I’m not destined

I’ve  always know that I’m not destined to be here, As  long as I can remembered  I’ve not fitted In school,college,work,peers and family. I don’t feel like I belong, It does not help that my life as not be the easiest off ones, no one really gets me I don’t  really blame them. Who would want to get  love or care for me I’m worthless I’m better off removing myself form this world. I’ve tried to end this endless pain on a couple off times I’ve been unlucky to be find on all off the occasions. Some would say that its not my time I strongly disagree I’ve just timed it wrong. I car’t cope with this anymore the endless nightmare what my life not having anything to look forward  every day is the same I get up its not often I can lever the house on my own as I’m too afraid off whats out there I cart hang on much longer I know how and where I will pass (end it) I just don’t know when I need to time it just right where I’m planning to do it not many people who know off it you just get dog walkers and the time I will do it there be no walkers for a good 5/6 hours Its just the date I’m not sure off. This will end and it will end soon…