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me against the world

by hateself
written by hateself

i always feel like its just me against the world. Ive always been the kindof person with a sort of protective bubble or shield around me that no one can penetrate i kno my little bubble isnt ideal n wont help me feel any less lonely but it keeps me safe it makes me feel like i can handle things it gives me the confidence to be able to do things and kno that i will withstand the pressures of others. I also focus almost exclusively on myself making sure that when all is said n done that i achieve what i set out to […]

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by dead
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I wish I was a writer so I’d be able to write away these feelings, but I’m not. 26 letters, millions of ways to arrange them, and not a single one can set me free. Loneliness is a bitter thing, the way it creeps up on you. You can be surrounded by people, and still not belong. All I want is a place in this world, people who actually like me and want me around. I don’t want to be known as ___’s friend. I once belonged to a group of friends who decided they were fed up with my shit. The one year we […]

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Morphine

by The Distress
written by The Distress

I was reading an old notebook today and stumbled across a short poem. My friend had written it in there over a year ago. It made me think of her and how she departed the world.

Morphine, you flooded my brain
a temporary relief from mental pain.
I took you doses so stupid high
in the hopes I would never again open my eyes.
Unfortunately hours later I awake
in horror my death was but a fake.
The obvious next step would to seem
to double my dose of Morphine.

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You Never Know What Can Happen.

by Survivor18
written by Survivor18

Let me start of by saying this. Shit really sucks. I know all of you think that getting out is the best way to go. I’m not doing this to change your mind. I’m doing this to make a point. Maybee it will help some of you and maybee it won’t. Who knows. If you have the time. You can keep reading.

I was 11 years old. It was the last day of the 5th grade for me. I had gone home with my bestfriend that day. (She only lived a block away from me.) We were so Excited school was out, and we had the […]

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Don’t know what i expect

by WillCSoon
written by WillCSoon

Title says it all, i’m not really sure what i expect from here but i found this site when i was looking for the fastest least painful way to die.  I’ve tried before, managed to stop my heart for a bit by drowning but my ex gave me CPR.  Tried walking in front of a train but the cops arrested me for trespassing.  Everything started getting better when i went to a shrink and got put on some meds, thing is i hear and see things no one else can they called it paranoid schizophrenia.  The meds and shrink helped a lot but i lost […]

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I want to be free…

by NERVdamage
written by NERVdamage

Most of my life I was never a fan of myself and my life. Anxeity and depression secretly ruled it even beyond my own knowledge.  17 was the beginning of my downfall.  Had little to no friends despite moving back to where I grew up. I changed for the worse…  Couldn’t just be me.  My friends wern’t interested in that person and I really don’t blame them.  I couldn’t be me because I was too busy feeding what would eventually be my eating disorder.  A girl I was getting close to changed when I admitted this to her.  She never talked to me the same […]

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what to do

by ireallydontknow
written by ireallydontknow

i really don’t know what to do with myself and my life i mean lol i’ve diagnosed myself with paranoid schizophrenia i hear voices all the time (2 to be exact) i’ve had this ailment from about the time my mother passed away when i was 14 going in to 15 at first the voices helped me to cope with her loss and to bear with my other family and mental abuse i got when i was growing up from my father’s replacement woman sigh…. it was cool i was able to cope laugh at myself and move on now i’m 24 and these voices […]

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by dead
written by dead

I

am so tired

of always getting hurt

when all I ever wanted

was to be loved,

someone to be there for me,

a friend.

I’m sorry I will never

be good enough

for a single person

in this god damn world.

All I wanted was someone

who wouldn’t leave me,

get sick of me,

or find someone better.

Was that so hard to ask for?

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Balloons.

by Pacific
written by Pacific

I reached out to grab you with my short, stubby fingers, but all I grasped was the light that you left in your wake.

 

You are a balloon, filled to the brim with the heaviest helium and I am so small.

 

I fall short of the ribbon you extended me; leaving your words for the wind and your warmth for the sun.

 

The higher you float away, the heavier the atmosphere become and the reality sets in.

