Is it wrong for someone under extreme pain to end it the only way they can? I don’t think so. If my life is hell why shouldn’t I be allowed to end it? If it’s mine I’m going to do what I want with it. It’s not your choice, it’s mine, I don’t care if my choices hurt you. That’s on you, not me.
I stand looking at myself in the mirror and what do I see….?
One bloody mess.
I hate everything I see….
I seem…. so unreal to me
….I’m in utterly disbelief….
Hands bloody…arms bloody… face bloody….
the blade is my best friend and my lover.
We go together like ice and vodka..
I feel I’m in hell… I’m tormented in this shell..
I slice open, watching my flesh strip away…
While my mind goes into a relaxing place….. I feel good now… well almost… let me go a little deeper… almost there!…just a little deeper…now I’ve climax into one unemotional mess… now I hate myself…For […]
My mother has always suffered from severe, chronic (mono-polar) depression, and constant suicidal ideation. My brother and I inherited/learned this, but I am the only one in our family who has become “actively” suicidal. So far I’ve been committed more than a dozen times to various laughing academies for the spiritually bewildered, not to mention 3 comas, and other extended stays in hospital ICU’s due to my addiction to self abbreviation. I was even dead for more than two glorious, velvet black minutes, before they revived me […]
Sick of people telling me there will be monsters and deep dark caverns of doom if I kill myself. That’s a pile of horseshit. Not a single one of you know what happens after death and I don’t give a fuck for any opinions based on nothing but your own twisted imaginations. You think there is nothingness? Good for you. You might be in for a surprise.
Off anti-psychotics, I can see things clearly. Life is a never-ending circle of betrayal, shallow people, and morons complaining about ‘oh today I got a bad grade or he/she doesn’t like me.’ Get over yourself. There are people with […]
So what… Keep trying, uh? The story must begin with a crew. The “bebop” genre description describes it all fully well. I don’t know exactly how it goes…. somewhere along outside the box, but not really. But anyway, as I’ve mentioned, I am here seeking the ‘Pilgrimage’, becoming my tribal name of faith. A tribal, that’s what it’s suppose to be about. Me and my own one in a million, fated. I read elsewhere how like… Wiccan is referred to as a way of life, which then made more sense to me, based, on the living myth.
Oblivious. A suffering fetus. Mother, cow, a celestial mind. […]
Hey guys,
So this is for for any of you who are feeling as if they can’t cope anymore or if you’re feeling alone and you want to make new friends, I’m the guy to see. c: Plus, it’d be a much better email to read than one from FasterLouder, Facebook, Twitch, Twitter, Jay Jays, or Quicksilver. -.-
So the address is: dconnolly96@hotmail.com (What, were you expecting boobielover_69?) You can talk to me about what you’re dealing with and how you’re coping with it, advice on things, just if you need someone to talk to, really.
Can’t wait to hear from y’all. n.n
The worst feeling for me is when my mum sees my cuts and scars and just gives me the most disgusted look and says “just stop that.. its wrong”.
Thanks mum i feel the love
hello. I’m kaelyn. I’m 15. this is the part of my story that isn’t so great but i figured that I need to start somewhere.
my parents were 18 when I was born. they weren’t together. I want born into a freakishly religious family. I am not religious at all.
anyways.
I think that the bad thoughts (hurting myself, wanting to die) began around age 8. my mom had a boyfriend who lived with us and my sister was 4. my mom worked all the time. her boyfriend was very abusive. one of the last things i witnessed him do was hold my mom in the air and […]
I’ve spent the last 48 hours sitting, walking, cooking…Not hungry. I start pacing. Hello panic attacks…Nothing is really helping. Someone shared a suicide story on Facebook. Great, I decided to watch it. I”m completely beside myself. I go to youtube in the hopes of listening to some music that will help and I find more “suicide hope” videos. Yeah…I’m filled with the hope of an end someday. They all seem to outline my issues in a glorified, filtered image.
Another panic attack. My heart is going to give out before I can commit at this point. I’ve started to cross into the realm of being so […]
So im sequoia.
my fight and my story might not be as bad as yours, but sadness is sadness. depression is depression. there shouldnt be a competition of who has it worse. so if you’re gonna tell me my problems arent shit, get the hell out.
anybutts,
Hiya c: im a 13 year old girl.
