For your poems.
Gonna post some poems would love some feedback on them when they go up 🙂
It wasn’t violent, the attempted rape. It was mostly tearful, with me pleading for the man to stop. And sick and disgusting. It smelled gross and dirty. I could smell his sweat, I can still smell his sweat. I will never forget it. I will still remember the scent after he got done, after he realised I want going to let him. I fought in my drunkenness.
He had told me that he wanted to talk to me.
William Triplett was his name. He was an ex of mine, and I had just turned 16, and he was 25. I was desperate to find someone […]
Donna calls politely
Over the loudspeaker
Lunch is ready
Line up in front
If you have a chore
Oddly the sports section
Is here on the table
Crown Vic’s went new
Its full page ad reads
Just $18,6 in March of ’94
Two vets planning to buy
A couple of scratch-offs
Walking laps 13 to a mile
They’ll go together
On the way home
Oh, hello again mirror girl
it hasn’t been that long.
You’re not looking very good today you know;
are those scars and almost tears I see?
could those be troubled eyes and a shaky heart?
Who gave you the right to be like this mirror girl?
Mommy won’t be proud anymore,
Daddy won’t want you around,
Brother won’t understand,
and Sister won’t even remember.
Oh, hello again mirror girl,
it’s certainly been some time.
You’re looking worse you know;
the scars are deeper and the tears are falling,
your eyes are more wounded and your heart more broken.
You have it good mirror girl,
you should be thankful for all you have.
The sufferings all in your mind,
so stop sitting and crying,
when your friends are […]
I based this off of Amy Brown’s faeries. She’s amazing.
I did this forever ago, and it still stands true to it’s meaning. It means I always fuck up. It means that I’m always messing up, always failing, always late. And I hate myself for it… And I don’t mean to… I don’t know what to do about it even….
People say that their afraid to die. Im not afraid to die…im scared to death to live!
I wanna say goodnight and goodbye at the same time. And never wake up again. Shut the world out forever.
“Im not starving myself.” You need food to survive. “I dont cuzz” You dont need food to die. :/
I have a really bad habit…..BREATHING!!
I found a solution to all my problems. Suicide…my ride to die.
just some of my quotes…newerish ones.
my song {one of them} :
(Verse 1/Intro)
Shaking here in pain
I know im to blame.
Cant get away!
Wanna fly away from here,
to no place that is near.
Gotta get away,
let my soul drift away.
(Chorus)
Watch me hang
watch me die
theres not much left
just watch and cry
im leaving now
just say goodbye
you lost me to suicide.
Watch me hang
watch me die
theres not much left
just watch and cry
im leaving now
just say goodbye
you lost me to suicide.
(Verse 2)
Hurry up cuz i feel this way.
Get me out! Get me out!
Let me outta this place.
Suffering over and over
its like this everyday
step off the chair and begin to hang.
(Chorus)
(Verse 3)
Time is ticking
hours pass by
I feel this way
and i dont […]
I walk upon this lonely road in a garden of the damned,
Where everyone will sleep one day and the ones who want to rot.
Their flowers wilt and spoil and brown from famine;
It isn’t true when people say they haven’t fought.
There’s blood among roses and posies and wildflowers,
And you don’t need thorns to make it so.
They slowly bleed up to the final hour;
Then nothing can save them and they feel alone.
There’s blood in the leaves and blood in the trees, everything decked in crimson,
No one seems to notice – except us, we do;
I wonder if they’re […]
Twinkle Twinkle little scars.
How did all this ever start.
Took a razor blade apart.
Slit my wrist and left a mark.
No one cares and why should they.
I’m as messed up as can be.
Twinkle Twinkle little scars.
What will it take to stop my heart.
