May everyone always be blessed! ^_^
Although you may think of me
as a Suicidal Teen. I don’t think of myself like that.
I think of myself as trying to be saved cause I know there’s still that
one slither of hope.
So next time you see me know I’m really trying here,
and not just letting my fears win ; there pretty damn close to
overcoming me if I do say so myself.
If life is just a game and it’s not fair,
why don’t you sit and stare
at the knife you have lodged in my back,
while your mind still screams “Attack Attack”
Been crying for two days straight, can’t deal with the pain no more.
I really tried but seems I’m not strong enough
Well guess I was right all these months I suspected I had more damage from this hell of a relationship. I kind of suspected I had been damaged to point even if I did manage to get out of this relationship I would nvr be able to be with any other guy again. Guy approached me from behind in the store saying baby an I flipped out,i went in to a rage before I even realized it was happening  an I guess by look on my face I scared him. Turns out it was my ex and he didn’t know how to act around me […]
I’ve taken to calling people who are considered “normal”, the collective. Like the Borg. Resisting them is futile, because they’ll just ruin you with their asshole-ness. Evasion is futile, because they always find the people who aren’t like them. Only problem is, I can’t be absorbed into the collective.
And this is stupid…..but I don’t care, I’m tired
I’m trying really hard to be strong, but it’s really difficult and I’m having a really hard time. number one priority, i HAVE to graduate. i spent hours in the studio tonight and will spend hours in the studio tomorrow. but then there are all my other classes. i can’t look at his messages, it will make me fail, and that’s exactly what he wants. i have no time for a social life. i miss him so badly, but not his insanity. how cruel can he be?! he keeps seeing how badly he can hurt me. I’m so heartbroken and I’m trying so hard […]
I am where you are right now and have tried too end it and probably won’t stop trying but just remember that there are others like you. You are not alone, I’m not going too tell you that you are going too get better and that life will be fine. It never gets better and probably never will. Just remember that you are not alone and maybe just maybe you can do what I can’t and take solace in the fact that you are just a single person but you have an army of people just like you behind you.
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He is destroying me. He doesn’t even care that he is killing me inside. I feel so alone and I’m completely lost. My friends and family act like I shouldn’t care and that I shouldn’t be upset. I didn’t want us to end..especially not because of my stupid parents. I’ve been miserable for the last 2 months..He made me happy. I felt that he was my escape from reality. I could be myself around him and he didn’t judge me. He told me he loved me and wanted me. I fell into the abyss. I am now slowly fading away. I want to die. I feel so […]
continuing from Story of my life.. part 2
It was Christmas eve, everything was great. Until Nick came up to me and told me he couldn’t be with me any longer. He told me he had fallen out of love. That was it. He walked away. I didn’t know what to do. At first I was doubting it even happened. It was probably another daydream of some sort. But it was true. He left me standing in a hallway, never looked back. I was told to just move on. Time will heal. In a few weeks you’ll be just fine. There’s lots of fish in the […]
I was ten the first time i tried to kill myself. I don’t even remember why, exactly. But I do know that it wasn’t “serious” enough (how can a ten year old make a serious attempt?) to do any real damage, and I was able to hide that I’d done it. And I knew to hide it because I knew, even back then, that you Did Not Talk About It.
I’m not a fan of religion for a number of reasons, but a big one is because I grew up in the kind of religious environment where being unhappy was considered a moral failing. If you […]
Is life really worth it? I’m honestly curious. Because for me, my life isn’t worth it.
I’ve been having so much trouble lately. I’m too stressed, I’ve been incredibly suicidal. And I can’t sleep. And it’s all because of people. I just wish I could meet someone who was genuine and actually just wanted to carry on a conversation. But who knows, I might not be here long enough to ever find out…I just want to know if it’s worth it to stay and try to find that person.
I don’t want to be here anymore
Everyone wonders if there is a way to make suicide:
painless
like an accident
untraceable
etc.
There is an 8 ingredient injection that I have found, bit 5 ingredients are near impossible to get. so now you know. Don’t ask me to make it or how to make it. I won’t tell.
I tried messaging and approaching girls on dating sites in various ways and I have only failed so far. They either didn’t respond or we exchanged a couple of messages and then they didn’t respond. One even deleted her account after we messaged a few times -.-
Can you tell me what you would want to hear from a stranger if you were on a dating site? I mean, it doesn’t really matter what you write in those first few messages; meeting someone in person is way more important, that is when you really get to know each other and can decide whether you like the […]
It’s been 3 hours and I already failed! I’m so fucking weak. A small woman destroyed me!
Anyone know how to make a suicide look like an accident?
I have seen how suicide affects others, I know the pain left behind. I have seen people fall apart after a loved one takes their lives, I have seen it for myself.
I know that it’s a permanent fix to temporary problems. I know how selfish it seems. I know that even though my pain will be gone I will leave pain for others.
I know all of this yet it’s still all I can think about. How I will do it. When it would be the best time. Where. What I would say to everyone, how I would say it. What people would think.