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Suicidal Survivors

For those who have survived suicide.

hmm.. What to do..

by MarryJayne17 10/9/2013

written by MarryJayne17

Hey, I’m new to this site, I have been reading posts on it every night for a while now, and always intended to make an account but haven’t until today. I know that no one know anything about me, or that i even exist, so this probably won’t get read, but just figured i’d see if it helps to write how I feel instead of keeping it to myself like i always do. I’m sorry that this is so long, i guess, if your bored, have fun. but i doubt anyone will read it anywasys, and if you do, you most likely won’t finish it. […]

10/9/2013 3 comments

My Suicidal Story

by empty_girl 10/8/2013

written by empty_girl

Why do bullies exist? I’ve been bullied since the age of 7, I’m currently 15 years old and still get made fun of. I’m not a fan of social networks because every time I get on something I get some sort of message that would tell me to kill myself and that no one cares about me. I’m young and I let all this get to me. At the age of 10, I wasn’t only thinking suicidal thoughts but also actions.. I started cutting myself, but on my body where no one would see the scars. Cutting myself was my drug, I got so addicted […]

10/8/2013 3 comments

h2s suicide.

by bookends 10/4/2013

written by bookends

Last night I attempted to commit suicide using the “detergent suicide” method. Unfortunately, it did not work out the way I had hoped. I am unsure if I should have doubled the amount of lime sulfur & toilet bowl cleaner. Basically I got in my car, mixed up the chemicals and for a few seconds the signature “rotten egg” smell was very apparent but then olfactory fatigue kicked in as has been mentioned. I started taking deep breaths of the mixture and in about 1 minute I began to feel as if there was no air to breath. I tried to remain calm, but my […]

10/4/2013 6 comments

You’re tearing me apart.

by hellblau 10/2/2013

written by hellblau

You’re tearing me apart,
When I can’t stop thinking and lock myself in my mind.

You’re tearing me apart,
When You’re always on my head and You’re forcing me to stop thinking of myself.

You’re tearing me apart,
When you want me to stop living, and concentrate on your feelings.

You’re tearing me apart,
Cause while time passes, flowers are dying and so am I.

You’re tearing me apart,
When You’re giving me reasons to not fight and give up on myself.

You’re tearing me apart,
All I can feel is the pain that you left and is keeping me by your side.

Without being there with you, but in your […]

10/2/2013 0 comment

That faded smile

by .marie. 9/29/2013

written by .marie.

Faded smile. It can say a lot, or it can say nothing at all. As a kid you have a smile that just brightens everyone’s day. But as you get older you may still have that smile and it may still brighten everyone’s day but the one person who needs it the most is you and your smile doesn’t help you. Years go by, friends get lost, deaths appear, heartbreaks… Things that as a kid never existed. Soon we are shown that our lives are in our own hands. That we just as much as others can take it away just like that. And soon […]

9/29/2013 4 comments

My last breath is now my first.

by .marie. 9/29/2013

written by .marie.

I want you to think of something, but not just anything. About you. About you life. Ever wondered how many people around you actually care and how many are just people waiting for gossip. Or if the people you loved so very much would care if you just one day disappeared. See I recently discovered just how many people “care”. We try to hide the things we love the most, and that’s exactly what I did. For many years I had a best friend. Someone who knew everything about me and the one person I thought really cared. I chose not to see who she […]

9/29/2013 2 comments

The ANIMA SERIES

by theforgottenfew 9/25/2013

written by theforgottenfew

THE ANIMA SERIES

Look the channel up on YouTube if you want.
***They are Christian messages***
I just wanted to let that be known, I’m not shoving religion down anyones throat, I just wanted to share some videos I found to be very uplifting. Even if your not Christian some of these messages are still really good to hear.
I also don’t care if anyone is offended by this, if anyone is then they have a problem because there is much worse in the world today.

9/25/2013 0 comment

Hello Beautifuls (:

by vaaaaanna 9/25/2013

written by vaaaaanna

Wow it’s been awhile since I last read through all these stories.

All I have to say to all you beautiful human beings that are feeling low and depressed, or thinking of the most craziest shit to do? Is SMILEEEEEEE (: From one ear to another, stretch that smile of yours. Who knows, you might just make someones day with that beautiful smile.

Be happy, or well you could TRY and be happy. If it doesn’t work? Smoke a blunt. haha kidding (: Have a dance in your room, put those earphones on maximum volume and dance like its the end of the world. I promise you, […]

9/25/2013 4 comments

Mommy, I need you

by Sunnygirl1 9/23/2013

written by Sunnygirl1

I need my mommy.

Part of me hates her for killing herself, but the other part of me desperately wants her back.

Maybe if the little girl I once was grew up with her mother, I’d be okay.

Why’d she leave me? I cry about her every night.

She chose to leave me. She won’t be at my graduation, she won’t be at my wedding, she won’t be here when I have my first child.

She’s gone and I’ll never get her back.

