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I’ll Sleep When I’m Dead

by BrightsideUltimatum 12/15/2011

written by BrightsideUltimatum

Thinking about it all, it just makes you shake. When you keep running from something that will probably hunt you down your entire life, it really makes you paranoid. It really puts you on edge and makes you seem crazy to the masses. Iâ€™ve been shaking uncontrollably for days, and I keep trying to convince myself Iâ€™m only cold. Truth be told, the past is sneaking up on me and the anxiety is crashing in around me. I havenâ€™t talked to very many people about anything but common lighthearted conversation for the past few days. Iâ€™m too timid. I fear I might say something that […]

12/15/2011 2 comments

Drowning.

by BrightsideUltimatum 12/15/2011

written by BrightsideUltimatum

I felt like a puppet, my wrists and ankles and all of my bends really were weak. I lowered myself into the water and tried to hope I wouldnâ€™t sink. But I did, I hoped I would sink. I did sink. I let the violent air escape my lungs into the water, and I just screamed into the seemingly endless dark of the pits below. Eventually I forgot about needing to breathe. I just stayed under, my lungs perfectly comfortable where they were, almost as if they were not new to death. But then I felt the pulse of my ever-so-human heart ceasing. I realized […]

12/15/2011 0 comment

Butterfly Project Dropout

by BrightsideUltimatum 12/15/2011

written by BrightsideUltimatum

Washing away the dead butterflies is something I never get better at doing. I wash away the blues and greens and yellows and all of that red. That scarlet relief is instantly satisfying as it circles the drain and fades into the pipes. I scratch at the healing scars and I have to wonder, what would he have said? But suddenly I donâ€™t care, because for one split moment even through the disappointment and the hurt and the slight guiltâ€¦there cuts another razor – a razor of peace and quiet. All of a sudden, everything is quiet and calm. My mind has rested, my body […]

12/15/2011 0 comment

sums it up

by i_dreamed_a_dream 12/15/2011

written by i_dreamed_a_dream

I don’t know how much more I can take
If I bend any more, ill break.
From the pain inside I’m going mad!
So sick, so tired from feeling sad.

For just ONE moment of happiness I long…
A fleeting point in time where all my sorrow is gone.
Of the day I no longer bear this hatred I can only dream.
But for now the tears from my eyes will stream..

Noone sees the sadness in my eyes,
Or the desperation that lies beneath each smile I fake as the days pass by.
My will to live is ever failing.
Like the blood from my body […]

12/15/2011 0 comment

in Memory of you

by ImBarelyHere 12/15/2011

written by ImBarelyHere

I find an old photograph
and see your smile.
As I feel your presence anew,
I am filled with warmth
and my heart remembers love.

I read an old card
sent many years ago
during a time of turmoil and confusion.
The soothing words written then
still caress my spirit
and bring me peace.

I remember who you used to be
the laughter we shared
and wonder what you have become.
Where are you now,
Where did you go,
When the body is left behind
and the spirit is released to fly?

Perhaps you are the morning bird
singing joyfully at sunrise,
or the butterfly that dances
so […]

12/15/2011 2 comments

The Sadness in Me

by itsmytimetogo 12/14/2011

written by itsmytimetogo

One word.

Obssessed.

With love.

Being loved.

Being cared about.

Being important.

Being noticed.

Prove I’m worthy.

Given a chance.

That’s all I want.

Why am I so different??

I want to be

A diamond in someones eyes.

Beautiful.

Loved.

Cared.

But it’s not gonna

Happen to me.

I’m not beautiful.

I’m not loved.

I’m not cared for.

I’m just someone

In the background.

Unimportant.

Unnoticed.

12/14/2011 0 comment

Lost

by itsmytimetogo 12/14/2011

written by itsmytimetogo

I am lost

In the sea of emotions.

Swimming isn’t my strenght.

“What if I drown?”

I think to myself.

The deeper I go

The darker it gets.

I want to be above the water.

So I won’t have to feel anything.

12/14/2011 0 comment

What’s stopping you?

by mindhewn 12/14/2011

written by mindhewn

As the titles says, what’s stopping you from slotting yourself?

I myselfÂ am waiting for christmas to come and go, just so I don’t ruin it for my family. I have everything I need for a dignified, peaceful and quick exit (I’m planning to OD on 15 gramsÂ ******** along with a anti-emetic regimen) .

I’ll probably end my pathetic lifeÂ around January/Febuary.

