Funny how the victims get put in therapy while the fuck heads don’t

I can’t help myself. I’m just a bad masochist gay person. I want to die… Everything is pain … I have a sick thoughts. I remeber the days when i was trying to chase my brother just to satisfy him sexualy. And he’s calling me names … Devil and so on etc … I wish and hope that this is just a bad dream or a nightmare …
I just want to sleep … For God’s sake …

Where are you guys!? Are you guys okay? are you safe? is everything great?…..I hope all is well…if not…roll up a good one 😀

I’ve been married for eight years. Before that I was married to someone else for five. So I haven’t been by myself for a very long time. I have two children, a boy and a girl. They are the reason I haven’t done it yet.
I understand now why I am always sad, and why I fall in love with men who can’t love me back. My parents could never love me and there is a hole in my heart where there ought to be confidence. I was raised to be a good christian girl and always serve others. I was never supposed to want […]

I wish,

oh how I wish I had the strength to bring my breath to a stop,

I’m stuck between my loved ones and death,

And they don’t suspect my last breath.

— I wish i had the strength to kill myself, but I cant, because no one knows what death is like. So many religions around the world have their own ideals and perspectives. Some I used to follow till they yelled, stared down at me, ignore me, bullied me and drove me into the smallest corner of the church to hide. Til’ my family was done with their business there.  Sometimes my sister would sit next to […]

I feel hurt, angry, a little frightened. One of my best male friends moved in with me and a few other people back in the fall, and we’ve been close. Though, I’ve gotten noticeably more depressed. I didn’t figure out why until today. For our entire friendship, my friend has been trying to get romantically involved with me, regardless of whether I’m with someone or not. Because I’m too stupid and trusting, I had no idea. He’s aware of the fact that I’ve been in a few physically, mentally, and emotionally abusive relationships, and has apparently been using manipulative tactics on me. I didn’t realize […]

goodbye cruel world… i never had a chance

i’ve decided that this is the song i want to sleep forever to 🙂

Angel

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day

I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty
Oh and weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear

You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in […]

cant believe i only have four more days before saying my final goodbyes! i’ve already set my away letter for my mom, tonight, i’m going to do one for my dad.

thanks to the people here for everything. honestly, just thanks for being a site i can release my thoughts to.

to everyone else here, i hope you find what you’re looking for, or at least you know what you want to do.

goodbye and goodluck. to all of us 🙂

I give up. I can’t fight my ex anymore. I really like my job, and the people I work with aren’t jerks or anything. But I just can’t anymore. I think I’m going to give my two weeks notice and then use the two weeks to finalize my plans. Its time to leave

In spite of the upward trend in my life over the last couple of months, tonight I am just feeling so alone and deeply sad….both indications of a depressive episode.  All indications are that my life will continue to trend upward.  But Sam Harris’ rendition of the Bonnie Raitt classic I Can’t Make You Love Me is just speaking for me.  I love the phrasing, his obvious pain and the fact that he didn’t over sing it….none of those ridiculous runs that prevent you from hearing the raw ache of the melody.  I was able to sing like this until heart failure and other complications robbed me of my […]

I feel like I’m losing you but you’re not even mine.

You’re going far away from me and I can’t reach you. Not even a little.

You’re the sun. And I’m the moon. 
When you’re up I’m down.

And it feels like dying. It feels like hell. 
I guess, I need to let you go away.

I really love being ignored and forgotten… Said no one ever.

I hate having a friend that has a life.  It makes me feel so out of place.  Honestly, It’s like I need that person but they don’t need me.  It’s the truth, and it sucks.  Really, they are just there out of pity.  Pity, pity, pity. Fuck you, pity.

Yeah whatever.

I hate I hate I hate,

It never ends,

Am engulfed,

en-flamed,

en-raged,

end; it never,

i feel, i hurt,

i hurt, i feel,

loop by loop,

around we go, everlasting,

full circle we come,

perpetuating.

I have this wild urge to drop everything to move away and be a stripper in a big city.
Is that considered reckless behavior? or reckless thinking in this case?
I’m almost drawing up a game plan here to leave this winter.

I’ll end up destroying myself.. I can feel it

I wish all of us on here could just get together in one place and hug and cry and eat a lot of food. Especially since so many of us are so lonely and no one else understands what we’re going through.

hello . this my first comment on this site. where to begin . well things are not good atm. I’ve no prospects. bad luck with money . no chance in hell getting into college so there goes my dream job of being a web developer . combined with the fact I’ve an awful case of dyspraxia which means I struggle with simple tasks. I’m 24 years old living a nightmare everyday. I struggle everyday afraid of what this year will bring. I see death as an answer . I tried to hang my self back in 08 but fucked it up of […]

its time to go

not long now ill be gone soon

if you miss me look at moon

it not long now

ill always ask how

as i take my final breath

all gone

all over

now im greeting death

I feel like I’m just full of hot air, everytime I get to the bottom of the bottom I can’t seem to end it. I tell myself alright you ***** you tried once and failed but you know what they say try and try again. I believe that maybe there is something keeping me here but lately its getting harder to believe myself.