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I Will Survive

I did this, you can too.

This is what it’s like

by sazzabrah 9/2/2013

written by sazzabrah

So you want to know what it’s like? What it really feels like, without the sugar coating.

Well it’s simple it’s painful.

When you find out you sit there for at least ten minutes, your mouth wide open like a goldfish. Oh but your not breathing, your in shock. You can’t believe it, you just sit and stare, unable to move or do anything. Then it starts to sink in and your breathing again but too fast you start to feel dizzy, then you start shaking. Then the tears come and they come fast, you can’t control them they pour and pour out of your […]

9/2/2013 7 comments

maybe

by KaleidoscopeEyes 9/1/2013

written by KaleidoscopeEyes

They say depression is like you’re drowning, and you can see everyone else breathing.

Well i’m tired of drowning. I just wish I knew how to breathe.

9/1/2013 0 comment

Real or Not real?

by KaleidoscopeEyes 9/1/2013

written by KaleidoscopeEyes

Sometimes I wonder, whether my ”Friends” actually like me, or if i’m there to fill a space. Lately i’ve stopped going to church. Why? not because i’m no longer a Christian, not because I can’t go. I even want to go sometimes, I just know i shouldn’t. If i attended what is supposed to be a worshipping of my religion, I would find myself, entangled with a bunch of fake girls who just like to sit around and talk about people the entire time, then when it comes to the actual service they act like the best things to ever walk the earth. They noticed […]

9/1/2013 1 comment

It was okay.

by sazzabrah 9/1/2013

written by sazzabrah

Today we had our first acting class since Sam died. It was okay. There was a lot of crying and discussion. We were all there for eachother it w great. Then at the end of the day we stood in a group huddle and we talked about how we and done Sam proud, how he would have wanted us to enjoy the day like we did. We feel closer now. Much closer and I love it. I think this sort of support is important and I never want ot lose it, the students in that class are the best friends ill ever have, we are […]

9/1/2013 0 comment

flashbacks

by tauntedbyfalsehope 9/1/2013

written by tauntedbyfalsehope

So in seventh grade, a good friend of mine was very very close to ending her own life. At the time, I was extremely close to her and that morning she texted me saying her goodbyes and for helping her through everything. This was all on the bus to school, and at that point I was panicking because I wouldn’t be able to see her as we went to different schools. In my rush, I came to the conclusion that I needed to find help so I found another friend of mine who is also her cousin. We went and talked to the school counselor, […]

9/1/2013 1 comment

Lonely

by hellblau 8/31/2013

written by hellblau

I feel numb.
I feel so sad.
I need time, and I need life.
I hate being alone, but I’m always on my own.
Loneliness has become part of me, it’s always near,
I’m afraid of it, but I let myself embrace in it,
I want this to go, It really fucks me up.

8/31/2013 3 comments

Late At Night

by Blake SinBad 8/31/2013

written by Blake SinBad

I just spent the night at my guy friends house along with a couple of other so-so friends. It took me all night to realize that he was just as dark and alone as I was. He has been depressed for almost as long as I have. That’s a really long time. He carries the weight of everything on his shoulders. He’s constantly pressured and yelled at by everyone. That explains why he always looked so pissed in the hallways whenever I saw him. I can’t wait to see him on Tuesday (no school Monday) and see more of his point of view. I finally […]

8/31/2013 0 comment

It’s All Rubbish

by sleeplessinSTL 8/30/2013

written by sleeplessinSTL

Tonight, I just sat on my porch, drinking. I’m not hammered or drunk. I drank a beer or two. I stayed out there for an hour with my friend, and we just talked. We discussed my moving situation. I’m in my home town right now, visiting and figuring out whether I want to stay in St. Louis or move back here. She helped me decide that I’d stay in St. Louis until winter holiday, and then I’ll move back out here. I’m glad I finally made my decision.

She left at about nine, and I sat out by myself for another few hours. I just thought […]

8/30/2013 1 comment

I do love you

by sazzabrah 8/30/2013

written by sazzabrah

I don’t know what to do.
You say I love you
I say it too

Then you want it to be over
And for us to be ‘friends’
Please don’t hide behind that cover

I let you in
I told you things
Now I feel I’ve been chucked in the bin

You told me what’s wrong
You opened up
Was it a lie all along?

I love you more than words can describe
But I don’t want to be a part of your lie

8/30/2013 0 comment

A Book Talk Dedicated To My Brother, Who Took His Life.

by 40daysoff 8/30/2013

written by 40daysoff

I hope that this will help to open minds, save lives and will help other families from the struggles that we have had to endure. Â Thank you for watching.

