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I Will Survive

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SSPP

by SSPP 1/16/2013

written by SSPP

Hey Everyone juts wanting to ask if you have Facebook can you please like this page. It means alot to me.

https://www.facebook.com/SppStopSuicidePrevention?ref=hl

Thanks The Crew of SSPP Stop Suicide, Prevention Project

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This Week

by my-emotional-massacre 1/16/2013

written by my-emotional-massacre

This week has been a rough patch for me. Monday, I attempted suicide. At this moment I am sitting in a hospital bed. It smells like rubber gloves and the bed isn’t comfortable. The refuse to let me on my tumblr which consists of “too many triggers”. It’s apparently not healthy for me to be on there so often. Fuck that. Second of all, along with my whole suicide attempt, my arm has been revealed to my mom. My relapses over the past months are being thrown into her face. The cuts and raised scars I’ve hidden for so long are out in the open […]

1/16/2013 21 comments

Why does everybody only see my mask??

by Engeltje 1/16/2013

written by Engeltje

Why??!! Why??!! Why does everybody always say that I’m happy, and I’m funny and laughing and stuff?! Do they really don’t see that HUGE mask I wear most of the time??? It’s just so crazy. Today too, I was at the part-time therapy (monday till friday from 9am till 3pm) and the group and the therapists thought that I was happy and that everything was okay, and so on. And that while they know I wear often a mask and that it goes really bad with me right now. But how hard I tried, they wouldn’t believe me I’m feeling really bad and that all […]

1/16/2013 9 comments

Fallen Angel

by Mother of Flowers 1/16/2013

written by Mother of Flowers

This is a song i wrote in high school, years ago.
I was 15 years old…
It is short but makes a point

“Fallen Angel”

Feeling so alone in
this dark dispair
can’t figure out why he’s still there
He tries to make sense of it all
and wonders why he had to fall
he tries to keep his tears inside
when he felt that love was just a lie
he knows that one day he will find a love that’s real

And I will wait for you
it doesnt matter what you do
I love you more than anyone could know
because you’re my life my love, […]

1/16/2013 3 comments

I LOVE YOU

by Mother of Flowers 1/16/2013

written by Mother of Flowers

YOU are perfectly imperfect
YOU matter the most
YOU are the most beautiful,
the most wonderful
YOU are the only one who will truly know this

Deep down, you do

I LOVE YOU

-YOUR heart

1/16/2013 3 comments

My friend hanged herself, how long would she have suffered?

by JordanStoddart 1/16/2013

written by JordanStoddart

My good friend hanged herself last weeks in the woods after a battle with depression. I need to know if she suffered. From what I know she stood on a chair about 1 foot off ground and hanged via basic rope from a DIY store attached to a tree.

I just hope she didn’t suffer for long. Please be honest if you know I just need closure. If anyone can help with what it would of felt like, time it took to pas out/die etc I would be appreciated.

1/16/2013 8 comments

Got 70% scholarship

by hogpotter 1/16/2013

written by hogpotter

So I just got the results back from my entrance university exams. I securedÂ 2nd position and obtained 70% scholarship.

Thank you God…

I hope… I can convince her… if we can manage the funds… maybe I can buy a car. I don’t mind a second or an ugly one.

Please God… please let me live. I am bored and tired of dying everyday… I want to live… I want to be normal. I want to live.

I have lotsÂ of dreams to achieve, dreams of 17 years. I will survive, I will holdÂ on till that day come. So please God… give me a chance.

1/16/2013 3 comments

Can’t Save The One Who Saved Me

by Katil 1/15/2013

written by Katil

So far I’ve posted story’s of love and death. Here’s just one more about love.

So for the longest time I was in love with this boy, if you’ve seen my other stories this is before Zach, but his name was Noah.

I know for sure, he won’t be reading this, or at least know who I am so it’s safe to use his name. But anyway on topic, Noah was what every girl wanted he was cute, taller than me, a good kisser, popular, athletic, captain of the football team, a slight accent, and a total gentlemen. He was just amazing. I fell for him, hard.

And […]

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Nothing’s left.

by AgainstTheWorld 1/15/2013

written by AgainstTheWorld

I’m 13 years old, turning 14 in March 13. I’m here again. Alone. I’ve been sexually abused by two family members and physically abused by almost every single person in my family. I’ve been beaten with objects. I can still taste the blood inside my mouth when it got busted and bruised. I’m insecure. I have cuts all over my legs and arms. And I have P.E too, we’re forced to wear shorts, I have to run everyday in the lockers and change as fast as possible making sure no one is able to see. I keep my razor inside my phone case, just in […]

1/15/2013 4 comments

An in depth look at “death”… Please read before decisions are made.

by Mother of Flowers 1/15/2013

written by Mother of Flowers

Let me just begin by saying that i have contemplated suicide many times in my life time, mostly during my adolescence, but just recently also. I have been observing this page for a few days, and have been reading all of your posts.

I happened to stumble upon this article while searching near death experiences, and was amazed and humbled by the words so much that i began to cry. (not from sadness, but from the pure warmth of peace) I hope this brings you peace, and if not peace, a better understanding on why you are here now, and why we all MUST suffer sometimes… […]

1/15/2013 14 comments

Get Back Up

by MJSPP1994 1/15/2013

written by MJSPP1994

‘m in cage, locked inside hell,

Â I was so sure, I was completed,

I went so far, but then I fell.