 

You’re flying away, casually, floating to a world I am not a part of and my feeble arms cannot extend to your heights.

 

They can’t even graze you.

 

My arms are useless and my […]

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Why I hate my life

by Alliewargox
written by Alliewargox

So I’m gonna get this shit of my chest. I’m insane. I know that now. I’m so close to killing myself. My family are the root of all my insanity. They fought when I was younger and now I have to pay the price. I’ve become Bi-polar, depressed, suicidal and many more things. First off my Mother. She can be a great mom sometimes and I do love her but she is an idiot most of the time. My Brother is horrible. He is 18 and still living with our parents and doesn’t have a job or go to collage. He treats my mom like […]

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Sucide

by kadencooper
written by kadencooper

I am 12

I am 12

I feel like I want to do sucide because of how kids say I’m annoying and that I’m a idiot,I have even inflected pain on my self making my hands bleed or cutting stuff,I luv this girl at school but I can’t just tell her that and her freainds hate my guts I have been near her since 3rd grade she blushes around me but what ever I do at school just makes me feel sadder,there’s no other way to stop this pain but death let’s see how […]

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Seventeen.

by Pacific
written by Pacific

As a young girl, I once wrote a song.

It was a song that was written with a friend, so naturally, it was a duet. Our song had no words; it was just casually pounded out on the black and white keys of my 1910 Steinway with our short, clumsy fingers. We laughed and proclaimed parts of the song as pieces of the scenery.

“This is the leaves outside the house,” my friend mused, playing a quick, repetitive melody.

“Then this is the sound of the wind, moving the leaves!” I countered, excited that I had won that insignificant bout that transpired between no one but myself.

And so […]

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The Aftermath.

by tryingtorecover
written by tryingtorecover

Life is so fragile. But it’s painful when someone you love gives it up. That what my dad did when I was only 3. And I hate him for it. I’m not trying to sound bratty but he abandoned me, he never loved me. People always think that I can just tough it out, well they don’t know how painful it is either. I just found out this knews when I was 14. And I just don’t know what to do anymore. Why did it have to be my dad?. Why didn’t he love? Why? I don’t know what to do with myself. No one knows […]

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It gets better songs

by lonelyduck
written by lonelyduck

When I feel like shit I listen to my special playlists about getting better. Please listen to them thet realy help.

*Giving up the gun
*Tomorrow will be kinder
*Concrete Angel
*Elenor Rigby
*Invisble
*How to save a life
*Warrior
*It’s Amazing
*Bluebird
*The day nobody dies
*Same love
*Battle Scars
*Brave

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I’ve become a worst person

by nerevars
written by nerevars

You know that character from movie or story that always make a mistakes and screwed up even at a simplest task? I’ve become that person. I don’t know why but I feel whatever choice I make or anything I do always end up wrong.

Is there any connection between my stupidity and my (self diagnosed, I haven’t go to psychologist) Bipolar Disorder?

This whole ordeal makes me think that I don’t belong here and it feels bad, that I think if I were gone, everything would be so much better without me.

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Too Much Pain

by tryingtorecover
written by tryingtorecover

When I was 3 my father commited suicide. I was told this on my 14th birthday the age I am currently at now. When I heard the news it changed my view of him. How can I forgive a man who basically abandoned me. How can forgive a man who never even loved me. I mean seriously if he truly loved me he would have stayed with me and my mom and my brother. It funny how people are soo “blessed” to have a father. But, am I even blessed to not have one. I feel as if I’m in darkness and stuck there and […]

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The Story of A Teenager I Met On The Bridge…..

by The Distress
written by The Distress

Sunday night I took a walk along a bridge that I like to call Bridge Four in the city of Louisville, which I unfortunately live in. It was dark, cold, snowy, icy, and windy. I was talking along and spotted a kid up along the rail of this bridge: he was peering out into the distance, just watching the dark water below as the currents passed. As I approached closer, thinking that I would just walk by, he spotted me and asked me if I had a cigarette. Now I don’t usually smoke but once a week at the most, but as it would be […]

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