that one day something will change my
life. I’ll wait until I can’t wait no more.

12/3/2014 2 comments

Not suggesting anyone self medicate, but

by lost 12/3/2014

written by lost

…if you’re self-medicating already, don’t miss this great homemade version of Bailey’s Irish Cream (found here):

drink your medicine!

12/3/2014 4 comments

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