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Some Things on My Mind

by L4Y 2/16/2015

written by L4Y

I’m generally not one to post about my feelings and life goings-on here, but … I don’t know. I just feel the need, for whatever reason.

I’ve been feeling so … “blah,” lately. I wouldn’t call it a serious bout of depression by any means; I guess there are just a lot of things piling up and it has me down.

This is largely due to work. The past couple of months (and few days, honestly) have not been good. My employers seem to be doing everything in their power to piss me off, for whatever reason (one I can’t figure out considering I have been there for […]

2/16/2015 0 comment

OH..I GET IT! ^_^ no one reads posts anyway….atleast not mine.

by Khaliladivine28 2/16/2015

written by Khaliladivine28

so i didnt sleep last night
and i feel kinda energized
manic again i guess
talked to my friend online from egypt all morning
she’s fine she said just a agruement with her guy i heard
sounded more like fighting to me
but whatever.
i’m sure whenever i lay down and be still i’ll go to sleep
however i dont really feel like it.
i am curious about how long i can stay awake now
everytime i sleep i have wonderful sometimes scary dreams
i wish i could stay asleep for….ever though
but i guess being awake is a high too.

2/16/2015 1 comment

my theme song for this month

by Khaliladivine28 2/16/2015

written by Khaliladivine28

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2015/02/Cry-Little-Sister2.mp3

by: seasons after

cry little sister cover

2/16/2015 0 comment

How can anyone be happy in this world?

by depressednihilist95 2/14/2015

written by depressednihilist95

It seems like if people aren’t beheading you for being an infidel, you’re being judged for your honesty. I really don’t understand how doctors and other intelligent people can be happy, unless they manage to block out the world somehow. I’ve observed several stories about intelligent people committing suicide, being murdered, or shamefully humiliated by society. I thought that I could be happy by being mean, but I’m just not naturally an asshole like so many others. I feel bad when I make morbid jokes based off of reality. When I talked to my therapist, I often told him what was bothering me, and he […]

2/14/2015 8 comments

Been on my chest for a while. My journal isn’t enough.

by notanymore 2/14/2015

written by notanymore

*i want to apologize in advance. These are the things I can’t say to the man who promised the world and took everything I had left.

I can’t do this anymore. I can’t deal with you pretending I don’t exist one day and making small talk the next. I don’t want to live waiting for the day you decide to start caring. The things you said about me that night are killing me. Was there ever a time that you loved me, or was it all lies? I’m so tired. You only text me when you’re sad or upset, but you ignore me when I need […]

2/14/2015 0 comment

HELP HELP HELP

by The-Star-Of-Jupiter 2/13/2015

written by The-Star-Of-Jupiter

i’m 17, in high school. The doctors told me i have depression but i still don’t believe its real. It’s unbearable sometimes. Humans have glass hearts meaning we are so easily emotionally crippled. I just ripped two of my stitches out ( I […]

2/13/2015 2 comments

100 Reasons Not to Live

by Ryder 2/13/2015

written by Ryder

See, I can come up with 100 reasons NOT to live.

Life is too demanding for you.
Because there’s nothing more you want from life.
Because there’s nothing really significant you can do for the world.
No more having to prove you’re good enough for people.
No more having to lie and pretend.
No more being treated unfairly.
No more holding the weight of the world on your shoulders.
You’re tired of being judged.
No more being ordered around by people.
No more competition.
No more debt. You actually won’t need money anymore.
Because nothing can fix your problems. Not you, not therapy, or Waldo.
Because you’re going to die anyway. It might as well be on your […]

2/13/2015 19 comments

Valentine’s Day Suicide

by helenalanavillanueva 2/12/2015

written by helenalanavillanueva

I feel like jumping off a building. This would’ve been my last choice when it comes to offing myself but I can’t take it anymore.

I know it sounds silly but I am heartbroken for the nth time. It sucks when you’re 28 years old, kind of pretty, and single. It sucks when you see other women you know being wooed and cared for unlike yourself. It sucks to always feel like a loser. It sucks when you thought God had sent you the one but he’s just like everybody else, maybe even worse.

I don’t think I deserve to live. If I really am meant to […]

2/12/2015 8 comments

lifes just to hard

by ezewizz 2/12/2015

written by ezewizz

Sorry this ia written cappy

Hi my name is ezequiel and i am 14 years old and suicidal and i just wanna share my veiw on life.when i was 1-3 my parents brought me to arizona i lived with my mom,dad,and sister.Around the first few months that we moved here my dad began abuseing hard drugs like coke and lots of other drugs he would come home all druged out and abuse me and my sister(she was about 6 or 7)and he would cut my mom with knifes he was always like this.We were really poor my mom got a job at pizza hut and my […]

2/12/2015 2 comments

do you think anyone actually cares

by stupidppl8 2/11/2015

written by stupidppl8

im debating whether or not to kill myself simply because i dont think anyone is there for me like im there for them and i just feel so alone. i dont know if im becoming depressed or not but everyone in my life is constantly making me feel like a sad story and that im not good enough and that i dont belong there . But judt to let you know i probably wouldnt kill myself beacause i dont have the guts to do it. id probably just try to pull the trigger and break down crying.