Link To Website With Book Talk Click Here

8/30/2013 0 comment

I’m not going to text you first

by sazzabrah 8/30/2013

written by sazzabrah

I’m not going to text you first. It’s your turn to put in the effort. You say you love me but what does that actually mean to you. I don’t want to be hurt so for now I’m holding you at arms length, of for protection. If you really do love me as you say you will make it know. And it’s not as simple as saying I’m pretty or that I’m amazing, you really need to show me, you need to prove that your not like everyone else, you need to prove that if I do let you in you won’t do damage. I […]

8/30/2013 4 comments

Where we go after death?

by ManowarKill 8/29/2013

written by ManowarKill

8/29/2013 55 comments

hope for hope

by okdarrell 8/29/2013

written by okdarrell

every day i hope it will get better. i am an IV heroin user struggling with an addiction much stronger than i thought. i am in tons of trouble with the law. i just violated my probation. i hope that my next shot will be the last. or i hope that i can be strong enough to be the man i have to be and face the time i have over my head and stop running from my problems every day.

i lost the love of my life in march and ever since then my life has been all down hill. i’m a broken man, and […]

8/29/2013 0 comment

I’m getting bad again

by sazzabrah 8/29/2013

written by sazzabrah

It all started on the 25/08/13,

I had just gotten home from drama eisteddfods, which I had been placing in really well and winning majority, my weekend was going great, I also for once had a boy that was interested in me! I know can you believe it me!. When I got home I started talking to that boy and he was having a hard time with his depression and I was helping him. And then it happened. I logged onto Facebook and I see a post in a secret group that I’m in, (my acting class) and it says that Sam Cannon has […]

8/29/2013 2 comments

People do care, MUSIC HELPS, WRITING HELPS.

by desttiinnyy07 8/29/2013

written by desttiinnyy07

Ok,

So my name is Destiny and i just wanted to talk about giving up.

I’ve went through a lot of things, and i’ve moved past them, learning how to work on myself. I live by the motto:

“EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON”.

It has nothing to do with religion, but with just that everything in my opinion happens for a reason. Whenever I hit a point where i dont want to live i think about all the negative, everything. i drive my self into deep stages of confusion trying to figure it all out on myself. Why do things happen the way they do?, Why have I grown […]

8/29/2013 3 comments

When do you think it is the right time?

by Jasminesafei 8/29/2013

written by Jasminesafei

Someday, I get depressed and suicidal. I keep telling myself everything will be fine. It will get better. If i keep this mind, I can hold on. Â Then, I get depressed and hopeless again. It seems like a cycle to me. I told myself if I can’t hold on, just end my life. But, I don’t know when is the right time.

8/29/2013 9 comments

Hi my name is Brooke, I’m 15 with cancer.

by BrooklynBoxx 8/27/2013

written by BrooklynBoxx

Abandoned by my mother
Raped by my grandpa
When i told abandoned by my grandmother
Raped by my brother
Abandoned by everyone in my family but my dad
Went to court
Diagnosed with Pseudo seizures
Struggling with depression, anxiety, ptsd, insomnia, cuttingÂ and other mental illness’s

You would thing my life wouldn’t get any worse.

About 3 month ago, I noticed a lump in my upper left abdomen, it hurt but i ignored it.

1 month ago the pain moved to my lower right abdomen.

In my right abdomen I had an ovarian cyst. Nothing bad right?

I told them about pain on my left side. They did a CT scan. And found a mass.

For the last […]

8/27/2013 10 comments

The battle is much harder to fight alone…

by BrooklynBoxx 8/26/2013

written by BrooklynBoxx

Depression is surrounding me again, I wanna cut.

I wanna feel something, I feel so numb.

Today is mine and my boyfriends 7 months.

And he’s currently looking at 10-20+ years for dating me.

He’s 21, I’m 15.

I’ve lost my best friend, and haven’t talk to him for a month and a half.

He was my reason for living.. my happiness.

And like everything else in my life it was snatched away.

I need to talk to him.. I’m slipping again.

I might break tonight.. I know if/when he finds out he’ll […]

8/26/2013 2 comments

A video I made about my SURVIVAL

by fantasiaw 8/25/2013

written by fantasiaw

It took all i had to make this. I couldn’t be any more proud. Days are still hard but I’m happy I reached this point.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kry9R8TN4pQ

8/25/2013 0 comment

Cameron

by Blake SinBad 8/25/2013

written by Blake SinBad

I posted this here one day:

Cameron,

I fell in love with you the moment your eyes saw mine. Shivers played at me when you were close. Your beautiful black hair, and those dark grey blue eyes. Tall, freckles, always in my favorite color. Black. You were perfect. Perfect for me. Butâ€¦I apparently wasnâ€™t perfect for youâ€¦I know we talked onceâ€¦maybe twiceâ€¦but the sound of your voice made me want to cry tears of happinessâ€¦

Ugh, wow. Sounding like a total stalker now. Great.

Whatever. Not like you know who I am. You wouldnâ€™t remember me. Yknow, the girl always glancing at you. The shy girl wearing your favorite […]

8/25/2013 17 comments

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