Tears;
Droplets upon our faces
Screams;
Loud, unheard voices
Whispers;
Little nothings thrown into the wind
Smiles;
One fakes these
Laughs;
A different sound for each of us
Knives;
To cut away the pain on our skin
Pills;
A way to escape this reality of our world
Eyes;
Dark and dull, observing, watching, glaring
Ears;
They hear the insults, the screams, the voices
Mouths;
They talk, they whisper, they scream
Hearts;
They’re broken throughout the day

Why should I keep living? Why should I keep waiting? Why should I keep going? Why should I go on? Why should I keep screaming? Why should I keep crying? Why?

that doesn’t want to catch the bus alone?

Just trying to register for this site made me consider swallowing a bottle of pills.

Anyone suffering from depression knows it can be very hard to concentrate on even simple tasks. I hate that part of depression, it makes me appear so dumb at times. Trying to remember how to spell words is so hard for me.

its amazing to realize how much stress/depression/anxiety have an effect on almost all aspects of my life,  especially so many physical things.  But of course (according to my family) there is really nothing wrong with me.

So many questions
Not enough answers
So many wounds
Not enough bandages
So many tears
Not enough tissues
So many pieces
Not enough tape
So many scars
Not enough memories

So much sadness
Not enough happiness
So much hate
Not enough love
So much hurt
Not enough comfort
So much pain
Not enough pleasure
So much negativity
Not enough positivity

Do you see how much I need you right now?

You’re the one that I love and I’m saying goodbye.

Will you let her go?

You lift me up just so I fall.

I wish you were here.

I’m barely hanging on.

I learned to live, half alive.

Just one chance, just one breath; Just in case there’s one left.

No you don’t know what it’s like.

There’s many things I wish I didn’t do.

Songs: When You’re Gone, Say Something, Let Her Go, Reckless Heart, Wish You Were Here, Behind Those Hazel Eyes, Jar of Hearts, Far Away, Welcome To My Life, The Reason

Does that even make sense?

My life has been fraught with death.  Now it’s all around me, like a heavy curse

And it’s only going to keep happening.  It’s only going to get worse.  How can this be tolerable?

I was thinking that it’s one more reason to get out of here.  By dying, you beat the others to the punch.  You don’t have to watch a presumably healthy person vanish before your eyes.

I don’t really think I’m equipped to deal with it, considering.  Just like I’m not equipped to deal with life in general.

Why sit around and watch the horrible parts of life happen?  Especially when that’s […]

just die. please. end this. there’s a train coming right towards me and i don’t even move. what’s wrong with me?! have i no shame? have i no honor? have i no GOD? indeed, i’m a disgrace to my family of achievers. yes, i’m a man who wastes his days away playing swtor and masturbates everyday. i want to change. but i can’t. but i wanted to. i think i don’t want to. every time i look at the mirror, all i see is the embodiment of failure.

i know my girlfriend is sick of me being negative. why shouldn’t she? there are millions of positive, […]

When I look at others, I think to myself.. Wow they must have an amazing life and family, when really they don’t. They may act happy, they may act like they have everything they could ever want. Most people have given me the impression that they get what they want, and ask me why I act like I have nothing. I use to think they had more than me, when in reality, I have more than them. Their parents don’t care. They try but never receive the affection they deserve. Parents with a lot of money don’t pay attention to their family, they focus more […]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SXy6JElmgHU

I believe it’s common sense that ignoring others is pretty rude, especially if you talk to them or ask them something, whether it is in person or over the internet. Do they just not know? Like forgetting that you asked them a question? Or do they not want to talk to you for whatever reason? And if that is the case why don’t they just say that? Do they actually think that not responding is the better choice? Do they not realize what an impact this simple choice has on others? Or do they know and  just like the fact that they are in a […]

My ex blocked me on fb again. This is the fourth or so time. This time I didn’t say anything. I really didn’t. Its all because I typed “k” instead of “ok”. He didn’t give me time to explain that I had to type one handed, with my non dominant hand, or that the reason was that I was trying to stop the bleeding because I fell off the wagon yet again.

I have been in a battle with myself for about 2 years. Ever since I was 9 my family has told me that I need to lose weight because im fat. Yeah a 9 year old should lose weight. I’m actually not fat at all but I’m still in a battle to lose weight. i strain myself to work out. I know what you’re thinking just find someone to talk to. Well guess what I don’t have anyone. My mom never listens to me when I try to talk to her about my day or something she completely tunes me out. She has some “mental […]

It’s kind of a funny story
Time: 1hr 41 min
Rating: PG 13
Category: Comedy, Drama
Starring; Keir Gilchrist, Zach Galifianakis, Emma Roberts
Craig is a high school boy who wants to commit suicide. He has many things that made him attempt to. He loves his best friend’s girlfriend, Nia. Craig also feels that his mother is too sensitive and his father always says the wrong things at the wrong times. Craig as a teenage boy needs his parents. He always feels that he is not smart enough. His expectations are not realistic. If he does not go to summer school it does not mean […]

greetings,
well where do i start?
Im 17 and in my last year of school. i didnt know i would ever make it to year 12 but i have and this could possible be the worst year of my life. i feel tired all the time, i’ve began to cry over simple things like it being too hot while walking home. at night i think about how i could kill myself so i dont wake up thinking about how much im going to fail this year. everyone tells you year 12 is the most important year and at the moment i dont believe in myself […]

I’m not going to kill myself yet, or maybe ever,  if I discover something to live for. Which is unlikely.

I’m thinking I’ll wait until my parents die. I’m seventeen now, so that’ll be a while. I don’t know what to do with my life. I want the emptiness to go away. I’ve given up on myself a long time ago – I don’t have a co-dependent personality disorder, but I can only force myself to exist if it’s because other people need me. So if I never find anyone else, as soon as both of my parents are gone I’ll go to a place where […]

I used to care about things like success, and school, and grades… but now it’s like none of that matters anymore. I’ve gotten to the point where I don’t care what happens to me anymore. I;m not sure what to do anymore. I’m just drifting around now, with no purpose. Pain is the only thing I can control now. That’s better than nothing.

I stumbled upon this site, and felt a sudden pang go through me.
These new posts are from today.
I realized there are people posting right now, feeling incredibly suicidal with no one to talk to.
That scares me. It makes me sad.

Guys, a year ago I was in your place.
I promise you, it gets better. You must have heard it a thousand times. You must think it’s bullshit. I did. I never thought it — I — could get better.
But it did. I did.
I promise it can be like that for you, too.
I promise.
You just have to hold on.

I was born disabled. My disability is not something that can be seen physically, or even be cured medically. At first I didn’t recognize my differences from others. But all my life I have been feeling it, and even unconsciously struggling to mend it. I was so confused because I didn’t even understand what’s wrong with me. I thought by knowing what’s wrong with me, I could cure it. But I had never understood, so I gave up and started to accept that I would always be like this. Turn out, I was wrong and I was right. I was wrong because even knowing what’s […]

Hi Guys,

It’s seems like it’s been a while since I’ve talked to you. Doesn’t it? It’s been only a week…

How are you guys? Hopefully better than I am…

How am I? Physically: Sore Mentally: Broken

My physical state… Is just sore… I’m so exhausted these days… I’m tired and I just don’t know what to do… My headaches aren’t that constant or daily, but I do get them often… I have more panic attacks these days… I have more break downs these days… I don’t know guys… I just don’t know anymore.

My mental state… […]