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my brother… he needs help. He attacked me and i accidentally cut him with a plate that i was holding in my hand. im scared and shaking and really hurt how he could do that to me. now he is justifying himself to my mom. “defending himself”… thats not how it happened he knows that or maybe he really is crazy. i need to leave this house for a breather
I made it through the day, even smiled a bit with a bit of optimism. Hope you all held on. Time to try and get some studying done. Best wishes to everyone.
If anyone out there enjoys The Hives, enjoy with me please.
Feeling pretty fucking awesome,
PURPLEPAIN
but i guess it makes my problems less important
every few days i find the idea of a drug addict life more and more attractive
maybe the short lived thrill seems better than no thrill at all
i want to be in partial control. experience “happiness” and do it over again
then when i get tired of it, do my big finale
sounds stupid but thats what i want. i gave up on wanting the better things. odds are slim and get slimmer every day
i cant explain it. i dont want anything. i want to die
Teen dies by suicide in Edmonton group home
www.edmontonjournal.com
Twice in the past week and three in the last couple of weeks I’ve talked myself out of suicide. I don’t understand why I can’t just do it. Everyone I thought were friends have decided they’re suddenly bored of me and won’t really speak to me and the one man who keeps telling me how he’s always going to be there for me hasn’t been lately. My family won’t believe I’m as unwell as I am because they don’t see mental illness as a legit ting. I’m so tired of crying myself to sleep every single night.
I’m just tired.
After almost a year on medication, I have slipped back into depression. I have gone back to everything I used to be and now I am plagued with the same deafening negative thoughts that haunt my every waking minute. I want someone to talk to, someone anonymous that will let me talk about my issues without ignoring me or even becoming too concerned, or frightened…
If there is anyone on here that wants this from someone as well (and preferably lives in Australia so we can text) I will happily be that person for you, if you are willing to be that person for me.
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I met a friend of mine about eight months ago.  Prior to that I had no real friends, no one I could talk to.  I was 27 years old with no girlfriend, no wife, no kids, no life, really.  And yes, I was kinda suicidal back then too, but only in the vaguest way.  I had the thoughts, but never took any real action.  I was just on auto-pilot, living life day-by-day.  My life consisted of going to work, coming home, playing video games (not even social multi-player ones!) and then sleeping.  The most boring, staid, ridiculously isolating life you could imagine and I hated it.  Then […]
I’m struggling. My brain is in fog. I feel like I’m grasping to get a hold of my thoughts but they slip through my fingers like smoke. I can’t focus, I can’t think, I can’t concentrate. I’m meant to be writing for a big project, but just can’t get a hold. I know that it is in my head somewhere but it may as well be covered in lard for all I can get a grip on it. I know I can be so much better than this but it is all so exhausting, I am tired and I am lost like this. I just […]
Soeymeone else just posted this video:
What a coincidence…..I arrived home in PHX a few hours ago after spending a few hours on the GGB…I think I know pretty much all there is to know about what happens when you hit the water, so in watching this video I learned zilch. The majority of it was a guilt trip placed on people who choose to die this way. It was mostly about the “collateral” damage done to those who remain.
Frankly, I am sick of hearing this. If I ever decide to “go through with it” I will have no guilt about doing so (in advance, of […]
I am not a beautiful mature girl like my eldest sister. I’m not rational and nihlistic like my older brother. I’m not brimming with positive enthustistic attitude by my second older sister. I am the ‘problem child’ since the very beginning I’ve been this way. Nightmares that meant I slept in parents bed till I was almost ten. Then I got over that  and got into my head that something magical, an adventure, would find me and when it didnt i decided this world wasnt enough, 11 years old and contemplating suicide…but then I saw the beauty of this world. It might not be new […]
On april 15 i was on fb and my friend messaged me. “Before i take this bottle i want you to know i have always loved you. You were a good friend i hope you do well”
half skimming the message i wrote ” its been awhile we should hang out tommorrow and catch up on things and yor a good friend also” i had to log off cause the library was closing. The next day a friend called and told me that sheena had killed herself lastnight. My heart stopped and i didnt know what to say… Life blows and thats just the way it […]
Why do older people consider themselves wiser and smarter?
They really think that experience defines someone.They say things like : “Poor you! you’re so young.You don’t know what life is.”.It’s really annoying.I’m really sure one can find answers about life through many ways.I didn’t fall in love, I didn’t get married, I didn’t get my own house, I didn’t have sex, I didn’t get my own driver license, I’m not a father or grandfather, I didn’t have a career, I didn’t found true happiness.So what? think I’m upset because I didn’t do everything or good part of the things I could have done or still […]
I am so bloody happy. Life is beautiful.
I haven’t been on here for quite some time, and I’m here now to see if I can make friends, chat about philosophy, and help out a little.
Anyway, I thought a joyful post would be a be something different here.
Have a splendid day/night, darlings!
I can’t really stand to be here for more than a few moments, but I am here to leave an update comparing today to this day last year.
One year ago today I was ready to die. Today is my 29th birthday, and this time last year I was trying to hang myself from a shower stall or from a tree in a campground. It didn’t work out. At 7am the next morning I was dealing with campground staff wondering why my car was in a ditch; the rear hatch window was smashed, and I needed a tow truck to pull out my car. It took a […]
For anyone interested, I had my first ECT session today. I won’t be posting the link again so I don’t annoy people, so if you would like to stay updated on the progress, check back often or just subscribe. I will be having 5 more treatments… Monday, Wed, Fri, Mon, Wed.
Suicide had become so tough now a days.
In future we may come to situation where it is almost impossible for an average person to suicide successfully.
I really feel ashamed for saying I was about to commit suicide in previous posts, I mean, I found Suicide Project about one year ago and at that time I was more caught in despair rather than feeling really really suicidal, probably the you guys don’t even remember me (I’m just one of the thousand unhappy wretcheds), but if you did you’d say I was just trying to get somebody’s attention by saying I was gonna push a knife into my belly (what just ended up in tears).Of course, I’m going to kill myself, I didn’t change my mind but you more than anyone know […]
I cant stop crying… my life my relationships have all gone to shit. I havent felt this alone in a while… i feel trapped, used, unwanted and really hurt. I need to get out of here out of this situation out of these toxic relationships… birthdays in 3 days… happy birthday to me.
i thought you would be there for me
you promised me that you would
but now you broke that promise
and you may have broken me
but do i let you know about my shattered heart
about the tears running down my face
about the urge to cut because i need you
do i let you know about the sadness dwelling inside of me
of course not because that would break you
and if i broke you i would be indirectly breaking myself
its sad how i know that you dont need me
as much as i need you in my life
but yet i […]