My family is …
Yesterday I heard my parents discussing, they were in their room and the door was closed (they talk so loud I can hear miles away), my father confessed he was cheating my mother.She is so stupid and people tell her harsh words everytime and she never does anything about it, she’s 45, how long will she bear everything in silence?.I don’t even know why they’re still married, but I’m sure they’re not in love anymore, plus my father is always getting into trouble and hurting other people’s feelings.He has been had struggles with alcohol and smoking since they married more than […]

Well fuck its been a while since I last posted something on here. Just another dose of disappointment and frustration, have no other way to vent but post it up. Because no one likes that sorta shit up on facebook! LOL

ANYWAYS, how is everyone doing? Great I hope, but by the looks of all these post. Not looking too flash atm huh? Don’t you wish you could just turn back time & change things only because you’ve disappointed yourself for the decisions that you’ve made and you don’t want anyone else to know? Yes, no…maybe? haha its is a terrible feeling, especially if you’re the […]

I don’t know what to say, what to do, or who I should tell? Should I make a video? A post online? A note? Or should I simply disappear, leaving no explanation. If they cared enough they’d already know what the cause was. By now, I’m sure from the context of the title and the website I’m at you can conclude I’m talking about the big day.. the day I die. Or maybe I don’t die? Maybe I’m reborn. My god, if that’s the case I just want to live a happier life next time. Oh, and my deadline is in August. I don’t know exactly when […]

Everyday my heart breaks more.
The pieces are soon to be shattered.
It’s painful yes.
Do I tell anyone, no.
I’m better off dead.
I’m not anything special.
Just a lost person.
That won’t be finding their way around life.
Pain is getting too much.
I don’t know how to release it anymore.
Don’t know how to cope.
I don’t feel anything but pain.
Pain and heartbreak.
So heartbroken.
That no one truly loves me.
Family hates me.
Hates my style.
Hates my music.
Hates it.
Friends.
Don’t know the true me.
If they did they’d hate me too.
All I ever asked for was […]

I could seriously just end my life, just like that. Nothing’s stopping me, not even the words of my ”friends &family”. All I see is pain. Give me a break you deluded, sellf-servant prick. If you really believe in the words that you preach, get off your screens and onto the streets! Ahhh Bring Me The Horizon always has the right words… Yet people succeed flawlessly into ignoring people who have the right words. They don’t care about nothing but money anymore and it saddens me, even scares me. This world is a waste, humans have destroyed it, well most of it. There are still […]

Ya estoy cansada… no planeo que ha alguien le interese saber o no lo que estoy escribiendo y menos lo que estoy sintiendo.

Me veo a mi y me doy cuenta que ya soy la clase de persona que nacio para ser “la otra mujer” estar sola.. ser algo que no pertenece a nadie que ha su vez no tiene a nadie, aunque esto suene muy tentador como simbolo de libertad, creo que puedo decir abjertamente que es completamente lo opuesto. Libertad es tener el poder de hacer lo que quieras con la certeza de que nada te frena.

Mi caso se da de una familia que […]

I don’t even know what to to anymore. I feel so alone and I have no one to talk to, so I guess that’s why I’m here. I’m 16 and I’ve been struggling with depression since my stepfather (he was like my dad) walked out on me when I was 11. My mom left him and I saw him for a little while after that, but eventually he told me he didn’t want to see me anymore because he had a girlfriend with a kid and wanted to start over. my biological dad isn’t around, and has never made any attempt to contact me. I […]

I have a plan I believe it will change the world… maybe but anyway kik me at: YD_LaSephiroth or message me on Facebook my name is LaMarcus Favors or text me 470-400-1951 ill explain the details..

