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Stories of Loss

For those who have passed on.

Controlling the thoughts

by marz 6/5/2014

written by marz

Just when I thought that my life was perfect going just right 2 people from my college dare to make me look like such an idiot to my BEST FRIEND! How can they make her choose between me and them, she is my best friend. Now my best friend wants to keep our relationship undercover, how can anyone live like this???? These people do not even know me at all and all of a sudden think that they have the right to judge other people…no one is perfect, especially not them! I feel like my life is crashing down right now and I feel betrayed! […]

6/5/2014 0 comment

RIP Sonnie

by suicide_rampage 6/3/2014

written by suicide_rampage

The darkness consumes me
Like an infection to an open wound:
I was never treated,I was never healed.
Scabbing up and bleeding again,
When will it stop, when will it end?
Darkness brings what daylight fears,
The contagious sorrow that I’ve felt for years.
The cries for help, but no one hears.
The lies of smiles, when really I’m in tears.
This terrible free fall I’m in right now:
I’m scared of hitting the ground, but know I never will.
“Just be strong, I need you now” he said..
But where was I?
And why must he be dead..
I don’t understand, I just don’t […]

6/3/2014 0 comment

Perfectlybroken504

by broken_soul504 5/31/2014

written by broken_soul504

My kik is prefectlybroken504. I need someone to talk to before I walk out my house and go to the nearest bridge and jump. I’m lost and broken and need help picking up the pieces. I don’t want to live but i do. I think my thoughts are getting the best of me. And I don’t know what to do. I’m 22 years old. I’ll be 23 in a few months if I live that long.

5/31/2014 8 comments

The start after the end

by ClosedWounds 5/30/2014

written by ClosedWounds

This is my first post so hey,

Imagery is a weird thing isn’t it?

Since I was 13 I’ve had that sort of ya know emoish look about me, listened to the music, wore the eyeliner, all that sort of stuff. At that time people couldve somehow assumed, because of this “image”, that I was rebellious, depressed and suicidal. But what’s ironic is at that time when I was going through that sort of “phase” none of that applied to me in the slightest. You could say I was one of the most friendliest, world loving emos our there aha.

I was “a goth” before my dad got […]

5/30/2014 3 comments

WTF. Is going on. in my brain.

by MandM 5/29/2014

written by MandM

Hi.. I’m a 24 year old female living in Canada & I’m starting to get scared that I will do something drastic and irreversible. I have gone through periods of depression on and off since I can remember. At first it wasn’t bad.. just low periods that last a few hours. Now it lasts weeks and the good periods in between (in which I am uncharacteristically social and productive) are getting shorter.

A bit of background on me is that I grew up in a very diverse, mixed-up family. I have 5 siblings and all are half-siblings. I am the oldest. I’ve had to choose between […]

5/29/2014 1 comment

I’m choking

by broken_soul504 5/28/2014

written by broken_soul504

I can’t rest, my mind in total chaos. My emotions are doing what they do best, running a muck through my veins flowing to my heart choking me with every thought. I am lost unable to process my thoughts. My voice is gone, I’m choking am I alive? My thoughts wrapped around my throat. As my thoughts continue to flow, the choking keeps growing. My heart beat it’s slowing, my body emotionally dying….

5/28/2014 1 comment

Know the feeling?

by DeathlySweet330 5/28/2014

written by DeathlySweet330

Have you ever felt so much pain from all your hurtful past events that you break down crying? But then there just one event in particular that makes your skin crawl, even the thought of it makes you wanna fall apart right then and there…..You feel like you wanna break down and cry….But nothing comes out, so you sit there completely numb to the world around you, just being consumed by your own thoughts….Constantly asking yourself “Why?”…..Then everything just crashes down before your eyes…….and after a while……you just give in and wait for death…..Know the feeling?

~.Andi.~

5/28/2014 1 comment

Alone and in Pain…

by imjusttired94 5/27/2014

written by imjusttired94

I’m tired. I’m exhausted. I’m fed up.

I’m 20 years old and a juniorÂ in college and I literally don’t have a life. I don’t socialize much. I isolate myself; however, I’m not happy when I do so. I feel lonely and sad.

When I’m alone, my whole life runs through my mind.

When I was in the 12th grade my father got diagnosed with cancer. The doctorsÂ said he had only a few months left. My dad fought hard and stood strong. A year later. The day I was getting ready to leave to start college he passed away. I was completelyÂ heartbroken. Like all the positivity in life got […]

5/27/2014 4 comments

Why am I living.

by Lost_Teen331 5/26/2014

written by Lost_Teen331

Why am i here? Why am I alive? I feel as if i’m alone. An if that’s the case the I WANT TO KILL MYSELF RIGHT NOW !!!

The person I want to be is the one that has a great life because he has actual friends and a family that loves and supports him in his decision. But I know for a fact I have none of that. An i’ll tell you why.

I am not a social person. Iv’e spent my whole time after school at home not with friends. When I try to make friends I end up either trying too hard or just […]

5/26/2014 2 comments

Trapped.

by Shimmer 5/25/2014

written by Shimmer

This is my depression story. The following is a shortened version of my journals. I was 13 years old when I wrote them.

