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Envy..

  May 29th, 2011 by Silent Screamer

I envied the fact that my mom had accidentally cut herself shaving.

That moment when I saw her red, crimson blood trickling down her leg,

All I wanted to do was..

Pull out my veins and cut them in half.

All of them.

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Everyone try it!!! (sarcasm)

  May 29th, 2011 by RogueShadow1281

Everyone try it!
Choking out is fun, its affected by everything, mostly muscle spasms and mentally you think about something and forge completely and are tricked into believing it’s a good idea, I want to write that idea(s) down. I sometimes do something like rock my body left to right. You should all try it. I just say that so I can hear anything similar or different. My cousin Alex tried and likes it. My 12 year old neighbor likes to do it and showed his friends. I showed my brother but he stopped he’s a ***** about everything. Only problems is brain damage, but you’re …

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  May 28th, 2011 by indifference

The sky isn’t always blue, and the sun doesn’t always shine.
Our friends aren’t always there, and sometimes we fall out of love.
Angels fall from grace, and we won’t always be happy.
It’s alright to come apart, but remember to fall back together.

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For a friend

  May 27th, 2011 by FirstTimeSurvivor

This is something I wrote 13 years ago, when I was feeling a helluva lot better. I know some folks don’t want to hear it, they don’t have to read it. Some people here need friends, and that’s what this is about…. being friends. Not just saying you are, but actually being there when needed.  It’s on the long side, sorry.

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Lately I’ve been feeling

like I really don’t fit in,

I don’t know where I’m going,

I’m ashamed of where I’ve been.

It doesn’t seem to matter,

where I go or what I do,

the people with whom I can relate

seem to be a precious few.

I can’t put my finger on …

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All My Fucking Fault..

  May 26th, 2011 by Silent Screamer

Yes mom.

It is all my fault.

Everything is absolutely all my fault.

Nothing,

But my fault

But you wanna know the sad part?

I’m actually starting to fucking beleive that it is all my fault.

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For You..

  May 26th, 2011 by Silent Screamer

She’s too beautiful for words.

She doesn’t believe the compliments.

She deserves better than some guy with a lip ring that treats her badly.

Breathe in.

Breathe out.

You have the right to.. And you were put on this planet for a reason.

Please stay ok babe. :’)

Dedicated to Broken.

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voices..

  May 25th, 2011 by Ixhatexmyxname

The voices are screaming. I don’t know what I did wrong. Probably everything. I have to scream just to think over them. They keep getting louder and louder. Why do they do that to me?  Stop yelling. Stop. Just stop. What kind of trick is this? Please stop. I hate it.

STOP.

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Loves just a word

  May 25th, 2011 by Killme03

Love is just a word
Not even a feeling because if it were things would be different I hate people who say that your not alone. Apparently we are if we have to talk online about the way we feel. My heart has turned to coal the one I thought I loved well maybe he’ll see me in the afterlife if there is such a thing. I feel as if I’ve already died I am already transparent nobody would ever miss me.

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Cries&Lies</3

  May 25th, 2011 by InTheDark

She was crying

Drip drop splashes the tears

He was lying

And He didn’t care

She fought so hard

Only to gain nothing

He did very little

Only to get what he wanted

She blamed herself

He laughed to himself

He was like hell

And she was heaven……

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Suicide Took Me Away

  May 25th, 2011 by SuicideKillMe

It took everything away
and now im standing infront of a bay.
It hurt everything i got
and now im going to take this shot.
We are not friends
but today i should be cleanse.
As i hold out my hand
and develop my plan.
I know for sure
we are going to have a tour.
I know…we wont come back
cause soon i will be attack.
Dont be scared
when everything is in a flared.
I have the rope
and it took all mine hope.
Suicide…you surprise me
but its time to be free.

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No Emotions..

  May 24th, 2011 by Silent Screamer

I feel no emotions.

I feel no love for my family.

No love for my ‘ friends’.

I feel nothing.

No sadness.

No madness.

No hate.

No happieness.

All I can barely feel, is the pain.

And somewhat now like, not love, my dog.

What is happening?