2/11/2015 7 comments

tonight is the night I float away

by cjnothing85 2/10/2015

written by cjnothing85

Well its official im the biggest loser in Houston! In a matter of 3days ive lost everything I love in this world! I lost my job, my gf and my son bc I couldnt find a stable living arrangement! And not bc I couldn’t afford it but bc of my record! So after blowing money for a cpl mos on hotels my family got fed up and left me alone, broke, homeless and miserable! Im so heartbroken right now! The pain I feel inside is unbearable! Im so worthless! How pathetic must I be to not be able to house my family! This has shown […]

2/10/2015 6 comments

Valentines day? what?

by Silverbird 2/8/2015

written by Silverbird

I remember last year, I got a really adorable card for someone 1000 miles away that I’d probably never meet anyways…

Someone who would always let me pester then about maybe being in a relationship one day, and gently push me towards finding someone else, the whole ’emotional support’ spheal all along the way…

Someone who, for one of the first times I really felt like saying the hell with it and shooting myself, I wanted to keep talking to all the way to the end…that eventually made me feel like I couldn’t, somehow….

I still have the card, of course…they just wanted pictures of it, rather than […]

2/8/2015 15 comments

My Liary

by strawberrygashes 2/7/2015

written by strawberrygashes

Its been so long since Ive been happy. Day in and day out I yearn to just bleed, to let it out, to let go. All the pain of my life. Some 30 years of nothing but disappointments and pain. They say that the only thing that life promises is suffering. I say they are right. Its a sick twisted world that I have chosen to bring children into. I met the love of my life and now I dont even care if it all ends. He cant even be enough to keep me here. We have a baby. Its still not enough. What I […]

2/7/2015 4 comments

When you just want to hurt yourself for a change.

by distraught.server 2/6/2015

written by distraught.server

Have you ever just been tired? I mean exhausted, used up, nothing left… I feel this way constantly.

My life isn’t the worse, I’ve had ups and downs, like everyone. I’ve had those who have wanted to hurt me and those who have wanted to help. I’ve had family defend and offend me. I’ve had opportunity knock and doors close. But it’s not so much the ups and downs of it all. I mean, I know things happen all the time. Good things, bad things, nothing, something… these are just events. However as humans, I believe we tie ourselves to these life events. We allow them to […]

2/6/2015 1 comment

fuck reality , fuck real life , fuck real world , because reality / real-world / real-life is boring ! Imagination /dreams / fantasy is better than reality / real-world / real-life !

by niki 2/5/2015

written by niki

I think (some) people would agree that our everyday’s reality / real life / real world life is boring, mundane, repetitive routines, jobs, to make money, and even the ‘fun’ stuff like party, sex, dance, etc in the end still can’t beat our wildest dreams / imagination / fantasy .

Movies , video games , comics , books , novels , anime , manga often are a HUNDRED times much more interesting than this mundane, dull, LIMITED / LIMITING, boring reality / boring reallife / boring realworld !
eg: Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Avatar, X-Men, Marvel heroes / comics , Star Wars, Star Trek, […]

2/5/2015 2 comments

Living a curse

by Shigari 2/4/2015

written by Shigari

I went on a trip last week. It was really fun-the sites, the trains, the plane, the hikes and so much more were all unique experiences. I guess it was a taste of freedom. Yet as always, when I returned, my life was still here. I got my exam results which were published during the trip. All the hard work, all the pain, all the anguish.. Meant nothing. I am nothing. I thought that really focusing and working hard would help me… But it didn’t work!!

It let me taste heaven if just for an instant before plunging me back to hell. This […]

2/4/2015 2 comments

what the fuck

by contrast 2/4/2015

written by contrast

The people who live in this world are all pieces of shit and some are even worse than me. Wrost of all the majority can’t even see that their lives are worthless.

Life doesn’t have a meaning so they try their hard to find something to fullfil the fucking hole in the middle of their chests. And they think that’s OK.

I just don’t kill myself because I’m too afraid of what happens then. So I’ll have to fight for something I don’t want and see the world like a fucking rainbow and be HOPEFUL.

FUCK THIS SHIT.

2/4/2015 5 comments

Grim Circles

by LadyAtronach 2/4/2015

written by LadyAtronach

I’m very new to this site, I was searching for something a lot darker than this forum, and ended up finding this instead.

I relapsed the other night – hard – in every sense of the word. I began drinking again, I sliced my arms up, watching as the blood from my new wounds uncovered marks I made long ago; when I claimed I was done cutting and everything else the first time.

I hate this, I mean, I really loathe falling back into the same hole I promised I’d never find myself in again! But it’s whatever. I end up dead tomorrow, and nothing else would change. […]

2/4/2015 22 comments

Everyone is suicidal…everyone

by ofifoto 2/3/2015

written by ofifoto

I’m suicidal and have been for over 30 years, living one day at a time. That method of surviving has made life long and exhausting. I’m not suicidal because of some previous abuse (physical, sexual, etc.) or anything traumatic such as that. I’ve had a great life by most people’s standards. I just observed early in life as a shy, quiet, Asperger’s kid that there was not much to look forward to other than going through the same motions as everyone else–get educated, further that education, get some sort of job, advance in one’s career, make money, and pay bills–oh, and die. Sure there are […]

2/3/2015 3 comments

Random rant.

by dproduct 2/3/2015

written by dproduct

I’ve always had mental health problems since I first started school. History of substance abuse and violence at home. Being bullied at school and in social settings. I became a loner and have little time for people in real world including my family who I never see now. I’m just sick of the superficial nature of our society and its obsession with money, power, status, image. It makes me sick…quite literally.

I don’t consider myself to be anti-social but that would certainly be a diagnosis of doctors if answering a questionaire. No doubt the solution to my disorder would be a high dose of petrochemical based […]

2/3/2015 2 comments

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