An Overall Feeling Of Untapped Anger Ludicrous Expression Of My Burning Nauseous Stomach And Dissociation That Pierces My Soul And The Lust Of The Universe A Sedated Feeling Of Sorrow Contempt And Hatred Low Octave Starvation And Slow Sweet Whispers Of Foreboding.

I’ve lost it. I’ve gone completely insane. I had stuff here, now it’s gone. Maybe it’s for the best. Maybe it never happened. I have a hard time thinking. It’s impossible not to sound like a whiny, punk ***** when I try to explain my situation. I come off as pretentious, hypocritical and mean-spirited. Maybe I am. Sorry for the spam, but I just […]

Lately I’ve been having more of these relapses and hurting myself I want someone and I need some one to just help me with this ive been getting them mpre then usual now I dont know why

Hi guys I’m back my computer broke and I got a new phone so here I am how are you guys and also been busy with the band

Do you ever feel a nagging feeling of emptiness and disappointment? At first it’s small and easily ignored. Then, it grows and becomes a weight on your shoulders until it bogs you down til you cannot move. Do you ever feel so depressed and lost that any relationships or interactions seem like so much work and effort? You don’t even feel connections anymore. You just feel empty…moving through the actions without much thought. It all seems like ceremony anymore.

I feel like this everyday and I don’t know how to escape. I no longer feel love, compassion, sympathy, hate, anger…nothing. All I feel is an odd […]

Still looking for a friend and a place to crash out of Southern California. I have money for small rent and food. We’ll go party if you want, or do whatever. Let’s do this.

and all sp users reply YES

WHY THE FUCK CAN’T YOU BE THERE FOR ME WHEN I NEED YOU?  OUT OF ALL THE TIMES I’VE BEEN HURT, OR SCARED, OR SAD, OR BULLIED, WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU. OF COURSE YOU’RE THERE EVERYTHING TIME I MADE A MISTAKE, ALWAYS QUICK TO POINT IT OUT. BUT IN ALL REALITY, HOW ARE YOU A PARENT?

This is a link to a scene from Moulin Rouge, Elephant Love Medley

I normally hate anything happy, but this is much more than puppies and sunshine happiness.

It has depth, and it carries with it a degree of emotion and story depth that I didn’t think was possible to fit into 4 and a half minutes

I was impressed with it, even awed by it, and I wanted to share it with all of you.

Feel free to comment, and include more links to songs you love if you wish!

TaTa

http://vimeo.com/58465513

That when i think of most people dying and going to hell, and me going to heaven and finally being away from them for eternity…it makes me laugh and smile?

Do you ever feel so empty you don’t know what to do with yourself? Do you ever feel that whenever you try to cheer yourself up, you never can succeed? Do you ever feel like your such a disappointment to the world, because you never can do anything right? Ever feel that you’re not really needed to anyone? Ever feel that you will never find friendship, love, or a true meaning in life? Yeah, this is me. Anyone else?
Haven’t posted in sometime, sorry people.

I wonder if I’m mad.

At times I feel so content with life

and the next moment I’m loathing it.

I want to be special, that elite, that genius, that child prodigy,

And yet when I look back ,

all I want is a simple life , a simple home, and experience that simple happiness.

Depressing thoughts come swiftly in my mind,

whispering such tempting and soothing threats,

and only with it do I feel alive.

Am I twisted, a lunatic , a mad man for thinking such a thing?

It feels as though despair has becomed my only friend.

And without it I feel incomplete.

Despair, it is the black of the night,

and the night of […]

I’m absolutely fucked. No one knows but its true. If your read this through than you’ll know but those that know me they won’t know, i’ll make sure of it. I’m 18 years old, just finished high school and going to be starting college next year. This absolutely should be the best time of my life right, or at least that’s what all those movies made me believe. I’m the one in the family that you probably get compared to. The one who is polite and behaves and has never had a boyfriend even though shes smart and easy to talk to. The reality is […]

At this point I have been having thoughts of doing this for a week. I just can’t do it anymore. I haven’t been happy. I am so hurt and won’t ever be happy again. I am as low as a person can ever get and just keep getting hurt and cry all the time cuz nothing gets better. I already have all my goodbyes written and goodbye videos. I have my notes in place and I have no emotions anymore. I know how I am going to do this. And right now, it will be done tomorrow.

In my head i died two months ago

I had moved to the big city, crowded with too many people, living in a small bedroom , all so that i could accomplish my long life goal of succeeding as an artist. But my illusions broke like a millions of shards of glass when i came confronted to the reality that i didnt  had any more of my hard earned money to keep this dream alive, and after giving so much energy, i found myself at 24 years old, alone, broke, and with no one  to speak to with no more energy to spare. I had 2 […]

I don’t understand why people try to sugarcoat self harm & suicide. Just stop. Stop thinking of it as a beautiful tragedy or a ‘tiger who earned their stripes.’ It’s really annoying. OH, and my favorite is when people don’t care about you until something bad happens. Fuck everyone. I hate society, I really do. Back to the sugarcoating part. It’s almost like people like to encourage self harm. You think that people are proud of the things they do? Things like this? Wow. Get your shit together people. I am proud of people who fight against hate though, you walk around with scars showing? […]

It dawned on me a moment ago that its very possible it could happen. Although I’d like to think you’re a stronger person than that, I felt I had to tell my end of it..
When you left me here alone, you took a part of me I can never get back. Not just your love and affection and the world beneath my feet.. But you took away my reason to fight, my reason to live. And because you knew it would destroy me, and still felt it was for the better, that part of me that fought for something more left with my undying […]

I don’t know what love is anymore which also made me depressed partly because the only girl i would say i love since 4 years is in america (im in china). I had different things that made me emotionally crippled as i would say myself because i don’t know what love is anymore or better said i can’t really love anyone truly right now (same with hating someone). This also helped me to become sick of life and me trying to end it.. Ive tried it several ways one of them was an overdose of drugs..

If anyone could tell me what love is means or […]

One day Love and Friendship met.
Love asked”why do you exist when I already exist?”
Friendship smile and said”to put a smile where you leave tears”
what do you think?
Is it true/ beautiful?

There was a time when i posted my sad story on this forum.To be honest i never want to remember those moments again in my whole life. But I definitely want to remember and thanks to this forum, that today i am a better person.

I met somebody through this forum who really helped me to overcome those bad days. I would like to do the same with people out here. I want to help you all and make you feel comfortable. I want you all to know that i will always be there if anyone needs me then feel free to msg me on inhellut@gmail.com