Â Â Â Â Â As I lost it, I was defeated.

Â But I try to get back up every day,

Â And that’s something I won’t give away.

I’m getting back up on my feet,

Â I could understand to you it’s madness,

Â For me to stand, and to accept my defeat.

But this helps me, It breaks down my sadness.

Â Life hurts, but you’ll be alright,

Â Keep going, Keep yourself going,

Just get back […]

1/15/2013 2 comments

MY Story

by MJSPP1994 1/15/2013

written by MJSPP1994

My Name is Markus Jolley, also I go by MJ. I haveÂ tried at least 12 attempts of suicide, all failing, and now all I have is myself.Â I have no family, and I live in a group home for troubled or stranded youth. When I did have a family, I developed differently than any other kid my age. The Tests for mental instability or disorders started when I was 5. I went through medical tests over and over, until an MRI was ordered on my brain. It turned out that I had Frontal Lobe Gliosis which looks like this. http://www.ajnr.org/content/24/2/218/F3.large.jpg

This Problem explained my functioning […]

1/15/2013 2 comments

A Dream That Became A Real Nightmare

by EmoCookie 1/14/2013

written by EmoCookie

By:EmoCookie

Eyes closed

A stream prepares its selfÂ a pound her face

She lies on her daily bed

Voices begin to spread

Like a drop of water put down on a napkin

They start to sing the scary tale of your life

(One, two freddy’s coming for you)

Can’t no longer keep my eyes closed

BOOM

I open my eyes

A forest appears

So confused and no words to understand

Everything

so green

But really I open

My eyes wider to see it

Its beauty

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These Shadows Are My Demons

by EmoCookie 1/14/2013

written by EmoCookie

By:EmoCookie

These shadows are my demons

These shadowsÂ are the thing that keeps me up at night

That wake me up when I am sleeping

These shadows are my demons

The shadows stop and stare at me

The Â shadows always begin to talk to me

But no words come out my mouth

These shadows are my demons

The shadows want to take me

The shadows want me to talk to them

These shadows are my demons

The thing that keeps me up at night

That wake me up when I am […]

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Hold My Arms

by EmoCookie 1/14/2013

written by EmoCookie

By:EmoCookie

Please someone hold my arms for i have no control right now

My cry to you means something, it doesnt meannothing

Hold my arms so I can no longer be hurt by this tamed

People say you need to stop with this bloody game or you will never get fame

Ma its not a game

IÂ just want to keep tamed

Hold my arms for I have cut again a pound my arms

Hold my arms so I can be on the right path!

Please someone hold my arms!

Please

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Different Now

by EmoCookie 1/14/2013

written by EmoCookie

By:EmoCookie

Boom

Bam

Slam

No one heard the pain that I believe I desever

Slice

Dice

ThatÂ is th price that I pay for myself

Spray

Snif

The way I can take myself from this world to be happy for just a second

Slap

Crack

Punch

Have nothing left

Get something someone can’t take from me

Safty pins

No longer come safe for me

Blade box cutters

No longer are for boxes

For my arm is now the box

And the blade […]

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Jump into me

by EmoCookie 1/14/2013

written by EmoCookie

By:EmoCookie

Someone please jump into me

Feel my pain

Feel me

I’m dying inside

Help Me!

Help me get some air

Becasue you don’t see me

Dying on the inside

I’m almost gone

Gone from this world

Someone

Jump into me

Walk a day in my shoes

Feel my pain

And you may gain

Gain something in your mind

1/14/2013 5 comments

Look Past My Eyes

by EmoCookie 1/14/2013

written by EmoCookie

By:EmoCookie

We look each other Â in the eyes

you tell me you love me and that you

know me from the back of your

hands, but now that you are looking

in my eyes look more in and see

the real me. you may be scared at

first but keep looking at my eyes. My

pain may eat into your soul, but

KEEP looking into my eyes! You say

you love me, you say you know me

from the back of your hands. Well to tell

Â you the truth you don’t […]

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My introduction and story

by Engeltje 1/14/2013

written by Engeltje

Well, i thought it was time to introduce myself. I’m a girl, sixteen years and I’m from The Netherlands (Please don’t mind my spelling and grammar) . My nickname (Engeltje) is Dutch and it means (Little) Angel. I live in the area of Amsterdam (I guess most of you know Amsterdam :P) . I live with my parents and an older sister. So that’s the general part and now a part that goes about my life. Okay, I’ll try to keep it short, so I will only tell the most important things.
I don’t know how it goes in the USA, but in The Netherlands […]

1/14/2013 2 comments

My heart is crying just like I am

by EmoCookie 1/14/2013

written by EmoCookie

Dear word,

I know you don’t know me. And the words that I’m about to say may mean nothing to you and you just may not care. I am a female that goes by EmoCookie its an old nickname and I am 18 years old. I have depression. I see people to get help, but that doesn’t seem to be working but I will give it more time. I am an on and off cutter. I cry. I try to smile when I can. I’m failing school and I dont know what to do about that. I’m lost be on repair. My dad is […]

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