Journal 2013
On march 2, 2013 I decided to “get better” I don’t know hep else to put it xD
on March 3rd, 2013 I told my mum about the (kinda) cutting but not the suicidal thoughts
4th of March: “I am not happy nor sad right now, I feel almost detached from everything” “I am happy for Nicole (she was my best friend in 7-8th grade) but it feels like everyone is moving on while I’m left behind…I feel invisible, a […]

5/25/2014 1 comment

tears, fears, urges and ramblings

by tylar 5/25/2014

written by tylar

Its hard when you don’t really have anyone to turn to, it can be a lonely existence

Over the last year, I’ve learned to keep my mouth shut when I’m around the people in my life, because I know they are no longer interested in what I have to say, or how messed up I feel, but I guess I can’t blame them, but the one thing that makes me angry is when they say ‘I know how you feel’ or ‘I’ve been through the same thing’ its not a competition but if each person suffered the same, one treatment would work for everyone

Lately I’ve formed […]

5/25/2014 3 comments

I just wanted you to want me

by hellblau 5/25/2014

written by hellblau

Â¿What’s the point of having me at your feet? Â If my today, my tomorrow lost the battle of your yesterday.

5/25/2014 0 comment

Life please stay this way

by marz 5/23/2014

written by marz

Life right now is unimaginably amazing. Problem is with life is that just when everything is going great it will find a way to fuck you up. How to keep positive that it won’t? All the times that I have known life has messed me right up as soon as I thought it was going fine. All I can remember was that innocent little girl who thought that life is amazing then one horrible day when she was 12 years old found out how cruel the world was. Age 12 ran away from a rape and worst of all on holiday. These thoughts haunt me […]

5/23/2014 1 comment

I’m here <3

by LovelyDaze 5/22/2014

written by LovelyDaze

Hello all,

I’ve never posted on this site before, but I felt the need to make an account and make one. Â To all that is reading this; to all that feels like no one is there; to all that has contemplated life over and over again and feels the need to end things; to anyone that just needs to share their feelings to… I’m here. Â I have felt what rock bottom feels like and I have been in and out of depression, contemplating suicide a few times in my life. Â I will keep this short and sweet: Â the pain may seem never-ending, but it eventually DOES […]

5/22/2014 2 comments

Live.

by Jane Heperi 5/21/2014

written by Jane Heperi

I know what you’re thinking. ‘It’s another girl trying to stop us from thinking about suicide’. ‘Nothing she’s going to say is going to stop me’. You’re right. There is nothing I can say or do to stop you from this. I don’t know what you’ve all been through; I definitely have no right to tell you that you shouldn’t commit suicide. But what I can tell you is that you’re not crazy. You’re not exaggerating. But most of all, you’re not alone. You’re probably thinking, ‘I’ve heard all this, there’s no point, she doesn’t understand’. You’re right, I don’t understand. But there is something […]

5/21/2014 6 comments

by hellblau 5/20/2014

written by hellblau

Out of time
All out of fight
You are the only thing in life that I’ve got right.

5/20/2014 2 comments

Heartache, don’t you never end?

by Bloody 5/20/2014

written by Bloody

Long story short: So there is this girl. We had crush on each other for very long time, then I had enough courage to tell her what I feel for her and she said she felt the same but she was afraid that I might be in love with someone else. Then we started dating and it lasted 6 months, and then se left me because she had mental problems and she was very confused and hurt inside, and I try to understand that. She even asked me back but I was too hurt and had lost my selfconfidence so we didn’t get back together, […]

5/20/2014 3 comments

All i ever wanted was love…

by DeathlySweet330 5/18/2014

written by DeathlySweet330

All i ever wanted was love, or to be loved by everyone i came in contact with…..But you see….It’s harder for me….Because…Well….I’mÂ ME….Â I’m broken…. And no one wants a broken toy….I know i’m different from everyone else…But that doesn’t mean i have to be treated as such…I just want someone who will love me…for MeÂ and not judge me for my wrongs…I’ve had many friends….But We’ve either drifted away, had a fight, or been back stabbed…I just want someone who won’t walk out when i show signs of mental pain and leave me like road kill…. Just a few days ago i attempted Suicide….but apparently the driver […]

5/18/2014 5 comments

The tunnel

by ertihan 5/17/2014

written by ertihan

I met a friend of mine about eight months ago. Â Prior to that I had no real friends, no one I could talk to. Â I was 27 years old with no girlfriend, no wife, no kids, noÂ life, really. Â And yes, I was kinda suicidal back then too, but only in the vaguest way. Â I had the thoughts, but never took any real action. Â I was just on auto-pilot, living life day-by-day. Â My life consisted of going to work, coming home, playing video games (not even social multi-player ones!) and then sleeping. Â The most boring, staid, ridiculously isolating life you could imagine and IÂ hated it. Â Then […]

5/17/2014 5 comments

Failed attempt. Why?!

by bipolar_and_never_enough 5/14/2014

written by bipolar_and_never_enough

I tried hanging myself with a shoelace just now. I wasn’t off the ground, it was tied around my door handle and the other end my neck while I sat on the ground. I’ve even seen a successful video on this being done and I don’t understand why mine wasn’t successful. Anyway, I could barely breathe and I could feel myself getting lightheaded and my ears even felt weird like almost numb, but I sat there for a very long ass time and did not pass out or die. Wth! Can anyone explain why this could have failed? It was not bc I didn’t wait […]

5/14/2014 6 comments

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