For your poems.
It’s almost as if it’s preaching directly to me, telling me indeed, you can’t escape your destiny. Gives me a little hope.
For your poems.
It’s almost as if it’s preaching directly to me, telling me indeed, you can’t escape your destiny. Gives me a little hope.
i come and go.
here and there.
i make mistakes.
i go home, and there it is.
the guilt, the pain, the shame.
i can’t please her.
make her happy.
everything i do, i just mess up.
and now we’re broken.
non existent.
we tried – i tried.
it just doesn’t work.
i can’t be who you want.
call me all the names you want.
tell me i’m crazy and stupid.
that i need to get myself together.
but it won’t change anything.
i don’t care if you say.
go head, kill yourself.
“i’m so depressed”.
you’re unworthy.
i don’t think you really love me.
cause it’s ok.
i’l be gone soon enough.
the responsibilities will be over.
no more fights.
no more tears.
no more lies.
no more us. […]
Her skin is as soft as the petals of a flower,
The warm sun makes her smile with glee.
They move out of her way like she’s Moses,
and she’s parting the red sea.
–
She moves with grace as she glides down the street,
Her scent is that of a rose in bloom.
All she can do is stare at her feet
as she walks onward to her doom.
–
In her hand she carries a bottle;
A bottle full of pills.
In her other hand she holds a note;
This is a poem i wrote about a child becoming an orphan and it causing them to be depressed and consider suicide. This stuff might seem out of order to some people but this stuff does happen and suicidal thoughts can occur to anyone, any age for any reason. Life can seriously suck sometimes.
Lonely am i,
I can’t bear their cries,
Of laughter and happiness,
While i have tears in my eyes.
I want to shut the world out,
Be locked inside,
 From the joyous surroundings,
Because recently my parents died.
Beyond the abyssal vile pits of filth there is a only a small flame
Producing a light source in the blackness of obsidian cold and barren
It cast shadows so the darkness is never truly gone
We can see the light for miles wanting desperately to be where bright light and radiance shines
The shadows that are from the light harness the full power of the pitch black night
There is no where to go to avoid it the shadows engulf your very essence
They are most noticeable in the night, yet they hide in corners and under objects never leaving
Day in hiding, night they have come out to play, but […]
I think everyone can relate to those moments in life where you feel invincible. You are just so happy that it’s like nothing can hurt you and for that moment you forget about all the pain and all the bad that surrounds you. But just as you are in that high life strikes back bringing you back down to where you started. That’s why so many people refuse to be happy because something usually goes wrong that risk of being knocked back down is always in the back of their mind. Happiness is one of those things that can either have a permanent effect or […]
There is an empty feeling that resides in my soul. I have searched every logical avenue to end this horrible feeling. I have been through hell and back, and as I look back the only reason I kept going was because I had meagre problems to overcome and each time I would succeed I would experience an acute sense of joy. I suffer from anxiety, depression paranoia you name it. Whether or not it was self inflicted from my history of drug abuse, traumatic events or my family history of mental illnesses or the potentiation of all of the above, this feeling is f*cked up. […]
JUST DONT KNOW Y IAM HERE IF IAM THE PURPOSE > NOT SURE Y THIS DONT END BECUS IM SICK OF BEING A CONTARD TO EVERAE AND NOAE…………
I wish I could tell how I feel, I wish I could let someone in. I’m on the mix of loneliness and illness, I miss talking to the person I used to know. And I’m not gonna lie, it could be hide inside, but a part of me still wants you. The other part is telling me to let you at “platonic loveâ€. Cause I know you and I will never be. It’s hard and it’s wasting me. I’m slowly losing this fight. The fight against myself. Eventually I will give up, as my mind sometimes does. If you look deep inside you maybe you’ll […]
I wonder why Before I met him, I would dance in the shower. When he was in my life, I would think about showering with him. After he left, I would sit on the ground in the shower and cry. When I got over him, I showered so quickly there was no time for dancing, fantasies or tears. Someone can invade the smallest part of your life, you won’t even realise it, until you dance in the shower again, and wonder why you ever stopped.