12/14/2011 18 comments

i wanna do real bad things with you.

by itsmytimetogo 12/10/2011

written by itsmytimetogo

True BloodÂ oh i am addicted to this show! <33

12/10/2011 1 comment

Pain.

by cwardrop26 12/10/2011

written by cwardrop26

Pain –

Scary

Unwanted

unavoidable

When you sit around trying your hardest to feel the sameÂ happinessÂ you felt not so long ago.

then youÂ realizeÂ that when you only feel pain , happiness is numb. Happiness leaves within seconds.

When you areÂ lonely, Â you want to leave you room, and when you do go out, You just want to go back home . But you hate your home. Your not happy at home or when your not at home. Being with friends is good and all, but you find your self wanting to go home, or finding excuses to leave. You cry when you get home, you cry if you don’t get invited to parties […]

12/10/2011 2 comments

posts = posters

by trappedlost 12/9/2011

written by trappedlost

I’ve noticed that the posts on this site are rather like the people who post them; they appear before us, they display wretchedness, and then they sink into obscurity, forgotten.

12/9/2011 3 comments

it should never get to this…

by JBCubbs 12/9/2011

written by JBCubbs

get to the point where i see/hear/read stories about people that have killed themselves and actually become jealous. i do though. i read so and so killed themselves. and my first fucking thought is, “why the fuck can’t i do it?” it didn’t always used to be that way. i used to be sad. but now i’m jealous and envious. which tells me that now suicide is something my own mind now desires greatly. which speaks even louder. i mean if my own mind wants to be dead, why should i not appease it… give my mind peace. i feel so alone and helpless. every […]

12/9/2011 4 comments

tired..

by Silent Screamer 12/8/2011

written by Silent Screamer

No one could possibly imagine how.. Sad and mad I am .

I really doubt they know .

Ignorant people call tend to call me weak .

People who have been around or heard of depression tend to call me strong .

I disagree with them both .

If I was weak , I wouldn’t take those pills, or I wouldn’t cut myslef , or anything else .

If I was strong, I would stop.

I just can’t handle this anymore.

12/8/2011 2 comments

-Runninq On Empty.

by Laurxo 12/7/2011

written by Laurxo

No energy to wake from this bed, sit up but i’m achinq cus i know exactly what the day holds. My mum abusinq the house cus she’s mentally ill. Constantly shoutinq at everyone. No mates to keep me goinq. Day’s pass yet nothin’ ever get’s any better. I’m an 18 year old girl with no job, mates or family. Is this really life. Wish it would all end peacefully. The night looks nice tonight, it’s cold but if i had someone, anyone too share it with it would make the world itself nice. Beautiful infact. The only thing keepinq me goinq is knowinq other people […]

12/7/2011 1 comment

today i pray

by 14 years and thats all 12/6/2011

written by 14 years and thats all

When i open my eyes today

i close them again and pray

iÂ pray for answers

i pray for hope

i pray for the power to survive

and if i do survive

would i really want it?

sorry i am not good at it but i was just needing to write

12/6/2011 0 comment

without you.

by MelisaMelancholy 12/6/2011

written by MelisaMelancholy

Without you, I don’t have to worry every day if you’ll be there.

Without you, there are no lies and new fake stories.

Without you, I’m not putting myself up for hurt.

Wiithout you, there are constand wonders inmy mind.

Without you, I have a void in my heart that was never filled from the start.

12/6/2011 0 comment

Take it all.</3

by MelisaMelancholy 12/6/2011

written by MelisaMelancholy

Take away the pain, it will never happen.

Take away the pain, maybe in your fantasies.

Take away the pain, no one can ever help you.

Take away the pain, never depend on anyone.

Take away the pain, you’ll figure things out the hard way.

Take way the pain, you’ll always have to deal with it alone.

Take away the pain, it will never leave inside of you.

Take away the pain, take it all.

12/6/2011 1 comment

Tears.

by MelisaMelancholy 12/6/2011

written by MelisaMelancholy

tears of fear,

tears of confusion,

tears of wonder,

tears of worry,

tears of sorrow,

tears of hope.

12/6/2011 0 comment

My early morning thoughts

by porphyrous 12/6/2011

written by porphyrous

I wake up.Â I look at the clock.Â It’s 5:30 AM.Â My wife is asleep.Â My daughter has, at some time during the night, crawled into bed with us.Â My mother is out asleep on the couch.Â My head is ringing slightly, my neck and shoulders are tight, my stomach is tight to the point of nausea.Â I stare at the ceiling trying not to move.Â How can I get out of this bed without waking anyone, and slip downstairs to the garage?Â I know there’s a heavy duty extension cord sitting on the workbench.Â Nobody has picked it up and hidden it away yet.Â […]

12/6/2011 6 comments

I’m Ready..

by Silent Screamer 12/3/2011

written by Silent Screamer

I am really considering suicide.

I don’t see the point of living.

12/3/2011 2 comments

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