I don’t quite understand why it feels so much easier to write about my problems then to say them out loud I suppose it’s like my thoughts are my own little secret I mean that’s what your mind is for right? A space where you can detach yourself from reality if only for a few moments and go somewhere.. be it a memory or completely make up.. But no amount of day dreaming will save me from myself, Let me start off by saying I am now 19 years old to be 20 in August and have suffered from clinical depression for 4 years, I […]
The pain is overwhelming
It has taken up my soul
All I ever think about is “will I lose controlâ€
The feeling of being lonely
The thoughts of pure despair
I think I am broken far beyond repair
The beast inside my head has grown considerably
Feeding me all these thoughts
Giving me false dreams
I don’t understand why this happens
I’m nearly ready to just give in
I want to give my soul to the and commit that final sin
I’m asked if everything’s alright
Of course I smile and lie
But whenever I’m alone I feel ready to die
I cover up my […]
so i cut agen
so the blood spild
so sorry for the red stanes on the bed
so sorry for brane for the lack of the red stuff the you live on
so sorry for the day
for all the decay
for all the pane
i whant it to stop but it whont
ther seems to be a lump in my trote
iv given in on the doctors notes
for the weekly perscripshion
for the stuff i live on
and the illegul dope
so sorry bout me geting bulled
so sorry for the harasmant and pane
im SORRY! for the wong ansers
im SORRY! for my mined is els were
IM SORRY FOR I CAN NOT LAUGH ANEY MORE NOT EVEN ON LIFES […]
Cutting those cuts,
feeling the razor blade slice into your skin,
seeing the blood flow…
No, I know it sure,
I will never heal of self mutilation.
NEVER
And those scars will always stay…
ALWAYS
There will come more of them.
Because the feeling I get is indiscribable.
Feeling that pain that’s going through my whole body,
feeling something and feeling numb,
feeling like it’s my best friend,
my best help,
the only thing I can trust.
Yeah, that blade and that stanley knife are really MY best friends.
A little poem written by myself:
And then you’re sitting there,
crying in the corner of the […]
hello world iv see you about now after a life of deth filld torts and me whanting to leve this place i can look you in the eye and say
last look
keeping me sane
last look
dead men stering with cold eyes
my last look
i was being bulled and beten
and now i can say why
now i can say if the sky falls ill be the ferst to here it crack and bend cos i feel like it
hanging by a tred not willing to let go but whanting to
cut to sreds by my own hands and my blood falls in a flood
like you sky im alone with only the sun and the […]
i dream of walking to it
my home
to count the crooked bricks
fall onto the too long grass
smell the juniper
go through the white door
with the lion knocker
walk through the rooms
the familiar spaces
and patterns on the floor
remember all the voices
all the sorrow
all the joy
through to the back yard
over old redwood planks
lawn surrounded by fruit trees
orange blossoms
to lay under the great mulberry
to gaze up into its branches
and broad green leaves
watch the light dance
and the sky dance
then peacefully
close my eyes
i feel them cutting but thers nothing in my hands
i feel the blood runing down my vanes and in to the open air
can you feel it
can you smell it
im loosing controle
im not loosing fath
im fighting back genst a brick wall
and for some reson that i dont understand im loosing
im loosing agenst an objet
look at the wold fall
look at the them stand tall
help me rase a call
a fighting withdrol
im lost
not fownd
im dead
not drownd
im cold
not cool
im something that you will never understand i feel
i feel
i feel
i feel
i look at my arm
look at the blood
look at the cut that cerculs my wrist
look at me fall
look
look
look
hes gon at last […]
I am the last honest guy on earth. I gave her everything and she promised the world to me.
I gave her all of me. My Love, My Patience, My Kindness, My Caring. everything that made me the last honest person on earth.
She gave me a wife and 2 kids. A House and even a job.
She gave me things I did not have like Motivation, Strength, Willpower, The reason I needed to get out of bed everyday.
She took it all and the world she promised, She took it all back.
She took it in pieces over time, first my Securities, then Control, then my Trust, then My […]
i cant see it aney more im lost my body is a battel grownd and my side is loosing in the war of life iv lost my frends have gon and thay beat me daly ones befor ones after my god what am i know nowing that in all my life that is the pont that iv givenup on people helping iv got a god father who sees me as a lode he cant bear all iv got is the gutat and im losing that too i tryd fighing for my contrey and my contrey didunt whant me i tryd helping people and here that […]
They listen, yet they dont hear. They think, yet they dont know. They hear my cry, yet they dont see my tears. So when I die, will they know I never lived?
My skin was red
In the dark of night.
Cut up, it bled.
No sign of fright.
The pain I was feeling
Felt so real.
To wake in the morning
No sign of heal.
News that break
My heart in two.
I really can’t take
What I have to do.
Someone really close,
Slept and never woke.
The one I love the most,
Formed tears and made me choke.
As the day goes by,
I laugh and sometimes cry.
Oh please! Don’t pick and pry,
For I,
Woke to death.
This is in memory of Grandma who passed away in her sleep last night. God help me to not go crazy or suffer. I just know I’m going to break down at some point.