9/23/2013 9 comments

Tell

by hellblau 9/19/2013

written by hellblau

“Somehow I’m gonna lose you, cause You’re not mine, and You’ll never be.
It hurts cause I want us to happen. I was us to be. I could bet that deep inside you, you feel the same way for me. I need a sign before is too late. I can’t tell you how much I need you, how much I love you, how much I want you. Before is too late, please be with me before I’m dead.”

9/19/2013 0 comment

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRISTEZA!!!!

by theforgottenfew 9/18/2013

written by theforgottenfew

HEY TRISTEZA JUST WANTED TO WISH YOU A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I LOVE YOU GIRL!!! <3

9/18/2013 2 comments

Not strong anymore

by Jazintaa 9/15/2013

written by Jazintaa

Lately, i don’t know how to deal with my life, i’ve been having so many suicidal thoughts. I can’t handle it anymore, i feel like i have no one to talk to, and the people i could talk to probably wouldn’t care. No one really knows the true side of me or how i really feel. I know the consequences if i do commit suicide, i would miss my family and my nephew he wouldn’t understand, all he would know is that he would never be able to see his aunty again, i just couldn’t hurt him like that, he looks up to me.. I […]

9/15/2013 2 comments

I’m ALIVE

by Makenzie 9/14/2013

written by Makenzie

I am 16 right now. I would not be 16 if it hadn’t been for a mircale.
I was that kid who always seemed to be followed around by bullies. I had constant thoughts about what the world would be like if I were not in it and once even asked my friends if they would miss me if I were gone. Of course they said they would, but then, I didn’t believe them.
One day, I was walking home from school and I saw a big semi-truck coming my direction. The light had just turned green for him.
I thought about how painless and […]

9/14/2013 0 comment

Cantankerous but still kicking…

by tbd 9/13/2013

written by tbd

Hello. Â I’m new here, but I’ve been reading posts for days. Â I can empathize, truly, but try to hear me.

I can relate. As an emerging teen, I had deep times of depression. I tried to kill myself when I was 21, and came very close again when I was 30. As time went on, I just would be dismissive. “It’s just depression” I’d tell myself, “it will pass”, and I was right.

Several years ago, I found myself at an unlikely place, someone’s home where a church group met. (This is not a God endorsement.) The leader shared […]

9/13/2013 3 comments

The Clown can laugh again

by TheSadClown 9/11/2013

written by TheSadClown

Hey guys,

I know how all of you feel. Suicidal, alone, and depressed.

I knew that feel for 12 years now, I weren’t alone but I thought I were, I didn’t see no friends, not my girlfriend, I thought they were fakers, they were laughing at me, I couldn’t even see that my girlfriend loves me. why would she, I’m a 24/7 depressed person who couldn’T help her at anything, who does so much, and I didn’t see how much she has done for me, it all started in the year 2000. My father left my mother and was gone, for a long time, till I saw […]

9/11/2013 1 comment

An anomaly – aware – Broadcasting into open air. A girl.

by cosmic_ghost 9/11/2013

written by cosmic_ghost

I once knew a girl who carried death in her purse. It rattled every bump of the road 65mph torwards oblivion. She drove up and texted me “lets go”. I told her anytime-anywhere a day before. I dropped everything
and got inside knowing death was on her mind. We told each other our souls down Interstate 5 between songs we used to love together. But this is not a love story. This is about grown ups who went different ways
with different lives a long time ago. When I found out we were going to Portland I injected my distate. That’s fine, it was not […]

9/11/2013 3 comments

I’m Tired

by redrum99 9/11/2013

written by redrum99

hi, i am 20 years old and i’m currently studying overseas from my country. the first time i wanted to kill myself was when i was in the 4th grade (8 years old). and since then, every time i got a problem, i always thinking of suicide. i used to cut my wrist and taking sleeping pills when i was in junior high school. i have lots of problems with my family, school, and sometimes boyfriend. i just moved here 3 months ago and every night before i go to bed i always pray and ask to God what am i doing here, in this […]

9/11/2013 1 comment

survivor at the momment

by deadontheinside 9/8/2013

written by deadontheinside

To whomever will listen,

2 years ago my mom passed away of an accidental overdose ever since then my life has been awful. Before my mom passed away it was crap, but it got worse. She past away when Â i was in 7th grade it seems like yesterday. In 9th grade during a school break i was alone watching my neighbors house for her since she trusts me and she was away for the week. During the time she was gone my friend offered to get me fucked up i turned her down because i wasn’t ready to fuck up, but just a day later everything […]

9/8/2013 5 comments

I’m awake and I’m alive and I know what I believe inside

by theforgottenfew 9/8/2013

written by theforgottenfew

This song…it’s hitting home tonight…

Skillet – Awake and Alive

9/8/2013 4 comments

Ramblings

by David 9/7/2013

written by David

It’s been a tough few months for me lately.

Some days i hide it well, others, not so much.
Some days I am sat on my own in my bedroom and I feel so low I have no idea where to go or what to do.
I consider whether my next breath is worth taking dozens of times a day.
Some nights i go to sleep and admit to myself that not waking up; well it wouldn’t be so bad.
Sometimes i will try to talk family or friends but they are always seeming so happy that I don’t want to spoil their day so I […]

9/7/2013 4 comments

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