8th grade.
with depression
severe anxiety
and a fucked up family.
soooo here’s my story.
aye you sexy butt hole (;
wtf is wrong with me cx.
srry anyways,
it started when i was 7. my parents were in the middle of a divorce, and i didnt know it at the time but my mom was addicted to drinking and smoking. she […]
Hello,I have planned to end my life soon.I find it better than wasting time wandering around for help,which,in my case,i never got.
I am 18 yrs old.My family are religious fanatics.The kind of people who would run to God for every silly thing.They are weak people.Never gained the strength to live life.And they tried really hard to instill this “attribute” or “goodness” in me.But i simply dont understand all this nonsense.My mother has separated from my dad 5 yrs back.And shez extremely touchy and volatile.I cannot share anything with her as things blow up out of control.
I am left all alone now.I have lost my esteem;much […]
Hey guys. My “story” isn’t nearly as traumatizing as any of yours, and I almost feel as though I’m wasting your time, so I apologize.
I was a fairly normal kid, or whatever normal is supposed to be. I had a best friend, someone who loved me, tons of persons to talk to (yes, that is the grammatically correct way to address them). Or at least I thought I did.
See, I’ve always had moments of sadness. Just “off” days. I would wake to see rain and heavy skies when it was sunshine for everyone else. It wasn’t until November of 2012 that I had a “reason”. […]
Why must I suffer from all the inconveniences life decides to push my way? …. Why must my loved ones have to died and leave my life when I needed them most?.. It’s not fare I must suffer the daily burdens of pain and misery with guilt from family and so called “friends” that have only managed to make me feel terrible about myself.. life has to be cruel to men and so I dont need this life. I have decided what I want to do and I am sure I will never have to burden anyone again with my HUMAN problems..goodbye and I hope […]
Just told my current manager that I was ready to hang myself, but I think that he thought I was just making a statement, seeing as I was dealing with a difficult customer. He even said “I’ll join you”. Lol
Living hurts. The people who used to make me happy now tear away at my sanity, even without meaning to. I watch tons of porn daily, and whenever I go a day without porn I spend it being a lazy fuck. HOW DID I EARN THIS LIFE? HUH? ANSWER ME DAMMIT!!!! It’s like death is a release even if I do go to hell I’ll at least know why. I go to a therapist, take happy pills, and fantasize about me dying. I like to think that I’ll die quickly but brutally so I’ll go out in kick ass way. I pray every day […]
This is my first. I just have to get it out. All the reasons I hate myself. They make you believe that the happy pills will make it all better. I’ve been on them for three months, and here I am. Still depressed, still alone, still misunderstood. The main reason I hate myself is because I’m addicted to porn. All you people who are gonna say it’s natural shut the hell up and look somewhere else. I don’t care if it’s natural. I don’t care if the freaking pope did it. He’s not me. Do you know what it’s like to be called disgusting by […]
I am quiet because it pushes normal people away and attracts the ones who will understand. I cut because I like the way it feels. I am addicted to the pain. I don’t feel like myself if I can’t see a scar. I am emo. If you ask how I am I will say I’m fine, because you can’t understand. I used to be like you. I’m human, just a strange type. If I could only take off the mask you could see me. But the problem is, I don’t remember what I am without putting on a show. If I were to tell you […]
So I’m 24.
I am on the edge of understanding, people say like a baby bird getting ready to leap from the nest for the first time. but it feels like the closer i get to the edge i will either fall down and my wings will give out with nothing to break my fall… Or life will head off in an infinite spiral of discovery with joy beyond my wildest dreams. -.-
I am super attached to my ego and pain, I am self destructive and use that to put off rebirth.
First some background…
I am of illegitimate birth, when I was born my father never touched […]
I feel I don’t exist and don’t have anyone to talk or to relate to. I feel invisible to the world. The only time people do notice me, is when out in public and I’m going thru my anxiety attacks. Yeah.. they notice alright. They either laugh, call me crazy, or walk away from me if they near by. It’s so embarrassing! I don’t know what brings them on, that’s why I try to stay self medicated when I go out. I’ve tried medicine for all of my disorders or illnesses, including the Anxiety, but they either make me feel worse or I can’t function […]
no one knows what am going thru, life is just one big fucking joke to me and no one cares. i cry myself to sleep every night. I’m so fucking useless that y everyone walks out of my life. They dnt care about me. as soon as i die everyone will be so glad im gone. thats if they even remember i exist