So im really heartbroken that my now x bf the one that helped me with everything and to get back up and feel good about my self has been cheating on me from the very beginning. Ill be taking my leave for about 2 days or maybe 2 weeks but ill try to get on a write something good for you guys. Good bye.

For a while, i’ve thought this site might be useful. Sure, some of it can get repetitive, but it’s good for people to hear themselves, and get a candid response, not matter how juvenile. Now, I’m mot so sure.

I know wonder if it is monitored by some victimy-undergratuates looking to validate their projections. I spent a couple of hours last night responding to someone. It was my hope this individual might get a chance to read it when they awoke in their time zone.To me it was genuine and heart felt and did not contain *any* of the heated […]

Floating, staring at the sky,

telling myself I should try.

Can’t lose anything, or can I?

Am I afraid of her reply?

Will she say forever good bye?

What to do, but sigh;

I’m not that kinda guy,

just quiet and shy.

In the blink of an eye

last chance passed by.

What’s left is tears to cry,

and asking myself why

am I so bloody shy?

I wait for hours
I wait up all night
I wait
Hoping that someone will be there.
Will be there to help me pick up myself
Help me pick up my broken heart
Help me put it back together for the next day
But alas its like last night
And the night before last night
No one is there for me like I am there for them
I simply cant take it anymore
I have waited far too long and too much
I wait every night until 1-2 am
Then the pain comes
Crushing me
Making me want to die
Why am I so dependent?

Why ? Just why do we have to always be in pain ? It feels like no matter what I do to try and get better . I end up in the same place i started in.

Why don’t people have the right to commit suicide? As soon as a person says that they are going to kill themselves all of their rights get taken away from them. It is their life and their body why can’t they kill them selves if they so wish? People have the right to abortion, that is also dealing with life and death. Generally people who kill themselves have been dealing with depression for years, wouldn’t it be easier for them to just kill them self? Who is to say it will get better?

I ask a simple question and expect a simple answer,

but no I get yelling and arguing back.

I tell you something important,

and you blow it off like you’ve heard it before.

I cry about the biggest and smallest things,

and you treat my tears like shit.

I dream about the greatest things in life,

only for you to be the nightmare when I wake up.

im done with the waiting around
but i can stop it; i just cant stop it
it hurts to wait for people like this
but i have to; i force myself too
i try to let people go and on their way
instead of them hanging around me
and me bring them down to my level
but i cant let go of these people
and i dont know why because i need to
i need to let them go because soon
ill be going myself; ill be on my way
and maybe its going to hurt them
or maybe not, but all i know
as […]

“you put me through hell cause loving you is a war
I hope to God you’re happy, I hope that you had fun”
*Nothing’s Forever; Jamestown*

“Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness”
*How to Save a Life; The Fray*

“You’re the one that I love
And I’m saying goodbye”
*Say Something; A Great Big World*

“If love’s a fight, then I shall die,
with my heart on a trigger.”
*Angel With a Shotgun; The Cab”

“You don’t know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you”
*The Scientist; Coldplay*

“Til all my sleeves are stained red

for once i felt finally okay
i felt good
i felt like i was going to recover soon
but then it came crashing down
this wave of depression
it hit me and it hurt me
everything started coming back again
the nightmares, the voices, everything
the urge to cut is greater now
ive found out more ways to hurt myself
it doesnt do any good though
but i do like and i dont know why
i started eating full meals
a few days ago
but now that has changed
i can feel my family stare
as i go to get food
judging me
watching me

Last night, i worked 12 hour so i’ll be making $82 from that. sounds like a lot right, not really. Tomorrow i got to work again from 2pm to 8pm thankfully and i’ll probably be working by myself.  there is this woman at my work, and she’s a supervisor, manager or something but basically she’s my boss and she’s definitely bossy but it’s sexy, you know? is it just me or does anyone else find bossy women sexy? she was giving me attitude and kind of pissed me off but i was turned on then she was talking to someone and stuck her ass out […]

Do you regret that you started cutting?

Do you think your life would be better if you never started?

Im just going to post some random pic of a dog i can relate to.
Fuck some people are stupid!?…!
Arrg! Sniff the sting! Im no good for anyones mind! Numbing sensation of jumbled thoughts. Racing truths through my head, Zombies! *sigh*
Mhhhrrrg! Fuck them, JUST…

X-C

im sorry i havent been around lately, things were getting better and then worse again… you know, the ussual….  but this time, i think im realy done…  ive picked my best 4 options, and have started to subtily say my goodbyes…  its hard to fully explain everything as many of you would know.  and although i feel a need to, i wont..  because its quite impossible…

just know that i did try, and that the help ppl have tried to give me, did matter…  it gave me a couple more years to make sure that this is what is best…  there is no place for me […]

I’m a 13 year old girl in 8th grade and 2013 was a hard year for me along with the start of 2014. I had already had problems in my family before but all of this made it worse. My parents got divorced when I was 2 and while I was growing up, I was told that they just weren’t happy so it was the best thing for them to do. Around this time last year my grandma told me that my father had been cheating on my mom and got another women pregnant. I grew up thinking that my father was some great guy, […]

Ow are you sadie?
ow my goodinesh :'(
why are you sad?
your sunshine didn’t shine today?
don’t get sad
you’re soo preetty *u*
you’re soo cuuddly ><
reeally sweetie ^^
donchu want to get…haaappy?
smiiiile ^u^
if you don't smile I'm going to cuddle you
and tickle your belly :3
I knew you'd be smiling at this point 🙂

My dog is sick again…

I want a peaceful passing. No drama. No pain. All my life I’ve only been pretending. People tell me to follow my desires. To do what I want. I want my sufferings to end. I just cannot cope anymore.

Personally was never a cutter. Carbon monoxide is what I’ll use.

I’m doing the world a favour by dying.