I haven’t cut in quite a while..

Could this be the reason all my emotions have been lost?

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The Storm

  May 24th, 2011 by Mio

In a dream I´m drifting in the sea. It´s dark and stormy. The waves push me beneath the surface and throw me in the air. The sea is a womb and the sea is a grave. The sea wants me. I´m afraid. Shall I die? Shall I wake up? Shall I learn to fly?

I see another person who´s drifting in the sea too. Our only hope is that perhaps we can save each other.

Into your hands I trust my spirit.

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Secrets

  May 22nd, 2011 by Killme03

Secrets surround the darkness within
The lies that I trusted for so long
All for nothing
What’s life worth living for
If all of it is nothing but a
Lie

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The China Shop

  May 19th, 2011 by FirstTimeSurvivor

 My Soul is a china shop

that a bull has already run thru.

What’s left on the shelf,

teetering and fragile,

will fall at the slightest move.

– – – – – – – – – – – –

My Psyche lies broken

into a million pieces on the floor,

in order to clean up

and put things in order,

you have to walk on the rubble, making more.

– – – – – – – – – – – – - 

The door is open

and I’ve finally chased the bull out.

There ain’t much left

and the resulting mess,

has left a lot of concern and doubt.

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Once again, thanks to all for you encouragement and kind words.

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Another restless night

  May 19th, 2011 by FirstTimeSurvivor

Last night is a good example of why I wrote the poem about sleep. I didn’t get much and that’s all I really wanted to do. Just go to sleep and be numb/immune to the demons. As a result of my restless night, I have more prose 🙂

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“BLENDED”

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I feel like I’ve been in a blender,

dazed and confused, with mixed up emotions,

a psyche so fragile and tender.

– – – – – – – – –

Bruised, beaten and battered,

cracked like glass, I don’t dare move

or my Soul will certainly shatter.

– – – – – – – – – –

Achingly sore, not numb,

pain so intense it constantly hints,

that …

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Dawn..

  May 18th, 2011 by Silent Screamer

The blade gets cozy, driving against my skin.

The warm, thick, crimson liquid dripping and dripping down my arm.

Wanting to bleed it all out.

Having me, slowly slipping away.

Falling into the best I can be.

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Precious Sleep

  May 18th, 2011 by FirstTimeSurvivor

Sleep! Oh precious Sleep!

How I long to be with thee.

Sleep, oh precious Sleep,

with you I never disagree.

Sleep, oh precious Sleep,

it’s you that let’s me see,

Sleep, oh precious Sleep,

you are what sets me free!

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Thanks again for the cyberspace – FTS

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I hope this helps

  May 17th, 2011 by FirstTimeSurvivor

I wasn’t going to post this one, but I am in the hope that vmy19 is still around and it somehow helps.

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I feel so empty deep inside,

I guess there’s nothing left to hide.

Nothing left of me to give,

no reason left for me to live.

Until someone takes me by the hand,

upon my feet, they help me stand.

They show me that they really care

and I know they’re always there.

They stay with me past the dawn

and with their help I can go on.

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thanks for the cyberspace

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My Goodbye

  May 17th, 2011 by vmy19

My Goodbye

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Looking for answers
I joined this site
And in the darkness
I found some light

I must thank you
For all you’ve done
Your kind words
Were like the sun

They warmed my heart
They let me grow
They gave me strength
When I felt low

You offered your help
You gave good advice
You listened so well
You were all so nice

But all my problems-
They were still there
I could not solve them
They were too much to bear

And so in the morning
When I would awake
I’d see no future-
No path to take

I am so scared
Of what awaits
Will I see fire?
Or those white pearly gates?

But what I do hope
Awaits for you
Is all the happiness
Life can ensue

And now it is time
For me …

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Just Not There..

  May 16th, 2011 by Silent Screamer

I have no voice.

Its as if when I move my mouth to speak, no sound comes out,

And that everyone turns away so they can’t read my lips.

I’m just like another dull star in endless space.

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I’m invisable.

I’m nothing.

A no one.

Gone.

A un-important.

Can’t I just be taken away?

And actually be fucking gone.

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