My heart is blackened,
From what I allow you to see.
But deep down inside,
I just want to be free.
My life has become a nightmare,
From which I can’t wake up
I don’t know how much I can take on,
I just want to give up.
The days are sad & long,
the nights lonely & so endless.
Stuck all by myself,
Truly the most self-hated & defenseless.
How easily it would be for me,
To take it to a premeditated distance.
Cutting off all life forces,
And cease to be in existence.
Then I see my children’s faces,
Crying trying to […]
When I was five and fell off my bike, where were you?
When I was seven and had a bad dream, where were you?
When I was twelve and girls were mean, where were you?
Well i’m fifteen now and i’m dying.
Where are you?
While the world seems colorful
Happy and free
The girl watching it seems happy in her own way
Fake smiles and laughs
Trying to perfect them
So no one will notice
The pain inside
No one will see what the world is really like
Only she can notice
The other fake smiles and laughter
Only she can recognize the pain she feels inside of her
Is in others also
While they all feel so alone
No one bothers to see
That they’ve created their own family
Helping each other and caring
While the ones in their house
Ignore them
Make it worse
The only escape to feel loved
The only way to care,
Our own little family
Forever there.
Putting your faith into someone special
Telling them what happened
Telling them your problems
Letting them know how you feel
Being happy
Even just for a second
Not with them
But still fully engulfed in their presence
But as time goes on
And your mind starts to wander
You once again see the pain
The hateful things people say everyday
Once again you feel alone
Feel as if you’re bothering that special person
You talk to them less and less
And let them live their life
But what they don’t know
Is that you’re taking yours
You try not to let them worry
As you sit in your room
Crying for the last time
Telling yourself
This is the last time
That youll ever feel this […]
Is wanting to die
A normal feeling?
Do people feel it every day?
Do they wake up in the morning
When the night before
They had been praying to die
Do normal people feel this way?
Or is that just me?
Am I the one little girl
Who wants to die everyday
The feeling implodes in her chest
And she starts to break
Desperately trying not to cry
Walking the halls of her school
With her head down low
Just trying not to be noticed
Not to be seen
She counts the seconds
As the day slowly passes in its course
She knows
Once she gets home
She can be alone
She can do what she has to
To feel normal again
And to be happy
To feel […]
Every night
She goes to bed
Feeling weak inside
Wondering when
Her life will change
When her heart can reside
In the things she loves
Yet she dies each day
A little more every time
She goes to school
Always on display
Always being talked about
Bullied behind her back
But what no one can see
Is the scars they’ve created
Are coming back
Deep crimson lines
Dripping blood on demand
Hidden behind
A pair of jeans
A fake smile
And a laugh
No one wants to care
Nor to see her pain
So each night
When she comes home
She can relive her day
Cuts
Pills
Maybe a gun instead
She’ll take her own life
Just to be happy once again
Maybe then they’ll see what she did
When she held the knife.
Honestly,
i’m tired of being alone.
i’m tired of crying in bed every god damn night.
i’m tired of  never being right.
i’m tired of the blood on my wrists.
i’m tired of the scars on my hips.
i’m tired of the never ending hurt in my heart and ache in my head.
i’m tired, and I wish I was dead
A small forgotten girl
Alone in a big world
No help
No comfort
Just pain
Covering her life
No way out
It’s the only thing she looks forward to
To see the pain evident on her skin
So it can be released from her mind
For just a moment
Shes ok
Shes happy
But then
Moments, seconds later
The pain covers her again
And she is left
Yet again
To make more marks on her white perfect skin
But when shes not at home
When shes not alone
All she can do
Is force out a smile
And pretend shes fine
No one could suspect
That in her own mind
The thoughts racing
Are ones of suicide
Of a happy final sudden ending
That’s what she prays for every night
Yet each […]
It’s like every day it is a challenge to breathe.
It’s like i’m drowning, but I can’t move.
It’s like all I feel is hurt.
It’s like i’m alone in a crowded room.
It’s like i’m begging for help but nobody comes.
It’s like i’m dead, but my heart keeps beating.
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