I have been with Antonella for a couple of months, we laughed and exchanged opinions, she was very smart and at times i used to confess her something about myself..I asked her to be more intimate, she refused. She said no. I’m too fucked up in the head, she wouldn’t be right, i “need a special person”.

This thing haunts me. It haunts me. I can’t stay, i can’t sleep. She liked me. I swear my fucking balls she liked me. What is wrong, what is wrong, what

is

wrong with me and the people like me

I guess im just Tired

Tired of being bitched about by my parents.

Tired of being laughed at.

Tired of being made fun of.

Tired of feeling ugly.

Tired of being ignored.

Tired of feeling unloved.

Tired of no one caring.

Tired of pretending to be happy.

Tired of being Tired.

I’m thinking of leaving… This world has so much pain and I don’t want anyone else to feel my pain. How do I get everyone to hate me so that I can leave without the ones who love me feeling pain too?

Why are we treated like fools just because we do what we do to our selfs let me tell you if only you knew how it felt but then again what do I know I’m insane I think of people getting tortured just for fun and guess what I’m doing it to them but let me tell you whose next your next

Twinkle twinkle little star

please let me get hit by this car .

How I really want to die

jump off the roof and try to fly.

Twinkle twinkle little knife,

help me end my wretched life.

In the morning I want to die

in the morning I want to cry

in the morning they don’t see my tears,

in the morning they don’t live my fears.

And at night it’s even worse,

I think I have some type of curse.

at night I lie awake thinking, “Why am I still here?”

they don’t need me so now where?

And at night I lie awake

thinking about the morning.

The teardrops run down

And fall off her nose

She cries in dark corners were

nobody goes.

You can follow her tracks

from her eyes to her chin,

Years upon years of letting them win.

And her eyes tell a story

of anger and pain.

You think that’s she’s happy

but just look again.

And the scars in her past

hidden under her clothes

are a roadmap to places that nobody knows.

Her smile is now painted,

shes a master of disguise,

And you can see it […]

I just spent 10 days in the hospital on suicide watch. The only person to see me was my wife and kids. My one friend and that’s it. I laid in bed so alone and upset. Where did I go so wrong in my life. Have a kick ass career and 2 beautiful girls. It all started when I was a kid. My grandmother use to put me in a closet so she could tell my dad I wasn’t there when he came to pick me up. I grew up always wanting my dad and couldn’t understand why he wasn’t there. Than my mom married […]

you’ve completely pushed me over the edge. i don’t care if the messages stopped. you said just enough, enough times, and left it how you did, knowing how cruel you are. how could you beat a person down that badly that many times? how could you just keep hurting me that badly? what’s wrong with you? do you actually believe all of the horrible things you kept saying to me?! do you think you’re sane?! you can’t be! you have so many issues that are far beyond me. how could you hurt me this badly? how can you be so cruel. i don’t care what […]

And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.
And God saw the light and told us it was good;
And most of us believed Him.

But some of us did not; some of us could not dance and frolic and sacrifice our sons in His name,
Because it didn’t make any sense.

So God told his followers that we are evil;
And there was hatred in the world.

And those of us who dwelt in darkness were cast out, mocked, tormented and beaten. And God made large stone & steel buildings where we were to be taken and fed drugs to make us stop being […]

Just wondering what do you guys think of corporal punishment? When would you say that disciplining a child constitutes abuse?

I don’t think I can say that I was ever beaten as a child, but I was certainly slapped. A lot. The hardest I’ve ever been hit out of discipline left a red mark which lasted about 6 hours and then disappeared.. which isn’t bad at all. Personally I think the main issue for me was the emotional distress it caused rather than the physical pain. However I also think the “discipline” I received was a bit in excess.. like how many times would you slap […]

What can you say when life seems to just beat you down?
What can you say when it feels like you’re stuck with an unyielding frown?
What can you say when you body starts refusing to do what you ask?
What can you say when you mind gives you trouble with even a simple task?
What can you say when your family can’t seem to understand?
What can you say when things you took joy in now feels bland?
What can you say when you are no longer sure of what you can do?
What can you say when the thought of this will make […]

Well, I’ve got the MRI to check out my knee on Thursday. Either they’ll find something they can fix and I’ll have surgery so I can walk for the first time since January, or they won’t find anything and it turns out that I just have severe nerve damage without anything they can fix and I won’t be able to walk using my own strength ever again.  At least this doc was honest with me.

Hey, I’m sixteen years old (almost seventeen) and I just really can’t cope anymore. I have no reason to live.

I’ve not had friends in years. Nobody wants to talk to me unless they want something off of me. And because I want friends really bad, I just let them use me, but then they leave. I guess I could say I have abandonment issues. I’ve been basically abandoned my whole life.

I don’t exactly have a family either. Well, they’re there, but I don’t even exist to them unless they want something from me (usually money) Which yes, sounds oddly strange since I’m only 16, but […]

“maybe tomorrow will change my mind…”

“maybe tomorrow will bring something i can’t predict or foresee, that will be worth the wait, and all the lost time…”

“maybe i don’t have to go yet, and maybe tomorrow won’t be as bad as it always seems to end up being…”

But… probably not.

Maybe i’m tired of deluding myself in the name of survival… since survival itself seems to be a detrimentally fruitless endeavor.

If i have to go through the mental acrobatics of deluding myself intentionally… i need to gain something worthwhile, to justify doing that. But that doesn’t seem to ever happen.

So i keep thinking…

“maybe tomorrow…”

…Once you realize this, life becomes a bit easier to bear. The truth is, whether you asked to exist or not doesn’t matter. Whether you have a loving family, a good circle of friends, and a boy/girlfriend doesn’t matter. If you’re poor and suffer from some physical impairment, that also doesn’t matter. Why not, you ask?

Simply because life isn’t fair. Some people are born ahead of others, whether they’re subjectively ‘good’ people or not. Some people just suffer their whole lives for no reason at all.

The universe doesn’t give a fuck about your happiness. So if you’ve been holding out and hoping things are going […]

Theres no point in anything you do, in 200 years u will be forgoten No God No right No WRong, No karma, and the world is fucked

We are all put on the earth for something. Why give up now? Yes, your weak, you got fired, you hate your job, your significant other left you, your family doesnt listen to you, you get bullied, you arent good enough, etc…But does that mean give up? Today? Right now? No. You wake up with a positive attitude,  say I am going to be strong if your weak, Put on your best outfit and find a job if you lost yours, Go to work and kill them with kindness if you hate it, say Fuck That ***** if your partner left you , if your […]