I feel numb to all happiness surrounding me. I smoke pot daily, just so I feel a thrill from this life, and a little escape from every day’s crap. I need a bigger trip. Like mush or acid. Or love. I’ve been waiting for someone to love for 17 years now. All I got was hurt and scared. I just need to kiss and hug and comfort someone.Talk and cry with them. Run and laugh and live with them. All I have is a broken sister, an overwhelmed mother and a hole in my heart. I feel so empty and even tho I love myself, […]

But my uncle said that if I really wanted to show I love him I had to not cut tonight so tomorrow I could tell him “good news”.

I mean, I told him to not be mad if I slip, which is proving difficult….but if it will make him happy then okay, I’ll try my best not to. We’ve been through a lot together and he’s almost like my best friend….so I guess it’s the least I could do for him.

Ugh but I can hear that blade calling….”let me kiss your skin….it won’t hurt for long at all”

maybe some music and a good movie will […]

I have always loved school.  When I was a little girl I had a ritual, I would watch Martina McBride’s music video for Concrete Angel before school.  I also have eleven cousins and only two of which are older than me.  Because of this I’ve always wanted to help people, especially children.  It’s always been my goal.  I go to a special school that helps prepare students for a certain career that they are thinking of going into.  I go for Childhood Education and Human Services, and I LOVE the class.  My teachers have even told me that I’m the best student out of the […]

I was talking in psychology class, someone mentioned suicide being so terrible, asked what I thought. Now why the fuck did she ask me that?

I’m so tired of everything. So tired. A basic run through of my life is expected I guess so here goes. My name is Shawn, and I’m a depressed loser who’s 15 and lives in Texas. My depression started when I was a little kid. I was exceptionally smart, to the point of having the IQ of a genius. For this, I was constantly picked on to the point where I had to hide bruises from my mum. In addition to that, I was touched as a child by my stepfather. All of this combined to become clinical depression, before advancing into MDD, MAD, DID, […]

It’s Friday

Her alarm goes off at 6:00am…she hits the snooze button. “I do not want to get up today.” She pulls the cover over her face and falls back asleep until 7:00am.

She finally gets the energy to get up out of bed and drags herself into the shower, and begins to get ready for school. As she’s getting ready she occasionally looks out the window – the fog is rolling in and its windy. She sighs deeply inside…”I don’t want to go to school today”. Putting on her make up, she gives up halfway and gets dressed. With the little energy she has, she throws her […]

So I have a friend who is in all honors classes and she acts all preppy and nice and innocent but when she gets around me she acts her true self (cursing, talking shit, laughing, making jokes you know the normal stuff us teens do). So we were in school in the hallway and she cursed and one of her teachers walked by , so she ran around the corner hiding to make surehe didnt know it was her. As she was running she told me not to say her name outloud because she didnt want her teacher knowing it was her who cursed and […]

suicidal thoughts & cutting have always been apart of my life but when i decided to quit it became extremely hard on me. i had delt with all my problems this way & now i dont have that. i have to find another way of dealing with my problems so i decided to start writing. my school councelor gave me this idea. he told me that i can make it. im a strong person.i suppose… if all the other people that cut & have tried suicide can quit than so can i.

Hello.

I hate people. I feel stressed everytime someone talks to me or looks at me. I only feel comfortable if I know someone. But still, I don’t really want to be friends with them, they usually annoy me or make me bored. I probably have some kind of phobia or whatever. What I really like to do is to watch the pranks on youtube, play computer games, eat good food and workout. I’d like to live alone and drink whisky. I hate parties except if I’m drunk. I’m 16, I forgot to mention. I am only opened if I drink too much.  Do I have […]

People have little choice over the circumstances they are born into- even less do we have a choice about being born in the first place. Life and its trials are unceremoniously thrust upon us.

Most people, if asked, would not want to end their lives. Sure enough, time inevitably breeds vanity as a survival mechanism in all of us.

It is a very different question to ask if someone would’ve preferred not to have been born at all. Many people who are not suicidal would still, if they had the power to turn back time, wish to prevent their birth.

To me this speaks of a fundamental lack […]